I have to slow down
I move to fast
Learn to make each moment last

Before you know it
It’ll be tomorrow
Hope it’s happy, not filled with sorrow

You never know what the day could bring
It could be happy, or full of sin

I won’t know until that moment
Which way the wind will blow
In a blink it could all be over
The moments gone, and I’ll never know

A peace permeates my heart
lights gleam in my eyes
when I feed the little birds
feel all darkness soon dies.

Disappear chunks of my woes
a smile breaks on my lips
as I hold them warm n close
my fingers kiss their beaks.

A bliss they give without price
that dissolve my aches n pains
when I look deep in their eyes
touch there a divine innocence.

In rough tides my solace
rescuer from life’s quicksand
they import me a happiness
while pecking from my joyous hand.

Now I know
Through litigation,
That my final
Destination,
Is a state of
Deprivation,
Thanks to your
Insatiation.

A beautiful day
I must say
Possibilities are endless
I'll kneel and pray

Thank you Lord for another shot
A chance at life, to make things right
No more complaints
Only thanks and praise
Let us all enjoy these precious days

I went on a house hunt
Miles from home
Took a plane
All alone

I looked at homes
And fell in love
Ready to move
Fly in like a dove

If I could blink my eyes and make it so
I'd do it in a second, away I'd go

In my hotel room
Completely beat
I lied on the bed
And fell asleep

When I awoke I came to my senses
My head was full of front porches and fenses

I always want it now at any cost
For once I felt completely lost

I'll pack my bags and get on the plane
I miss my home as much as I complain

I'll slow my roll and take my time
Turn off the compulsion, and sip the wine

It was no less than a blind fold game
Oh,how beautifully I can still see it
You left me with madness overpowering me since last spring,
It still blossoms with your fragrance  
The best part is its inevitable.

I look to the universe
For answers to life
But I get no answers
It cuts like a knife

Do I really want to know
What's going to happen to me?
I don't think knowing will set me free

I can't control my destiny
But my happiness is up to me

His eyes were empty
You could see straight through to his soul
There was nothing there
His insides were bare

What has happened
To take away all his passion

He doesn't care about having fun
Chores and work, then he's done

His 70 inch TV
Is his only reprieve

He doesn't know how to feel
He's been suppressing emotions for so many years

He's not sad or full of fear
He's just unable to shed a tear

His eyes show everything
Which is a ******* hole
From his heart right through to his empty soul

I feel so sorry for this man
He has no idea when the emptiness began

He says he's ok
But I don't believe this to be true
I loved this man
And hate to see him so blue

He doesn't know how to have fun
Yet funny he is
He makes me laugh
He is a ****

Maybe he needs time
Or he's too far gone
He has tv, laundry, and time to cut the lawn

He's not sad
It's really just me
It's time to let go and set him free

Long long, ere long ago
Adam was adolescent
Eve was effervescent
Both were glad in body clad    
  
Adam and Eve exposed each
The duo explored to match
Adam was adulating to catch
Eve was electrifying to ******
  
Pancreatic hunger in one way
Pubertal love on way any way
Cupid apple drooped in sway
He grappled apple-gel of angel

Couple cuddled and meddled
Kindled, spindled and fondled
Fire of passion ceded seeds of love
Shy free, sky free, spy free, scot free
Capsule of calories captured
Rupture turned into rapture

Head to head dual bite at sight
Headed to fuel the duel of luring love    
Adam was adamant on that eve
Eve spelled eventful gospel of life
Only lonely lovely pair espoused  
Exploded mirth of birth on earth

Time has passed old friend
And a call across miles
All came to an amicable end
Once again I heard you smile

Catching up is good at times
Wrapped in warmth across the wire
Listening to the sweet talk chime
Fading that you were a liar

Still more than a footnote so it seems
I stained your heart with mere affection
I'm glad that I dance through your dreams
It pretties up the recollection

Thank you dear old friend of mine
I love that you just had to call
I miss the good ways we entwined
The rest, I just don't miss at all

I can't help but think, maybe, if I was better.. you would stay. If i was prettier then maybe you would want me. Or maybe, just maybe, if I was smarter, or funnier, or talked less, laughed more like I actually cared. Maybe, if I wasn't me... you would finally love me.

I found this in my journal today from a few weeks back.
And reading nearly gave me a heart attack.
How could I so easily forget we're done?
When you, my love, were my only one.

Boys & girls please, don't let someone rule your life.. in your life you'll be forced to change.. by people, circumstance.. environment.. but please, if you're going to let a person change you... remember.. if they fell in love with you and then change you... they won't love you anymore.

I've learned my lesson.

I'm sorry I'm not perfect
I'm sorry I can't be the person
You need me to be.
I tried so hard for you,
But now I know for sure
There's only one person I know how to be
And that person is **me