the smell that entrances and calms the mind at heart
the beauty that draws the eye but with the fragility of withering apart
the scenery before me on the lonesome field brings me back when i was at peace
away from my broken mind where i'm brought back to the torment of seeing my reflection covered in a dark red grease
as i lay down in the field and lose focus in the vast sky i let open the gates of emotion to flood within
for being haunted by my past yet trying to move on with regret feels only like a sin
as the days grow darker my heart grows colder from suppression i've been cursed from this path i chose for myself
being trapped in this cage of isolated beauty hurts more than the cards i've been dealt
as i roam through the hills being careful to not ruin what little heaven i have granted for days on end
i think and ponder on what i have done to gain such relief from the anger but left alone to the hands of sorrow to be condemned
life seems funny as the flowers of never ending bloom show me nothing of the illusion of peace of mind
as the days go closer to a shade of black i stumble upon a unmarked stony grave which deep inside i know its mine
the flowers i've stained along the way have long forgave me but i lied feeling their false fury
for now do be it late i can smile knowing i've been freed as i'm tranquilly buried

The darkness is everywhere
It tries to eat you inside for it doesn't care
It comes in many shapes and sizes
But it never empathizes
All it wishes is to enter your heart and infect your brain
Causing you to hurt everyone and go insane
It is something that will always be around until the end of time
And it's own creation should've been a crime
But it's merely a test
To see who is suited best
For this world is the game of the gods as the bet on the lives of others for their own amusement
Creating their own darkness for the enemies torment
Even though they do this and use all life as pawns
The game will always go on
But we can help each other in this game
For our lives equal the same
And even though the darkness doesn't effect me anymore
Your heart is still an open door
So do as I say
And everything is okay
And that is to look at life through the way of others
And try to help for we are sisters and brothers
And without each other to rely on
Our entire species would not last long
So I hope that one day you can take a look through the shoes of others
For you never know what has happened to another
And if you think I'm just spewing nonsense and a big ol lie
Try to remember what made you hurt and cry.

It's to late to change
For I'm filled with hate
I try to be rearranged
But it is already too late
For I have come tired of being a marionette
For the darkness in my eyes
Can cause more pain than a bayonet
All I desire is my freedom and your demise
But If I do it too fast it wouldn't be fair
For all my pain, suffering,scars, and tears
To breaking me to where I couldn't even "care"
The only thing you ever did was forge me to become your greatest fears
So now there is no where else to hide
There is no where to go
But now I can release all the rage inside
And now I realized that you were meant to die alone.

Being here alone
With no safety zone
I look through the darkening sky
And Slowly start to cry
For all my life Instead of trying to be something
I became nothing
For my heart was darkened and my mind was foggy with thoughts of pain
At times I even went insane
For trying to fix yourself alone is not how it's done
Life isn't a game and just about having fun
It's about the bonds you make
And about the shell you break
It's about how you were once conserved so tall
But compared to the world you find out your so small
But that's supposed to encourage you to go beyond your limitations
And rise above the nations
For we all have the potential to succeed
It's just the will and determination we need
Something I realize now while staring at the dark sky
that all my life I waisted my time
Take this advice from me
That no matter who you are if you keep trying you will succeed