i can feel my heart beating in my chest

i fell in love when you drove me home
the world outside so monochrome
we listened to your favorite songs
and i watched you sing along

we drove and drove so fast we flew
i turned my head to look at you
i've never seen you look so free
and then you smiled back at me

we laughed for hours on end
down every turn and every bend
had no idea how far we'd roam
i fell in love when you drove me home

you are so beautiful
i'm noticing more than usual

you are so smart
just trust yourself, sweetheart

you are so kind
you shine so bright i might go blind

you heart is bigger than the moon
i hope you realize that soon

i fell in love when you drove me home
you used your fingers as a comb
i used your jacket as a pillow
we watched the sunset through the window

we talked about our favorite poetry
and how we think that the world should be
we sat there for hours
i've wished so long for a love like ours

i hope you see how great you are
i've have the best times in your car
you are so sweet like honeycomb
and i fell in love when you drove me home

life confuses me
you confuse me
me and you we spent some time away from each other
and I hated it
but it was good
but now we've grown closer again and I realized I'd forgotten how much I enjoy spending time with you
I forgot how much I love you
but I don't love you like I used to
I don't think I ever truly know how I feel
all I know is I always fall way too hard way too fast and usually end up disappointed
but im trying to learn to be okay
I'm trying to learn to manage and control my feelings
and for the most part I think it's working
but hearing about you two still makes me upset and uncomfortable sometimes but I don't know why
and I wish it would stop
but I'm thinking that it won't
and I'm thinking that I'm going to have to learn to be okay with that
you still confuse me sometimes
but I'm learning to be okay

once again I'm in love with the idea of love only this time I haven't chosen a victim
all I know is a want to love someone but I'm just a mess of feelings and I don't know what to do