I want to grow old to see how my life will evolve
But at the same time I want to die young so I dont have to look back and wonder how my life would've turnt out if I did the things I never had the courage to do
I want my grandkids to be interested in all the stories I tell
But what If i won't have any?

If I died today, what would I be remebered by?
As the girl who never looked back or a girl who did everything she felt was right?

There will come a time when the night air
won’t send chills down my spine
for it will no longer whisper your name.

I will stop telling stories about you,
for the moon has grew tired of hearing them
and weariness is an awful thing to feel.

The stars would appear
brighter than your eyes,
and I would hear lullabies again.

The winds would be warm,
the seas won’t crash waves,
and I will no longer drown.

Even tho things did not end up well
I still go back to the moments we shared
If I could I would go back in time
and fix what was broken in between us

I'm sorry I wasn't good enough for you
you deserved better, and now you do what you said you would do

By this I mean that you're happy without me
I'm glad you're smiling, even if it's not caused by me.

I know my head is messed up, and honey I’m so sorry for that
I’m sorry you have to see me that way, that’s why I’m going to say what I have to say.

Even tho my life *****
Depression could leave me for once
Tears could crawl back into my eyes
And anxiety could just stop

You make me feel like I’m worth something I’m not
And I cannot thank you enough for everything that you’ve done
without even knowing you’re saving my life
Just know that you’re my sun
I love you to the moon and back