I want to be in the light,
not shoving my haunting secrets
of a wretched past life
into dim corners.
The light is painful,
as my pupils adjust,
but it is warm and real and bright.
I may be ****,
but I'm unashamed.
For grace is not
standing under a spotlight,
but reflecting the Sun.
Reflecting the Son,
the forgiving, unconditional One.

I'm grateful
Of life
Even tho  
Ive had some
Dfferences
Wake up
knowing
That I get to
Live
Is amazing
To see people
I love
Special
I can experience
All the good
In the world
Best of all
Find true love
& have
Some sensation
Happening too

I’ve been given a book, a Book of Instruction,
A book of what’s right and what’s wrong.
But when I am nudged towards this path of perfection,
I turn the other direction.

If I were not told of the wrong thing to do,
I would never think to even do it.
But because of my sin and my enmity of the true,
My promises to do right, simply fall through.

This book gave the path to life,
But all my sin saw was a chance.
A chance to bring death like a cutting knife,
To make me live through the strife.

Sin go away!
Leave me be!
No matter how much I wish to follow whatever the LORD may say,
You’re right there, to keep my decisions at bay.


I leave Sunday morning on fire for the LORD,
But the week goes on,
And not once have I gone and explored,
The opportunities the LORD for me has stored.

It is not who I who act, but the sin that lives within me.
But when does that sin become who I am?
When does my selfish ambition become not an entity,
But a part of the person I am to be?

What a wretched man I remain,
Only lukewarm: saying not acting, thinking not doing.
I want to act but the sin restrains.
Who can cleanse my countless stains?

Jesus,
Only Jesus

Thank you LORD Jesus, for loving me nonetheless,
For delivering me from death more times than I can comprehend.
Your Book of Instruction does not just judge and assess,
It is the Book of Life, made to bless.

Some days I feel Inspired
Other times just too tired