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422 · Feb 2014
this story
Ottar Feb 2014
this story has more holes in it than
can be counted on one hand, which a man
can be counted as lucky, if he has more than a right one,
this story has a beginning and an end,
climaxes many times, rather than a few,
this story is beyond genre,
this story is not out of print,
some are getting it I see the glint
in your eyes, after all this is the inter-
net, more than fishers of men
but this story is not that story,
I know an almost doctor name Lori
she would examine this story,
for change,
for content,
for the cheif complaint,
this story is old and getting older
by the seconds, and has not had any firsts yet,
this story is a more than the riddle written here,
this story will not end anytime soon,
for if it did this piece would stop...like this...



©DWE022014
Not tellin'
422 · Jul 2013
That glimmer
Ottar Jul 2013
where will you be when the sun crests my horizon,
where will you be so I can lay eyes on,
where will you be waiting.

When the sun rises so do my hopes and my fears,
when the sun rises I dry my tears,
when the sun rises I rest.

as the day flies past so fast, where will you be,
as I eat my meager meal with no appetite, where will you be
as I see the busyness of the world around me I wonder, where will you be

Will I see you before a thousand sunsets,
Will I see you or is this just one of life's tests,
will I ever see you, that glimmer when I chase the horizon.
421 · Aug 2013
Inner Silly
Ottar Aug 2013
vessels like roadways
surround the heart of
my inner silly, these days,
cells drive slower and fast
working hard red, in the face
sunrise to high noon too last
                                              light.

all limbs move freely, come what may,
dance with chaotic steps and strides,
eyes on every street corner are the way
of the beholder, to take it in and hold
it safe and sound, valued bits and bytes
more so than those who are boldly told
to sleep not here or there but on the ground.

It is the inner silly where I live and breathe,
walk and roll up my sleeves to get returns
on my invested time.  It is the inner silly
where I work at play watching my step
recording  it all down hoping I can get
away,
          flying low so my wingtips touch

the dreamy waters, that may refresh,
my  mind to let my inner silly be respected
and free, to freeze that image forever,
to be be pasted on my window to be
seen each time I lose sight
of my Inner Silly.
420 · Aug 2013
Pains of Gray
Ottar Aug 2013
Stop humiliating me with your humidity. So gray.

Nimbus travelers, where did you get impolite
fake happy faces, cover the sky, dim the light,
drop not a drop, of rain, of rain.  So dry.

Stop trying to hide behind one another,
Where is the blue sky, blue like no other?,
You are a cloud after all, and will evaporate.

Yet in what I see reflected back at me is all my
loss, shapes that show my failures, in each sly,
hidden crevasse, which tempts a fall into the sky.


©DWE082013
418 · Dec 2014
Outwait the Darkness
Ottar Dec 2014
above
upturned eyes,
eyes seeking a
glimpse of heaven's reaches,
expanse
beyond human
arms palms up,
outstretched to receive a
merciful
moment of
clarity, more than
a sense of direction,
peace
that endures,
hostile human hubris,
wait and experience the
love,
not of
stardust that falls,
the voice that calls,
across
a cross,
light speed speed
times purest plenty is
energy.
A joyful
seasonal reprise brightens
a night sky, is
this.............................................................­.....................................................hope?
or the northern lights or a snow fall or so much more it escapes understanding
Can you find the theory of relativity part?
Ottar Jul 2014
Doctor gave me the news, it was a good
time to buy new running shoes,

Feet slap and screech with each stride,
Biomechanic required to repair the ride,

Pounds shed I no longer dread pounding,
lightly on concrete or asphalt, grounding,

My turbulent times, no reason or rhyme,
To the day, my thoughts have plenty of time,

To play as I run away from home, smiling,
So pleased to be alone among the crowd, filing,

On and off busses, engines make noises like cusses,
Cars eating people, personalities seated in trusses,

For their own safety,

While heels kick back, legs move at the speed,
and pace where there is always sound and greed,

To be first to run the red-light but
On my heart right to that red line,

Hamstrings cry taute like strings,
My mind wanders to many things,

To some people, to a person,
Beckon me run, all that way

And I will.

How did I get here? at least a year in the making,
took on the job, it was a terrible mess of an undertaking,

If I can do it so can you,
Don't wait till your fifty four,
Start when your thirty nine,

Write down all that you eat,
You recognize each day the feat,

To stop eating, at the right point.

Get enough sleep,

Aerobic activity, found a
British study from, London see?

Muscular mobility, range of motion
under load agree, let me, ask you,

What did you do as a child, how did
you have physical fun, what did you
do in your youth, not to relive the pain,
and the strain of bad coaching or none.

Capture your life as first prize
in the only race that counts,
living to beat of the distant drum,
you run I will follow,
you set the pace, I will holler
your arrival, to set your rival,
Death on his heels,
we will chase him back the way,
he came, that will be your claim,
"Raced Death and Still Running"
I had some kind of blog with this title... "Fit over Fifty, Is It Possible"
Have not posted for a very long time there.
Inspiration tonight came from a 40 minute run along the Boulevard
Please understand I am not promoting running over walking or swimming or bike riding or...or....
3 years ago, I thought I would never run again. Overweight, tough physical jobs most of my life 72 year old knees in a 54 year old body,
time to make excuses not space for fitness uses.
Disclaimer, this is not to be construed as fitness or medical advice this is my story a positive story hoping that one or a hundred of you improve your fitness your way, consult your physician, not your astrologer, however if you want to send money in appreciation, no legal tender will be denied.
418 · Jun 2013
The pit is full
Ottar Jun 2013
waiting here,
baiting my breath
the sweet taste of wine
loosens my lips
waiting for what'
waiting here
sating my mood
with any food
to taste
and lay
waste to the
staleness
I have become.

Moments
prized and
realized gain
arrived pain
now fully felt,
through skin, like
fabric padded,
fatted not draped
like a discarded
memory or
muscle miscue
as I miss the
mark once and
again.

dullshooter, not sharp
propelled blindly
out my door, into
the day
light mood darkened;
not by shadow,
not by sightless,
not by faith,
for what little
I have I must
share.

Of all these things
buried in me,
my own grave.
Riches?
The pit is full.
417 · Jun 2013
Ardent love
Ottar Jun 2013
In from the cold
Go Home I was told,
done with a vocal cool,
tone, I walked away
               the total fool.

The command
was not from
                       up above,
not in peace with
an olive branch and dove.

There was voice...
in the frosty air
  words hung dispassionate
                               there,
right in front of my face.

I walked swiftly, pull my collar
up against the chill at my back.

Opening the door
I took to the stairs,
in spirited haste,
                   bounding up,
Eager...
my fierce intentions
were on my face,
I was keen to leave the
mean spirited world behind ME.

Hungry for you,
every room I looked in,
was empty, but
there were signs,
every where  that
kept me searching for YOU.

You had been here,
the fiery trail was
plain to see, still
warm
to the touch. Moving ME.

Then it... went lukewarm
and then was gone
with it too my
                        ... *ardent love
I will keeping searching...I know she is just around the corner, in the living room watching her favorite
type of show...
416 · Jul 2014
Ever...
Ottar Jul 2014
Gnarled branches, red,
dying one needle,
at a time, reaching,
to the sky, clusters
of cones contain seed
pods,
oh 2, pump rooted
in the pale dirt of
every day life toil,
concrete asphalt soil,
where will it end up,
where will it go down,
when will the trunk be
found, with no signs of
life,
Master Arborist,
to prune to care to
be, fertilizing,
and water to the
table true, deep tap-
root,
into the Earth,
equal parts under
the day-sun, moon and
stars at night fall as
the tree stands taller,
if it stands at all.
A Life Span
415 · Mar 2014
Chasers
Ottar Mar 2014
Hide
me quick,
hide,
me fast,
not sure how much longer my freedom
                                                to write
                                                 will last,
they
are after,
my emotions,
they
are after,
my books,
they
are before
me waiting till I fall, tripping over my own feet as I watch out for them
or fall asleep, leaving my door, my mind, my words unlocked,
they will steal them all
if the have their way
they are the Chasers,
they are the (NSA),
they are 1984, 30 years late,
and I am old and slow, but I have 'em
fooled, for I have been
re-tooled...oh and, sorry about the rust.
Sci-Fi poetry, anyone, anyone?
415 · Jul 2014
This Place
Ottar Jul 2014
Covered and uncovered
moving and still,
both warm and cold,
with winds that bear ill,
and bring fill to dreams of those,

Writhing and surviving
forms, shapes, the visible,
minor majority,
major minority,
all in the same disgusting key,
of off,
the invisible, the spiritual, intangibles,
seen and unseen, those in the darkest hours
more than religious fervour
more than abuse of power,

there is no third world
there is one world,
you want to be second place,
in a one cart race,
speeding through space,

this Place is rusty, but it is not old,
this Place is dusty, some call it gold,
this Place is musty, environmentalists told,

this Place is gusty, cavernous mouths spout bill of goods sold,
this Place is crusty, waiting on a nine point oh, surface roll
this Place is trusty, as created by the trio of the Bold

this Place is all you got,

                                          if you don't change,
you haven't thought...much about
Theos Place.
THEOS from the Greek
415 · Mar 2014
Sheafs
Ottar Mar 2014
piles of paper over my head
cover the box I lay in,
to do not, is to cause dread,
become the administative burden,
to carry around,
but never get carried away,
trundle, then bundle cellulose
fibre in a fundle,
measuring the fundal height of...


the pregnant pause, each time I am
supposed to pick up the phone,
can't go it alone, standing up for
  somebody else, who is unable
                        actually disabled,
"Just Like Someone Without Mental
Illness Only More So"  

drawers of receipts climbing over
one another to be fed to the
                           shredder,
unfiled file folders, holding older
paper dreams, paper woes,
Origami folds, of the forgotten projects,
cranes, phone receivers, and say
isn't that a heart...my heart,
clumsy feet, clumsy fingers,
cluttered mind, to much paper to bind,
up and hold together, the edges of the
paper cuts, that bleed the last of the free
dreams, the nice dreams, the two week
vacations dreams, buried under reams,
of aging paper,
                        no point to be a paper chaser,
                         set the phaser on ****,
                          and send it with the will,
                            or ... send in the clowns, there has to be clowns,
                              maybe I'll get around to it next year.
"Just Like Someone Without Mental
Illness Only More So" by Mark Vonnegut, M.D.
412 · Jul 2013
As I see it
Ottar Jul 2013
The tangle of roots and dirt in my eyes,
remove my sight, so how can I a sinful
man
think clearly.

Oh the soul is saved and I savour eternal
life that I find reading my muse, how then
does
happiness escape.

Everyday.

Joy, joy, joy down in my heart.
It is there, I found it. Elusive,
though confound it.

Under the ground,
under the weather,
under control,
who holds the tether?

If each month has thirty pounds
we are at 660 pounds and 540
more to go, this is the weight
of our lives.

Burdened.

Not free to be me,
dancer with flat feet,
not free to be me,
writer with a dry well,
not free to be me,
musician who can
                              not understand
what he sees not.  

Score and scale
score and scale
good for what ails ya.

Take note.

now for the positives...
still looking...






oh yeah dirt and roots

in my eyes


my life to despise


this spot

I am the despot.

(some one else picked walrus first so I couldn't)

There are none to be found...


LOST POSITIVES
IF FOUND RETURN
TO ME

REWARD
( I do stand up)





(Then I sit down)


©DWE072013
Ottar Dec 2013
eyes downcast and heart heavy,
thoughts move slowly and march
far away, east of here,                                                       Newtown, CT
the echoes ring throughout,
how far could the bells be heard?
For Sandy Hook
411 · Jul 2012
And...Of Part 1
Ottar Jul 2012
Get out and away from,
the reality of unreal TV.
Get out of that ****** spot,
where you always rest.

Use less and leave more, by
taking action with care.
Re-defined purpose of all that
you possess, outside and in.

Give away and choose need, over
waste and want.
Think twice of what you buy or
buy into, be sure.

Cycle and cycle again, until it is gone
more or less.
Plant seeds of visible hope, beyond
your horizon.

Out and down, is garbage out from garbage within...
get moving!
Out-of-doors invest time, b r e a t h e
be inspired.

Inspire others, most of all, learn
to give, accepting self, in and of community,
their love too.
1) Read once first.
Can you find the and / of pairs?
2) Read a second time.
410 · Mar 2015
when storms collide
Ottar Mar 2015
Without you, there be nothing,
Even a rabid dog has frothing,

The rainbow has its *** of  gold,
That is storms, mix of hot and cold,

derelict in some of pleasure's duties,
lightning from those eyes refutes,

all, of these,
cure the disease,
riddled man
into the pan
hirsute man
dumped into
a preemptive funeral pyre.

From the sky
forked delight.
See the longboat silhouette.
410 · Aug 2013
imagination/noitanigami
Ottar Aug 2013
Is it like the clouds in a blue sky,
With colours that don't occur,
Is it seeing, moving people blur,
When they are standing right beside
You.

Is it when all goes wrong, anger burns
the blood in your veins, like a fuse,
you clench your fists, but do not choose,
the violence we are all capable, to discern
the cost.

:-)

Is it,... is it when you look and see,
Something that no one else can,
Until you show them how to, they can,
Step into your skin, out of their complacency,
for ever.


©DWE082013
i* ma* gi* na* shun/ noy* tani* gami
408 · Apr 2014
To Be Avoided
Ottar Apr 2014
the flame that bends,
drawn by a vacuum,
kindle that carefully,

the nose of a dog,
with more glands,
and more glands,

than the human nose,
                          shows,
there are so many things,

too, where we are not the pinnacle yet
we thrive on and can be,
a guess at best, and include the unknown,

there is a foil
the unknown
has it as a foil,

but beware,
this one is a killer,
just ask the cat...

Have I got you ...
Or are you furious,
At how easy this was,

Try painting a Vermeer,
Using a mirror,
don't rush, use a brush too,

Do illusion, with light
refraction and reflection,
Tell me, after you see Penn and Tell..er,

Magic... illusion ...
Genius...all find a home,
it could fill a tome,

to define,
to expand,
on curiosity,

like thermal dynamics
and liquid viscosity,
or how do bumble bees fly?
                                            and why are they dying,
                                                I find this very trying,
                                                in their hives, are they lying,
waiting for some human,
to ask the right question,
with a taste for sweet and honey, of creativity

so Dorothy Parker,
has said she is
better without these
love,
freckles,
doubt and


*Curiosity?
Dorothy Parker quote order changed to create suspense,
408 · Jun 2013
Seen and Unseen
Ottar Jun 2013
10,000 reasons,
ten thousand years,
A cloud of witnesses,
over head

They are the ones who praise and roar
                                             raise their voices; for you.


Many years before though
one fallen,
lost before the fight was fought
                 thought it right to recruit with doubt.

These are the unseen, not good, and the Unseen not at all bad,
both are armies, only One leader leads;
the other
cajoles, then,
takes his toll, many
a jaw dropping,
eternal soul.

Then you look around you, the landscape,
city, country, mountain, lake open ocean
and outer space, awe and wonder on your face.

Then you look around you, after you text,
talk, and tap your phone, 'buds in your
ears, what you experience replaces your
fears.

Of being alone.

When the dark (one)
closes in,
and pours over you your sin,
and it has been so long you
only want to hide, but you are part of
the Seen world, where is the light switch,
anyway...
the noisy noise,
breaks your poise,
separate

yourself and make time for ...  prayer
"Open my eyes, so I can see"


©DWE062013
not quite done...but alas
408 · Jun 2013
A better place
Ottar Jun 2013
If life is a passing fancy and you just want to reach, maybe touch and be moved,
be a leaf, there maybe, however, a fall in your future,
If life is something you can not let go of, you need hold on tightly, get *****, go deep,
be a root bundle, water, rocks and mostly darkness, is what you see,
If life is to be experienced, sometimes vulnerable, in any weather, give back more than you take,
be a tree, the whole tree, seeds, leaves, branches, bark, roots and inside you are a sap,
but the world will be a better place for it and you will see the forest
as a tree.
planting seed thoughts...
407 · Jun 2014
The Musician
Ottar Jun 2014
he touches,
he breathes,
he caresses,
he tastes,
he sees, with his minds eye,
                                no need for sheets of paper with dots and lines,
                                he has lived this piece since his life became defined,
the instrument,  and hearts
the oxygen, with poise
with fine pressure, the pure sound,
sweat, saliva and tears,
he does not stray from the course,
                                                             sharing the talent, giving the gift,
                                                                to any who will listen,
                                                                   to all who are near,
                                                                       but always to an audience of one.
406 · May 2013
Like Always
Ottar May 2013
We spent days together when we cried,
We spent months together when we laughed,
In my absence, laugh until you cry.

We spent years together struggling to make it work,
We spent decades together raising children,
In my absence, laugh until you cry, and can't stop laughing.

We spent every second learning to love one another,
We spent every hour as best as we could, no doubt,
In my absence, laugh or cry, remember me, I may not open
Heaven's gate for you, but I will save you the window seat,
like always.
406 · Oct 2013
In(sect)spiration
Ottar Oct 2013
I like the rain,
when it falls
                           somewhere           else,
I like the cold
morning air,
                               from under my quilt or when
                            dressed in my jacket with my toque on,
I like the leaves,
who paints them each night,
                                               a different colour to my delight,
There is a mystery,
I know not the answer
to,
                                     maybe you do,
                                      it is about mosquitoes...

they fly sort of right now,
trying to break and enter some how,
                                                          in­to my house after me,
                                                            t­hey are thirsting see...

even as the sun is about to set,
it isn't really warm, cool is a better bet,


The mosquitoes don't know it is fall
they have blood sense and no common sense is all,

Do they know when it is fall?
do they have any common sense at all?
When will I see then end to these blood thirsty hordes?


©DWE102013
yup two mosquitoes were on my balcony window, looking for a weakness.
Ottar Oct 2013
little warmth
sky is clear
stoke the hearth
sit right here
humans are sparse,
                    partial to birds and mice,
on the street, fear
kicks your ****
sickness everywhere,
even in the healthy
so please be aware
we have no wealth see
but learn to love
one another,
sisters and brothers
when we are sober
we have a family
pact, watch each
others back,
not just when, we
say goodbye
and keep your eye
off what is in here,
it might be worth
what is needed,
when needed, for me.

yeah we curse we swear
at everyone everywhere
LOUDLY,
but know it is not for show,
we sometimes don't know
if we can stop.

©DWE102013
as told to me at a bus stop...loudly by a guy with a shopping cart full of "his stuff"
404 · Apr 2013
Wait
Ottar Apr 2013
As we gather around the table,

Give the Blessing as we are able,

And Thanks for what we have received.

Wait.

Wait a little longer.

This cannot be taken so lightly,

the sunrise Sunday morning brightly

shone more than any day before.

Waiting.

Have I waited long enough?

A round stone was rolled, away.

What they found missing,

Changed,

everything that day and everyday

After,

Waiting.

Around the time that He returns

all of us will wait no more,

He will show us what creation

was really for.

*It will be worth the wait.
NaPoWriMo 2nd poem 30 poems in 30 days, Easter
403 · Mar 2013
Trouble with Sirens
Ottar Mar 2013
Why do they wail so, these Sirens, with the demands that I turn my eyes.
Their sound is a warning and a call, to strengthen my resolve or fail.
Were I near the body of water each day through, I would cry out too.
But no one, for ages past could resist neither, the ocean nor their call.

Their sound, is a warning and a call, to strengthen my resolve or fail!
Is it a weakness, why do I doubt my own confidence, trembling?
But no one for ages past could resist, neither the ocean nor, their call!
Take me to the water so I can better hear, that they, not sound my name.

Is it a weakness, why do I doubt my own confidence, trembling?
Troubled like a boat with out a rudder, let me go, like I have no anchor!
Take me to the water so I can better hear, that they not sound my name.
As wind bites the sail and carry's the ship away, I have heard the bait and bit in deep.

Troubled like a boat with out a rudder, let me go, like I have no anchor!
Yet my feet are on solid ground and I feel as if I have drowned without the Cry.
As wind bites the sail and carry's the ship away, I have heard the bait and bit in deep.
I will wade in to my knees to be sure, better my waist or chest so I can swim the crawl.

Yet my feet are on solid ground and I feel as if I have drowned without the Cry.
It is better I who can withstand their drag and pull, just get me to the ocean, I need no craft.
I will wade in to my knees to be sure, better my waist or chest so I can swim the crawl.
Why do they, wail so, these Sirens, with the demands that I, turn my eyes.
Modern Pantoum anyone?  2 and four become 1 and 3 and first and last usually the same.  Punctuation may vary in lines.... see?
403 · Nov 2013
Should, Could, Would
Ottar Nov 2013
Twas three witches,
oh but Hallowe'en is past,
Twas three leaves left on the tree,
one was should,
one was could
and the other, would.

Should said he should fall, and
could fall, first, if would and could got out of the way.

Could said he could fall first if should would
shut up (so he could hear himself think) if would
would move then he, could, fall to the ground and
get out of the way.

Would said he would fall first as he was closest to the
ground, but could, then should, be last as could was next,
only if could would not land on would, which should
leave the way clear for should.

As the leaves of this story would have it, could you believe
it is true every word, why should I lie?

Ask should, could and would, they are among they other leaves
on the ground, fallen ...


©DWE112013
402 · Feb 2015
Stay Inspired
Ottar Feb 2015
tell a story about your day,
like a stream of light that had you swimming
for your life, away from the dark cloud
d
e
s
c
e
n
d
i
n
g
as it tried to hide the welts pending
to blush with red, is that a self inflicted hue,
or has some coward, done that to you,

write your way out, type the keyboard hard,
spell the word tunnel, and escape through
the opening, hoping, that the change will
stay and it won't close until you run head-             __
on into the light, that is waiting at the end.............(    )

some sound so sure sweet safe solid citizens,

yet stay inspired,
not in a rainbow and cotton candy dandy
with streamers falling long and landing
on your head as multicoloured hair,

my stuff,
yeah I have stuff,
making sure to bring
my self down,
to a puddle where
I might drown,
if I stay down there
long enough,
I use words and their double
meaning and edges,
throw myself
against the thorny hedges,
self esteem has bruises
deep, ....let me sleep
from sunset to sunrise
through the day,
no compromise.

I stay inspired,
by all of you that
place your vulnerability
place your brilliancy
place your life
moments

as an inspired observer,
stay inspired, read
(don't go anywhere without breathing out)

because then your body will make you breath in
what will you take to,
how will you make it,
who will shake, shake your world view,
for your sake,
letting you know we could not be here without you.

Stay inspired, I am not the only that needs you.
Strong content
402 · Jul 2013
The Self
Ottar Jul 2013
Twisted dying pine branches rusted with death
a few green needles remain lying to the tree
with what is known to be true about the self.

Old mangy dog wandering the street, kicked
out by the owner who could only afford to feed it
table scraps but not the final trip to the vet, to release
the self.

Aging body with a faster aging mind slowly trying
to cope with the passing of time, no one to visit where
he sits and stares, not knowing if anyone cares while
he no longer recognizes the self.

she and he sit with their phones texting one another
in hushed tones about their needs while their wants
haunt them and the miles between, while in the swirl
of information and tech they have began to lose
their selves; apart but at the same time, together.


©DWE072013
402 · Apr 2013
Red Sunday
Ottar Apr 2013
It is the little bits that get in the way,
You work all day and then you play,
Few play through their work day,
           oh how do they rate you say?

But today is a sad dreadful Sunday,
Cars and speed, intersection of dismay,
No worse, much worse, 5 X tragedy,
oh how can that happen on sunny Sunday?

My problems now seem so little so small,
So many people and schools friends all,
Will be affected and will have a terrible pall,
oh how crushing because one was rushing?

Hollow, hollow, hollow words, I am ashamed,
In your mercy and Your hallowed name,
be with them, be with everyone that knew them
I pray, as I may not know them or carry the your words.

Of Peace, Of Comfort, Of Reassurance, Of Solace

To honour them...memories, futures and lives cut short,
the other drive has a heavy burden and courts
dire responsibility.
A family of 5, don't know yet if we may have known them we live in a very big city... with some very dangerous intersections when people run red lights.  The other driver was taken to hospital in air ambulance.
Ottar Mar 2015
More time behind a key-
board than common
sense might allow,
the Secretary disavows,
any knowledge of other Action
to bad your last name isn't Jackson
super hero you are not, and neither are you a zero,
quite a conundrum, what is in that cup the
size of a drum,
do you find that you have a fuel, and it fools,
with a run on string of....
fill in the blank you never been stumped before,
to fill the feed, kind of reverse greed,
because you can....
While I'll lament, that I am not bent out of shape,
I am saving the really twisted parts,
for when I am older and need to restart
my heart.
Guess I am going g to bed on the wrong side.
401 · Apr 2014
To Thrive
Ottar Apr 2014
to accept some of

water, food, solace-getting,

to live to give JOY.
400 · Dec 2014
Darkness
Ottar Dec 2014
The day does not change
the night does not stain
the light does not pane
of tempered glass break;

the black cloud
talks too loud
as there's a crowd
of everyone proud
of how she is now,

so come on dear
tomorrow appear
like today, no fear,
in thirty days, tears
or no the depression,
will be willed away!

If only IT were that easy,
If only IT did not queasy,
her so, masks fit easily,
slide on and off as easily,
as pills swallowed whole.

Wake dearest, wake,
unrested, get up,
you wrestled with,
alligators twisted,
in bed sheets, sorry,
I was not there, to you,
defend, I have no excuse,
even if sleep won out in
the end.

Darkness, the darkness, your darkness,
waits for me to rest, catches you off-
guard, does not God know, it is hard
on you, ******* us, and makes living
life seem an eternity, of pain, of sor-
row?

These are just black and white letters, not
some checkered flag saying the race is over,
even if the Victory is already, won, will you
place, or finish the run, black cloud over
your eyes blotting out the Son.
399 · Feb 2015
fear
Ottar Feb 2015
Wrote last time a title Fear of Failure,
this time, fear,
this time fear,
I weary of those,
who use fear as currency,
are you listening to me,
do you use fear as currency,
do you hear,
sorry it,
The market,
The value,
bottomed out, that
is right you have a whole donkey,
(read ***, I may have it backwards keepin' it clean, interpolate)
buy a dollar store dictionary and resuscitate,
your vocabulary,
too many overdue fines on
your library card?
Here it is, you will not be ready for it,
change your
underwear after you read this, the
fear you use to try to control,
is that you have so many
fears, your tear ducts are dry from the num-
ber of times
you cry and no one hears, because you are alone,
the fears you cause are less than
the fears you have,
coward.
I am so done with this topic.
Like we said in the army - no names no pack drill,
but you will find them trembling in their own shadow
Ottar Oct 2013
two hours
more is less,
than I want
to spend,

waiting for
this Day, to
end so I,
offend not.


©DWE102013
best toys ever, words...

(10W X 2)
398 · Sep 2013
Journey
Ottar Sep 2013
walk down that trail
matters not left right
or
straight ahead

it is one that makes you
sniff the air
bend down and grab
the soil in your hand

your heart skips a beat
as you step on the one
all else is void of any
thing
that this path has

you hold back your engine
as it wants your feet to race,
you decide to pace,
knowing full well

it is not always the
destination
but the
journey

into the sunset or into the moon rise,
toward the sound of water falling or crashing,
after a faint voice that you can only hear
maybe, calling for help or cheering you on, dear
so journey on
don't wait for me,
so journey on I'll pray for thee,
remember the trail called you
not me

after all I am on
the path that is for me
if I could only know
by looking through the brush
if I would know if I would see
which way you
go
and that you would be all right
with or without being in my sight
because
you are as special to me
as anyone could be, for we have shared
each
others poetry.



©DWE092013
Ottar Aug 2014
Deliver me, from my place and my fate
but there is, somewhere I would rather be,
Take my woes, and my ugly toes,
Cleanly I will walk, clearly then I will see.

Hold my hands and stretch my arms, across my chest,
but there is scenery that I have yet to see,
Take my dreams awash, and if wishes could be horses,
Waves of that sleep carry me, above the stampede.

Send me away, call me a disgrace at play, "act your age,"
but the child disappeared before he matured,
Take my flesh and rend it, my carcass and upend it,
No longer sensitive, again and again, now inured.

Rather have flames lick and heal me.

Walk to where the arc bows, sky meets the ground,
but there is no colour at the end, all is dark,
Take what is, all there was, and all there ever will be,
In the shadow of the rainbow, there is a park.

There is a Bridge.

Some who are warriors always pass,
Some who are honest leaders enter slow, heads bowed low,
Some who have no business, just show up, say some words,
then flock off together like birds, without honour,
Some who are scarred beyond recognition,
their flesh, their wounds,
turmoil tearing at their will,  
there was no Earthly peace, life awaits beyond the Bridge, ...
Valhalla, echoes Odins voice "Velkommen"
395 · Aug 2014
Enough
Ottar Aug 2014
What if, ... you don't dream,
What if, ... we never meet,

What if, ... the sky is the ocean,
What if, ... the sea is the sky at our feet,

What if, ... I have no means,
What if, ... we never sit, side by each,


Enough of, what if,
what will be, will be,
not to take life flippantly,
or put my boat into unknown seas,
                                        no anchor,
                                        no rudder, to steer me,
                                        no sails,
                                      
so be, my sails filled with a windy blast,
be the rudder, bring me to where our hearts...will meet,
then be, my anchor and hold fast,
                                   and forever.

This life, the open water, big enough...
395 · Mar 2015
Edgewise
Ottar Mar 2015
Can't get a word in
edgewise, no doubt, introvert
male, extrovert child
Maybe a haiku, leave it up to you, I can always edit once you've read it
394 · Apr 2013
So If Not What Then
Ottar Apr 2013
SO

so, spring getting you down,
so much rain, you thought you'd drown?
so there is sunshine above the clouds,
so butterflies will weave their way on
so invisible trackless trails, let it leave you
so much in awe.

IF

if, I had the time to do more than
if my way through the day, as
if I have the confidence to be permanently,
if not, forever thought of in the words,
if published, printed and read aloud,
if not then, in silence, now I write.

NOT

not in this moment, and
not, a waste of time
not, deserving just, persevering
not to be tied down,
not in this life time,
not unnoticed, just taken for granted.

WHAT

what was I thinking of
what, I was able to do with
what I was given, freely and
what have I done about or
what was expected of me, nothing?
what?

THEN

then, again, I failed
then I try try again but
then do or do not,
then think of you, dream
then wake, look beside me for
then I find you gone.
NaPoWriMo
394 · Oct 2013
Meditation on Physics
Ottar Oct 2013
sit still as the leaves fall from the trees
did you listen for the noise on landing
                                     and the breeze
gravity is such a force when a leaf falls
                          of course it accelerates
                          at nine point eight m/s/s
Newton said it first,
                               Einstein had it right,
watching the leaves free fall within sight
                                                           ­      man is the pinnacle of God's creation,
        physics gives reason, for our delight.


©DWE102013
m/s/s = metres per second per second = an expression of acceleration
394 · May 2015
Eyes Open
Ottar May 2015
see the atmosphere breath,
by waving back at the branches
of trees, you could use the
ocean tips and curls,
if you did not have any of your own
waves, of joy, of love, of sadness, of ecstasy,
of longing, of be -
longing,
those eyes
the eyes of the wind, of the hard life lessons,

find them, without a fight.
on my IG as well, with a picture...
391 · Sep 2014
on the page
Ottar Sep 2014
A day is a stitch,
In the quilt of my life,
Each bad one a do-over,
So many, I am always running out,
And away, don't leave,
Don't fear the Reaper
Just the Seam Ripper,
Middle name "Jack"
A Polish day tripper,
News to me,
Bury my head in the sand
Of a kitty-kat litter box
Choices and
Life ...
All bad,
This is not a hobby,
That comes after
I keep begging for mercy,
my hands reach for the rafters,
Moon shines bright and white,
While grasping at stars,
With each failed rewrite,
If they edit my life,
Will I be found ever,
On the page.
Or scraps on the floor,
Or balled up fists of paper,
Heaped in the Forgotten Corner,
Behind a Western door,
That faces East with Hope,
but that is not her name.
She has a page of her own.
The miles lined up end to end,
Like silver tracks, leading...TO
where on the page.
Earl Grays misted friend, ON
to find my solace, my friend.
391 · Apr 2015
What and If meet
Ottar Apr 2015
stars, does anyone look up anymore,
or is there enough action in the palm of your
hand, cars, do they look out for pedestrians
anymore, or is the main attraction a distraction,
what would happen if you reach up,
that could to over-fill your need cup
and you touched the sky
you touched the sky
the sky touched you
would your knees buckle too?
390 · Jun 2014
you and the new world
Ottar Jun 2014
You and the new world,
Spices and flavors,
Never before tasted,
Never before seen,
Up close and uncharted,
Hidden shoals, sure to scuttle a ship,
Curvacious coastline, with dark water bays,
While eyes daydream beyond inland heights in sight, yet
To anchor and rest, from the test,
That both life and ocean travel,
Divest,
The spirit of a sailor,
Who fears returning from the sea,
Unemployed,
Toyed with, as he sits or stands on dry land,
The new world and you, cries out to the explorer in me,
Not a voyage of conquest,
But a journey of discovery,
Where everyday would be a new and exciting adventure,
But no ship has yet been built for this passage,
As time ravages, both the day and the night,
Always chasing dreams
Being startled awake,
By the shifting tide, moon driven,
As the suns' rise blinds the eyes
On every misty morning,
All in white envelopes,
No ship to sail into the unknown,
The reams of dreams from the night before
Held out of sight offshore,
Out of reach
Of memory,
Of you and the new world,
No flag unfurled,
No banner to be raised,
The riches that lay, so far away,
Are not treasures, but to be treasured,
Want not to be owned, rather unfettered,
Explored, in adoration,
At the mercy of your deep wilderness,
The new world in you
A mystery, calling my name from the tide pools,
Such as life and...
Liberty, and love ...and for....
Ottar Apr 2013
“The starlight, the night lights that brightly shine,
  The Light, one of His designs,
will one day be as bright as the day-star near,
so hug close child when you have fear.”
I will protect you and not disappear,
Together, we will not disappear.      

“The moonlight, the guiding light that travels around,
  this Home, seen with our eyes,
  will one day appear as still as a mountain white,
  so hold close all that is a memory dear.”

“The sunlight, the daylight that heats and lights,
  The Sunshine, felt by faces lifted up,
  will one day be as no other has seen before,
  so hand in hand bring loved ones near.”

“The Son’s Light, that brings the eternal flame,
   He Forgiveness, that brings no shame,
  will one day be known all around in every heart,
  so reach up, accept them both with cheer.”  

“The Light, the light that shines brightly near
  is closer than the key to your heart dear,
  Feel, let not love go without a tear,
  Look to the horizon,
  watch troubles quickly disappear.

DW Elverum November 2011,
From a NaNoWriMo novel I wrote and is now going through the first full edit (yup and for those who know I was a "winner" in 2011 and 2012)  For the rest of you it means I made the 50,000 word count in 30 days.
Ottar Apr 2013
Eternity, a long time.  It seems along time away.  Forever.
I do not have, that long to live, breathing. I hope to experience Eternity.

One day.

I have heard, so have you, that a picture is worth a thousand words, I want to write
thousands of words to get the picture of Eternity, and get it right.

There is one way.

I have heard that words can fail you, that is when music speaks. If words are my only voice
and poetry and prose are the only notes that are on key........
Do you.. will you recognize the song?
Can you sing along, so
I do not sing, out loud;
Alone.

If I paint a story with my pen or construct a vast
array of sentences, to fill the void,
please read it and bring it to life;

thump, thump,

in the emptiness,
feel for a pulse,
bring your face close,
to catch the signs of life;

A breath.

I am desperate here.
I am wanting; to ink stain, computer character,
and burn a memory in the muscle of your conscious
and unconscious.

I AM.

My arms can not open to hug anyone, if I hug my self to protect my self from the
darkness, in the world that slays
innocents without, regard for their
thoughts, their breath or what they speak; not a
word.

Winter waits. Cold comes. Freezing rain falls.
Seek the shelter, that opens its doors to the cry of
your heart; that still beats, the beats through time
and space and beyond reason; that, IT, echos

across... a cross

Spring follows, Summer simmers until the Fall,
which brings an end to the seasons, which again
are whitened purely by Winters frost; snow
hibernation and too frozen
death.

If you suffer; somewhere someone has suffered more. You are not alone,
left out in the cold although some are; in places that do not have chilly temperatures
they are treated worse than as if they were living in the most severe of winter conditions.

Punished.

This cycle of seasons is not experienced by all parts of Earth; the whether, or weather still leads on and results need to invert the status quo for mankind to survive, for you to
live eternally.  Experience the eternal.

Accepted.

Originally done by DWE 2011-12-15
389 · Feb 2015
Angel fell
Ottar Feb 2015
If it takes what time I have
Left, to kiss every scar, hop-
ing only, to make them bet-
ter, let me do that in a
sunny place where rays
of heat that wash over
you, fall

From the heaven's
that, you too, fell from.
389 · Dec 2013
Floating Soft Snow
Ottar Dec 2013
See the snow flakes floating, flat and swirling on
the tease, that is the breeze of the air so rare, as it is
cold and clean and clear,
and each lands as soft
as a kiss that our lips
share, warm enough,
to melt the frozen snow
around my heart.



©DWE122013
389 · Apr 2013
Her Steps
Ottar Apr 2013
I like it, when a baby begins to walk, even when they are not mine,
Oh, this one isn't walking just yet, each day crawls by just fine,

Her steps take me, to a place where,

I like it, when two people walk hand in hand, if the hands fit,
Yeah, stride for stride, step for step, cadence and lives knit,
Left foot, right foot, stop to laugh, left foot, right foot , stop to sit,

Her steps take me along, leash taut, her heart pulls me along,

I like it, when she finally burns energy that, she can trot at an even pace,
Again, her four feet are striking the keys of the piano notes in my head,
my pod tunes and her steps align until she follows her nose to pause;

Then we step off again, and one day her steps, will once again match mine,
the piano, the drum, the mandolin, the voices all heard in my head, just
as surely one day we will both on walk a roadway,  I alone, only memories of
moments shared.
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