Tell me
That I am good enough
And don't stop yourself from saying it
Just because you think I already know
Because, honestly, I don't 
At least for sure
And I need to be reminded, everyday
That I am good enough

So that I can go on
Believing in Myself

I reek of new living
the silence of sobriety is deafening
Can't stand my heart beating
Chest rising, finally breathing
Falling together at the seams for the lack of grieving

Jump out of my skin at the sound of my name
Hearing a whisper of enthusiasm scares my wandering brain
I am standoffish but I'm not timid nor meek
You say you're here for me but I'm not who I seemed
Am I better because of my brand new living?

No, I am not new in the least
I pretend in my imagination but I'm the same old me
Weak
Time to stop writing
Time to go to sleep

Hey there
I caught ya staring
Got your attention
Was it these earrings
I knew that you would like em
So I went straight out to buy em
For you

Hey darling
You look so perfect
With your hair so messy, and so tussled and I'm lurkin
'neath the covers
Oh how I wish I was your lover

Oh you're so sweet
Like strawberries
Or cold ice cream
And I love you
***
Oh you're so fine
Babe, please be mine
Just give me time
Cause I love you

Oh honey
You're a dream
A perfect moment
Or a long forgotten memory
Now that I know ya
I'll never throw ya
Away

I'll keep ya safe
Always warm
I swear to God that you're the only one I want
So please stay
Please say
To me

You're so sweet
Like fresh honey
I can't believe
That I found you
****
You're so fine
And you're all mine
For all of time
Oh how I love you

I like this little image in my head
of you lying in the grass,
staring off into a beautiful sky,
smiling because the sun is hugging you softly..

               but...

                           I know that's not what
                                happens.