Man doesn’t want to embarass anyone
or make anyone feel guilty
about the status quo
of being a man
so he cries alone by the river
as often as it rains
he listens to his breath
through the flute
his daughters
who are his heart
secretly overrule his manhood
when man is done
brutally expelling
threats to families
securing land for whiteness
slaughtering natives
pillaging foreign hearts
he puts the violence safely aside
the violence that shapes
moments of peace
the warrior walks naked through his home
vulnerable
weaponless
expelling threats
returning to tranquility and love
innocence is lost
then regained
making them stronger
and stronger
man
the real man
is a secret

colonialism is making me nervous
and is doesn't even deserve us

whiteness is a dissociative disorder
whiteness is a dissociative disorder
whiteness is a dissociative disorder
whiteness is a dissociative disorder
whiteness is a dissociative disorder
whiteness was a dissociative disorder
treatment
treatment
treatment
treatment
being human is the cure
being human is the cure
being human is the cure
being human is the cure
being human is the cure
being human is the cure
being human is the cure
being human is the cure
being human is the cure
being human is the cure
being human is the cure
being human was the cure

Ray

dead silence
“its too ****** quiet in here!
No wonder people hang themselves in here. If there were hooks there would be people on each one of them!”
His 60 year old smooth Puerto Rican english
better than the young white prison guard
“I need my meds! Its been 3 days!”
His afro cuban beats on the cell doors
helped me sleep it through
handcuffed together in a fast swerving moving van
a dangerous steel space
with no where to hold
a hard smooth steel bench
slippery and hard
sciatic nerve damage
unmedicated
looking out the diagonal steel lined window
“in the near future. This will be an amusement ride. To show how inhumane it used to be before whiteness was human.”
I slept
he didn’t
his eyes were losing their focus
amazing man being killed by a business
those mental ills of whiteness  
guards had no idea
how special these humans were
that they made them not autonomous
the captivity and its brutality
captivity and bad communication
the failure of whiteness
these prisoners are found not guilty
it should be slanted towards those that our innocent
not slanted toward white mass murderes
or the mental illness of whitenes

whiteness is not sustainable

whiteness
is a verb
it is never a noun

the militant genocidal imaginations
from a far away place
that know not what it is like
to sustain its cruelty of behaviour
while at the same time
in love with the feeling of ****
black women
black women
friction
and not their wives
expecting a good society
while they **** people
in their backyard
and then eat a really silent dinner
and then a camera crew rolls up
for the latest hit TV show
"Most Creepy Narcassistic ******* Psychos Ever"
and is filming threw the window
time lapse
time travel
in a Tardis
like what the **** are we watching?
is this really where whiteness comes from?

riot fighting
don’t use your hands
elbows and knees
only
strictly
very strict
only fast funning starts
no stationary strikes
recoil fast
and frantic
but strike fast and steady
follow through
dedicate

native lives matter
this movement
yes black lives matter
but the vengeance is past due
its native lives that matter
gave us everything
helped black people get free
dying while trying
now they reserved
on reservations
we gonna get em out
free the natives
black lives matter
african lives matter
they doing big things over there
they got our backs whose scars have healed
native lives matter
who do you think
you will ask directions to
when race destroys itself
native lives matter
who will you ask about sustainability?
native lives matter
who brought you all this way
gave the possibility of making the mistake of whiteness
native lives matter
this is the simile of evolution matters
evolution matters

all police need to be black
or I'm not speaking to you anymore

modern native
taking a drive
to console with the eagles
recapturing my breathing
with pinched off
thai basil flowers
first thing in the morning
eating enough Tulsi basil leaves
from the garden
pinched flower breathing
in for 6 seconds
yes a lot of trauma out there
hold for 7 seconds
invisible to recuperate
8 seconds out
everything is perfect
modern native
reminding people
to stop not being human
there is an answer
a cure
a choice
what is the difference
of being white
and being human
when is it that human
became white?
how and why?
oops
apology
modern native
it is one thing to assume
and think
all the natives have been killed
but you must not forget what
natives know about our breathing
and what natives
know about our future
modern native

somehow being black
has to be grandfathered in
to the whole social work scene
early childhood trauma
is very similar
to the collective trauma
collective trauma
of being black in America
being black in America
repetitive child abduction
into brutality
constructing whiteness
whiteness
it is as if the mental health professionals
themselves might have
a dissociative disorder
their behavior
shows dissociative patterns
behaviour

being black
is inherently violent
asking for respect
and being black
is even more inherently violent
there are two types of violence
impulsive
and intelligent
one of them always tries to interrupt
the other is very difficult to interrupt
but since
it is inherently violent
to be black
and asking for respect
even more inherently violent
it is important to calculate violence
to its smallest details
to its largest
most complex social structures

racism in America should be called whitism
are you being "whitist?"

A certain spectrum of whiteness
still is delusional
it thinks it is still torturing black people in private
It functions as if it is out in the barren ocean
on a slave ship
choosing captives to ****
degrade and throw to the sharks
and the patterns of society are used to it
like the sharks that changed their feeding patterns
based on this **** and killing
by slave overseers
The white slave overseers enjoyed **** so much
and the money from it
that a whole social structure was designed around it
the Ivy league institutions made this possible
the government made this possible
communities made this possible
you make it impossible
please
and
thank you

professional warriors of exposure
are uniting quick
exponentially
there is no military that can stop this
the more it tries to subdue with force
and manipulate means to justify force
the worst its punishment will be
the worse for the people that were
complacent
apathetic
investing in a thought
that it will all blow over
like it did when Jim Crow Laws
were incorporated into society
this country has never seen what is going to happen
never before has racism been so
technologically blatant
empathy is more advanced than ever
in America
and the world that which makes America up
There have never been this many oppressed people in so many various spaces that were once reserved for the oppressors
infiltration is American as you can get

The nightmares I’ve had
of my black father
getting hurt
by local white people
from the police
in front of me
to the white people
in front of me
with the confederate flags
who used to threaten us for not being white
and try to beat us up at our birthday parties
try to outnumber us
but always got beat
because of how little of a joke
it actually was

Imagine dying for being black
a new national holiday
starts tomorrow
mourning

seeing things in black and white is because of **** and slavery
it is ******
an experience
being black and white
its not a choice
It cannot be stopped
it is not just a figure of speech
something to say that makes you actually able to be compassionate
or an authority on how society is going to heal
it is exposing a conflict
pleading to be human again
attempting to reclaim a stolen innocence

They were playing the beach boys
all day at work today
I went up to the computer
I typed in Black beach boys on Spotify
a white coworker put her hand on her hips
she said to me,
“Elan, there are no black beach boys, Im sorry.”
So I had my graphic designer friend
take an old beach boys poster
replace their faces with black men
Then he changed it to "Black Beach Boyz”
I put it on a T shirt
very professionally done
made me proud
I wore it to work the next day
My white coworker asked me
with a confused face and tone
“There really are the black beach boys?”
I said with a straight face,
“Yes they were the original. Then the white beach boys took their name and music and became famous.”
She said after a pause,
“Oh, wow. I didn’t know that."

It is understandable
that becoming a police officer
raises the risk of death
It is not understandable
that being black
raises the risk of death
unacceptable

white people need to go back to Africa
Where they came from
Leave us be for a while
so we can grieve
and stop this genocidal anxiety

Okay America
die yourselves black
get back on track
stop being
whack
on the count of three
one
Two
THREE
NOW!

There is always the world that does not forgive
absolute unforgivess
The unbroken trauma in an event
Fearless
Never wavering into the assumptions of indulgence
Never paused long enough
to be understood properly
yet it drives the will to understand
The intervals between events of indulgence
in the frivolity of language
making bare the absurdities
Like fire that needs intelligent attention
to keep us warm
Neglect it and it consumes us all
This world demands a history of its own
Untainted by the acceptance or disputes of compromise
Inalienable direction
Weaving us together with unforgiving charm

miscegeny not misogyny
this is why you don’t know me
it was illegal to understand me
now it is allowed for me to be
nothing
tolerated by language
meant to keep me apart
it is obvious
that it was never intended
for me
to meet
myself
in such an intimate way

Once I stopped crying
gained my composure
in this decomposition of whiteness
I could think it through
what it was
what it is that hit me 2 hours later
while driving
I should have pulled over
all pedestrians became blurry
I wiped my tears away
the way the girlfriend
black and human
watched her boyfriend bleeding to death
with a gun still aimed at him
shaking violently
the gun that is
the white officer holding it
the white t shirt with the blood
I remember going over my handlebars
on my bike at a park
called Look Park
these old white ladies couldn’t here us yelling we were coming
I steered clear and sacrificed myself
they were like the treasure of whiteness
not only white
but for a long time too
I hit a stone wall
it gashed my chin open
my brothers were telling me
"we can see your bone”
My black father took his white t shirt off
he was stopping the blood
none of the park patrol stopped
an excessive amount of time
I remember their eyes as they pretended not to see us
what is making it hardest for me
to remain at all complacent
(not revolting to death, reincarnation)
is the adaptation of the black girlfriend
to the lethally threatening situation of whiteness
the calmness and grace
the persuasion in her voice
its strength without the shakiness
of the white officers gun
the selflessness and desperation
of keeping her composure
that black girlfriend
sharing her experience with me
she needs me to grab the gun from that officer
she needed me
she needed us to surround them
those officers need to be killed
death penalty happens to innocent black people all day everyday
death penalty needs to be used
just for the sake of proximity
to a death of a black person
we need social work
for what we have been through
not shaky violent
white hands with guns
killing us in private
and over social media

the "Black lives matter more than white lives” sign
I had made
is at first a pleading
while bleeding to death
it is then a statement
waking up covered in blood
reincarnated superhuman
blackness
resilience
it is a threat
a promise of the worst imaginable
vengeance and justice
if this sign is not true
ASAP

I get it America
I really do
I am mixed race too
just like you are
I understand how hard it is
to make it look like
there is no internal race conflict
to try and conceal the race war within
putting on fake appearance
to show cooperation
affirmative actions
I also wanted it to look like I was progressive too
moved on from race war
just like you America
There is raging race war within me

I cannot believe Im bleeding again!
all over my white shirt
all over social media
bleeding all over youtube
blood all over academia
how much blood do I have to spill?
why aren’t they standing up for me
bleeding all over whiteness
bleeding all over my heart

been so long we started thinking otherwise
looking forward
when our backs have gone
thought that birth was proving humans to you
thought that we could

ever since black women have been allowed to play tennis
with white associates
against white acquaintances
humans that think they are white
for more than 3 seconds
at a time
have been allowing themselves
to be black more
and equality is a ****** ace
black tennis was right on

Officer to the black woman
let me get that door ma’am
“No thank you."
no no I know you can do it on your own
you have done everything on your own
I mean
you did take care of us
America and all
gave birth to its economy
kept America’s freedom safe
tangible
And you know as well as I
I am the later stages of white supremacy
the excess of mental illness
in uniform
insured
you have been through so much
can I get anything for you?
any mentally ill racist bothering you?
judges
other officers
kids
disabled people
"whoa officer…?"
I don’t care
who ever
Im in uniform
its okay
I’ll **** ‘em
is the president a traitor too?
has he represented you?
black woman
or is he too mixed up to remember?
come on get in the cruiser
Its the limousine of justice

Haitian style independence
no more whiteness at all
type independence
playing three rhythms at once
independence
blackness take over the entire
American sports and political world
independence
Went south to join the Seminoles
fight against the colonists
killer abolitionists
dangerous and feared
independence
economic
the beginning of the union
no more free labor
regulate that
government
paper bag 40 acres
and we are not ******* mules
independence
organized black militants killing
burning plantations of whiteness
yearning independence
captivating white audiences
nationwide
scurrying to the legal system
to constrict the laws
make more weapons
make more conflict
make it more dangerous to be black
independence
You will never find us again
whiteness
that independence

The vets that fought for the Boston tea party
native impostors of tea tossing
or the vets that were slaves and fought for freedom
the vets that go to other countries to **** non white people
all of the care vets have or not
and funding and compassion
should go to freed slaves
the vets that killed slave masters
and saved their children from **** and torture
the independence that declaring freedom with broken chains
dead slave masters
beautiful songs and music
the blues
jazz
art and technology
affords
or the independence declared from being free of being taxed
The independence declared when a slave felt  
knowing that in Britain the emancipation has already been declared
seeing the desperation in the slave profiteers
seeing the desperation of whiteness
and the independence declared when experiencing the freedom
of Escaping liberty
proving that a human being is not a resource to exploit
Independence day

am I not conforming yet?
am I finally an outcast
can you please let me out of whiteness
did I offend it too much to be accepted anymore
is my demand for humanity contagious
are you scared of it spreading yet
why are you still listening
to the voice in your mind that is reading?
confused
angry
desperate
you should have killed all the others
you should have been more strict
more brutal with your laws
the fees and fines should have been much much bigger
we should have only been 2 fifths of a vote
if whiteness wanted to succeed
whiteness should have been more violent with its punishment
more relentless
unforgiving with its shaping of humanity
It should have been more incestuous
whiteness should have kept its privates in its pants
if whiteness wanted too survive
it should have fought harder
Whiteness should have kept its language secret
It should have invested in privacy and security and insurance even more
if whiteness wanted to survive
but if whiteness wanted to dissipate and fail
its doing perfect
Otherwise whiteness would have blotted out the sun
whiteness would have made tanning cream illegal a long time ago
and the penalty would have been much harsher than voluntary manslaughter
if whiteness were to be able to take over
forever
whiteness needs to get over the fact that it is not real
to put a halt to its construction
and to stop making excuses that are similes to genocide

Things the government does not want you to know...
Whiteness
is a mental illness

am I not conforming yet?
am I finally an outcast
can you please let me out of whiteness
did I offend it too much to be accepted anymore
is my demand for humanity contagious
are you scared of it spreading yet
why are you still listening
to the voice in your mind that is reading?
confused
angry
desperate
you should have killed all the others
you should have been more strict
more brutal with your laws
whiteness should have been more violent with its punishment
more relentless
unforgiving with its shaping of humanity
It should have been more incestuous
whiteness should have kept its privates in its pants
if whiteness wanted too survive
it should have fought harder
Whiteness should have kept its language secret
It should have invested in privacy and security and insurance even more
if whiteness wanted to survive
but if whiteness wanted to dissipate and fail
its doing perfect

My name is Elan Gregory. I am mixed race writer. If you do not relate to being African American, please call me “they.”
If and when referring to me when I am absent, please call me “them.”
Because of the failure of whiteness to assimilate into blackness. The biological acceptance of being from Africa.
Because of these patterns of disassociating from humanity that is imperialism.
Because of segregation.
I am not mixed race until the others who accuse me acknowledge they are as well.
A light skinned French father and light skinned English mother make a seamless offspring that is perceived and experiences confidence being “pure white.”
Everyone is pure mixed race. Not pure black or white.
So to those that resist evolution I am “They or Them."
I have three books published. "Organic Intelligence," “Lucid", and "Escape from Liberty.”
More recently I have been solely writing poetry. It is much more efficient and intimate.
I decided to write books to try and expose the urgency of deconstructing social construction. When in the event of socially constructed human dynamics there are practical (dialectical) ways in navigating and understanding what it means to be human.
Social construction is a verb. Not finished. An enforced process. Sometimes internal. How can it stop? When does it stop? How does it feel? How did it happen? Who started them? Why?
Many of the issues in society that I thought I could influence enough to change things for the better are still becoming worse.
Poetry I feel has more urgency and immediate potency in terms of energizing new events and movements.

The damage is deep from racism
The destructive path of constrcuting whiteness
constructing race based slavery
How much depth can I show you?
Education needs to be like a nuclear bomb set to detonate out of spite without telling anyone
Then telling everyone you still really love them while kissing their forehead and clammy cheeks

my dad made a song called Elan
he named me Elan
so this poem is called dad 
I named my dad 
my dad is black
i was born that way
when I was little and white kids inquired about my skin tone
i would ask my dad why
my dad says of course you are black 
they don’t know your black? 
he says and raises his eyebrows
smirks
then when I am older
society asks me why I exist 
then it tries to deny it of me
just as it does him 
still
my dad says you are not black 
you try and act like you had a hard childhood
like I did
I say no I do not
I had a different childhood 
I came from your childhood
I said to him
In me you instilled the childhood you hate
and the childhood you love
mixing me with whiteness 
so forever I would have to experience the extremes
no one that ever came inside whiteness
knows my father like I do
but my role to him is why he thinks he made me
it is not what I actually am
the excess of a dangerous brutal genocidal war
called colonial pretend your not indigenous anymore
and white day
celebrated by people all around the world everyday

Oh my god!
and the dimples while acknowledging
the absurdity of whiteness
right away I say I am mixed race
I interrupt as often as possible
therefore at an unexpected occurrence
the questioning
the inquisition lay before me
mixing unwell with my previous unaltered trauma
letting loose and being unacceptable
in that hole again
digging out of race
trudging through the social construction
thereof
The last thing I want in between us
actually I want nothing between us
not contraception
I want to be making heat
touching

All police officers should be black
Or I'm not speaking to you anymore

http://www.amazon.com/Escape-Liberty-Elan-Gregory-ebook/dp/B01B8XQYBG?ie=UTF8&keywords;=elan%20gregory&qid;=1459178234&ref;=sr1_1&sr;=8-1

About my new book // Escape from Liberty

Birth is the experience we have, witness, and feel that is closest to where evolution rests. If it could be measured. I think the way birth is experienced and the proximity around it is the most important focus when discussing ontology and evolution.

“Escape from liberty,” refers not just to the getting out of the psychology of liberty but reshaping how that has affected what birth means in society.
A society can only be as good as it functions around birth. Since liberty has shaped what birth means in America from its beginning. It has a lot to do with why the reality of freedom is misunderstood.

Actual freedom and the possibility to experience it has been preserved by those that brought it with them. The African women taken from Africa preserved the evolved function of birth in American Society.
Liberty in terms of birth means that it is the defining authority on society. In evolution birth is the defining authority of society.
By proving that birth is not meant for liberty by escaping slavery to freedom, African American women gave a template to escape liberty and experience freedom.

The absurdity and genocidal acceptance of declaring liberty while birth for some humans has become artificially designed for slavery is unacceptable. Any American should understand what this means in terms of our sustainability or evolution as humans.
This should be understood more and funded more than any “going green” resource conflict crisis generation.

Whiteness has been following me
my whole life
everything I do
now I am finally
preying on whiteness
keeping track of it
like J edgar hoover
salivating over Jack Johnson’s ****
like miscegeny laws
holding whiteness accountable
nothing but impunity and disassociation
******* each other
insured genocide
reckless exposure
talking with you about whiteness
is like negotiating with genocide

no such thing as nature poems
until this racist ****
social contruction fades away

If you want to know the audience
you must have processed the social construction of race
or else you might as well be johnson and johnson
white toned band-aids
nothing but advertisements
warnings
in newspapers
“Bleach your skin to look white with this product”
“straighten your hair with this product”
I just wanted to read the news
is whiteness being sued yet for false advertisement?

Im really getting used to the wasting of paper
I try to at the least be nourishing with ink
I had to smile to ask her to dance
Within 2 seconds she could tell it was pretend
They can feel that I was off somewhere else
That I am just an outsider visiting the night life
They can smell how much I have been studying
That I doubted the reality of whiteness from a young age
she can smell the doubt all over me
The echoes are still fresh
coming out of my pores
she can smell that I just denounced whiteness to an audience the night before
her sense of smell is as keen as her gyrating  hips
snakey moves
but you just wait girl
soon it will be even cooler to denounce whiteness
as a mental illness
cooler than it was to create the idea of slavery
those that are hip
will be shaking them to my drums
waiting to hear my deeply rooted words
empathy
***

Why are you holding that sign in the woods?
(Black lives matter more than white lives sign)
What do you mean?
Oh yeah
well
because nature listens
“it does?”
yes
white people show anger
and its not an angry topic
its biological
it is nature qualm with a group of people
I have enough to focus on
I am fully occupied with evolving
nature
with its elements
it changes and directs humans
nature is the shepherd
not white Jesus
In the woods there are no death threats
Dont get me wrong I would love to fight about it
that is natural
nature encourages it
But today I would rather the wind blowing through the leaves
The birds agreement
the hum of the river
the drones above me
that wont leave me alone
the majority of humanity that is waiting for my cue
to overthrow corruption
to replace it with the happiness and freedom of chaos

someday no one
will discriminate
against
me
for being
in a
****** relationship
with revolution

The government just called me
Actually the government told the police to call me
to be more specific
we all know how when referring to authorities
it is extremely important to be clear
detailed
and concise
because of how extremely uneducated they are
and also insecure
but anyways
as polite as the officer be
asked me,
encouraged me,
I guess threatened me,
If I really think it through
Officer says,
“Sir…Mr. Gregory.”
“Yes.” I say
“We…well the government of the United States of the America. Is willing to…wants to give you a certain amount of funding. Well, money. To stop being anti-racist.”
“Oh really?” I say
“Umm…yes. You see. We. Meaning the associates of the government…”
“The associates of white supremacy.”
I interjected
“Right. Yes. Well you know that. Well thats exactly it Mr. Gregory. We have been doing just fine without other people or too many of them know that. We the government and its associates…”
“Whiteness is a mental illness” I interrupted again.
“Yes. Yes. Okay. So yeah. We are offering you…roughly…25000 a month. To only do things…well…not anti-racist. Its part of the affirmative action project.”
I signed it right then and there