don't bother, just break down
make it easy on yourself
flow into nothing
become nothing
identify with none
long for no one
it won't do you any good
in no immense amount of time
i've reappeared at the farthest
point from the finish line
the sky is cloudier than before
the wind that was once at my back
now stings my face without pity
the universe is without remorse
there is no room for that in what
is, what truly is and all that isn't
you will love just to lose
you're either doing one or the other
your friends are there to remind
you of what you can't do
of who you're doomed to become
or more realistically, fall
short of even remotely becoming
you learn to see it as a sadistic blessing
but it becomes complicated when
you crave that pain, when you need it
you attach to what
you know you must denounce
& the sting of exposed humanity
when realized it's all for naught
is a wonderful thing
embrace insignificance, for it's where you really stand
embrace solitude, you're doomed to it by sun and moon
embrace loss, it is more natural than the need to breathe
they are all wonderful things
and like all wonderful things
they do not exist
& i long to feel so wonderful
thank you so much, brother