She's quiet nowadays
And she doesn't pick up the phone
But from facebook and snapchat I see
She's doing okay I guess, who knows.

I wish she'd let me in
And let me actually see
How she feels,
How her year has been.

I know she has a hard time really letting people in.
But I know I can crack her,
I'll eventually win.

I don't know what to do this time.
All I've ever wanted to do is help you,
It's the least you deserve.

She's perfection
And I need her to be the best
Have the best
It pains me
To feel her in pain
And I'm so happy
To know she
Has a 'crush'
She won't have one for long
She gets what she wants
She's a funny one
And she always gets what she wants
And when she gets him
I hope this one treats her
Like the
Piece of
Perfection
That she is

She's a strange one
And sometimes I think she likes
To play dumb
And sometimes I think she likes
To play the broken little bird
And she can twist whatever words
I dare to utter
She gives you that look, like butter
Wouldn't melt
Like all that time you spent
With her means the world
And she's a transfixing girl
She can make your heart feel alive
She'll make your soul feel numb
And I'm telling you, she's a strange one.

And she did leave me
Speechless
It's not often I become as
Weak as this
But I can't tell what advice to
Bring her
But I can tell her panics always
Linger
With this boy. He's always
To be coy
Baby he's going to leave you
(But yet you continue) -
Maybe Yes; you have an
Expiration date
And I'm at least glad you didn't
Realise too late
I know my girl, and detachment
Won't swing
It's terrifying to face it,
To really bring
Yourself to acknowledgment
I know the feeling
If you find your solution -
I'll be left reeling.

Her hands over her streaking face
She screams
Don't look at me
And good god I look at her
I look past all that and I see
Underneath scratches and ticks
My god she's as lonely as me.

You said
The most brilliant thing
You said it was
Like a heart surgery
But he was only a
Surgeon in training
And had neglected to
Mention beforehand
That it was only
Exploratory cardiac surgery;
And it was just for his
Simmering curiosity
(He couldn't have carried
Out a simple angioplasty?)
That he cut the aorta
That's what you said
And his curiosity subsided;
And he left as you bled.

He said
But what will you do
And oh where will I go
And how will I learn
How not to blow
All my money on stuff
You were always so great at that
C'mon man stay
C'mon now stay
Stay

And how can I go
With someone who
Depends on me so.

You'll be fine baby
And who cares what he feels
He left you,stripped of dignity
He heightened those fears
You think we'll all leave
Please stop sending those texts
To him,honey please
He clearly doesn't care
You're so brilliant when you try -
For you people will always be there
Let him go from your life
And don't let him back in
And you can sing as you do
*"You don't know what it means to win."

I left you
For no good reason
(I mean, apart from the plane tickets)
I left in our in-between season
Not just physically;
I checked out before then.
I checked out emotionally;
And my god did you know!

You kicked and screamed
You've got a sailor's mouth
Ranging from "******* anyways." To "please,we'll work something out."
It was the best thing for you
I knew you'd meet someone real
Only I didn't know how badly others would treat you, didn't know the deal.
They held you and hurt you
They caressed and scraped
They kissed and bit;
And a hollow girl they made

But I'll stay for now,if only through
Poetry and codes;
And maybe someday again,
We'll intertwine our roads.

And I read her
In part because it's easy
(Though she'll insist it's not,
And maybe she calls me ******)
In part because the pain
Draws me in
In part because she let
Her anxieties win

And he must have been a great guy
But maybe that's just it
He might have seemed perfect even
But perfect don't just call it quits