you loved me fiercely,
i held you dearly.
we fell apart violently,
i cried silently.
i miss you strongly,
but you hurt me wrongly.
i morn you loudly,
and you just look back proudly.

the rain hit my windowpane,
just like my tears hit the hardwood floor.
all of my attempts have been in vain,
i couldn't stop you from walking out the door.
i remember when you stood here
when you embraced me so warmly.
but i watched you disappear
something i wouldn't have done normally.
your kiss was strong enough to glue me back together,
your touch was enough to set me on fire.
but now, i watch the ominously fierce weather,
and force my feelings to retire.
in seven years, i'll have skin you've never touched before
but i can't help but wish you'd still be here.
but, for now, i lay here on the floor
wishing you were here, and shedding these tears.

skin so soft, lips so tender
i could stare at you forever.
you touch me, i start on fire
got me feeling like a livewire.
i would stroke your cheek for hours,
and hold your hand for years.
you calm my deepest fears,
and in my heart, you grow flowers.
your words embrace me like a warm hug,
your gaze calms me like a lullaby.
in your neck, my face fits snug
and you've got me feeling so high.
i feel safe, i feel loved
for the first time in forever.
i'm so used to being pushed and shoved,
but i know our love will never sever.
you look at me like i put the stars in the sky,
and i could talk about you for hours on end.
i know you could never tell me a lie,
and i know from you, my heart musn't defend.
you are more beautiful than you'll ever realize,
and i want you here with me for as long as possible.
we'll overcome any and all problems that may arise,
and i know with you, for me nothing is impossible.

Romance.
I remember the first day I met you.
Your hair was flowing, eyes of piercing blue.
You flashed a smile, and I was captivated.
To me, you were the most beautiful thing ever created.
By miracle, you noticed someone as shy as me.
We thought maybe, it was meant to be.
You held my hand, you accepted my flaws.
Wrapped my bleeding heart in gauze.
Your eyes always found mine
Our hearts perpetually entwined.
You gave me your shirt,
I became an extrovert.
I gave you my whole heart,
But that's just one part.
Sunny skies eventually turn gray,
And people never stay.

Rocky.

Our first fight was a mess,
I expected nothing less.
You scream, I cry
When you ask if I'm okay, I lie.
It gets harder to confide in you,
Your love no longer feels true.
During the day, we yell
I feel trapped, in a jail cell.
You see right through me,
The problems, you refuse to see.
You leave late at night,
I hold my pillow tight.
Where do you go?
I'm not sure I want to know.
We barely speak,
But it gets more bleak.

Ruined.

You tell me it's not the same,
And continue to fan the flame.
I hide away in my room,
Feeling my depression bloom.
You yell, and you break things
I try to grow my wings.
You say I'm trapped,
In your web I'm wrapped.
I close my eyes,
And see right through your lies.
I get stronger, but I still cry.
You're killing me, letting me die.
You're cynical when you laugh,
Knowing you're ripping my heart in half.
I stand, and try to run,
But this is just half the fun.

Removal.

One night, I sneak out
My mind held no doubt.
You'd wake in the morning,
But you had a million warnings.
I had to get away,
Cleanse myself from this dismay.
My life was never supposed to be this way,
But you weren't who you portrayed.
One so kind, was now bitter and evil.
Turned our lives into an upheaval.
The storm thrashes, and we burn
But I hope you learn.
You can't hurt the people you love,
You can't push, and you can't shove.
For one day, they'll leave,
And you'll be left to grieve.

Revival.

It took years to realize
I was worth more than your lies.
I hated myself,
Put my feelings on a shelf.
I gave it all up for you,
Something I should never do.
But I'm healing, getting stronger every day.
And today was my 21st birthday.
You weren't here to celebrate,
To laugh, yell, or berate.
I don't know who you are anymore,
The man I used to adore.
The emotional and mental abuse,
Left my brain with so many a bruise.
I stood up, brushed off, and found myself again
And no longer do I care where you've been.

when you're gone,
i need you here.
your presence lingers
when you're not near.

my hands tremble
when i reach for you.
you paralyze me,
how do you do what you do?

you hold me in your arms,
all of my fears melt away.
you caress me, i freeze up;
your eyes turn to a striking gray.

when you grab for me,
the lust shines through your eyes.
your hair falls into your face,
while my heart screams and cries.

when we're apart,
my mind races continuously.
i wonder if you're thinking of me,
as i sit here, plotting conspicuously.

when you hold my hand,
i feel a wave of love come over me.
especially when you're driving,
what is this? what could it be?

this is slowly evolving,
becoming more than just lust.
every kiss connecting us more deeply,
every touch creating a stronger trust.

don't be afraid of me,
i would never manipulate you.
you are such a beautiful human being,
and our feelings, we must construe.

hold me close, don't ever let go.
i need you here, and i know you need me.
keep me near, throughout the night,
i'll show you true love, you'll see.

You give me an irregular heartbeat,
You make my stomach drop,
You cause my confidence to deplete,
You make my breathing completely stop.

You snap your fingers, I fall to my knees.
It's so easy for you to make me feel weak.
To my heart, you stole all the keys...
You're a cheat, and a sneak.

You make me feel total bliss,
Anger, sadness, and anguish all at once.
When you leave a lingering kiss,
I go from feeling wonderful, to feeling like a dunce.

Your control embarrasses me,
You blind me, and I can't see.
You squeeze, and I plea,
But I just can't break free.

You see right through me,
Like my being is a mirage.
Breathe new life into me,
With your ice cold breath.
Always searching, always hunting
For our loving companions,
Another hand to hold.
When do you give in? When do you fold?
So much heartbreak,
How much pain can one heart take?
Lies, deceit, trickery
You held my heart and dropped it.
You told me this is what you wanted,
That I was something new, something refreshing.
That we were in it for the long haul,
Until you dropped the ball.
If you're not over her, why am I here?
Why am I laying in your bed?
It doesn't feel right my dear,
And now I feel like my heart might burst.
I saw something special in you,
I thought I finally got it right.
But in the blink of an eye, you're gone
I'm not sure what to do.
Part of me feels empty
Without you to talk to all day.
I guess it will always be this way,
I wish I could rewind time.
I liked it better when I didn't know you,
The pain would all undo.
But we have no such luxury
In the evil we call life.