Now that
You are gone,
don't expect me
To miss you,
To wipe and weep,
To cry and yearn
For you....

You are gone
And that's it,
No worries
No tears
No missings
Nothing

I don't  want
To hold on to you
Forever,
If we are meant to be
Together
We will never be
Apart...

Lend me your eyes.
So I could fill them
with the bursting stars.
Telling tales of the spellbinding universe,
singing songs of exploding suns...
and of splintering quasars.

Lend me your thoughts.
So that if I may,
write of them.
Fantastical scribbles of love
and praise.
Meticulously lined
and carefully stitched...
with immaculate lace at the hems.

Lend me your breaths.
I'd catch them as they fall...
between the words you would say.
Merging mine with yours...
introducing colour...
and vigour
to my monochromatic world of
black, white and grey.

Lend me your heartbeats...
for mine thumps erratic.
As if beating in silent mock.
I depend on the steadiness in yours.
So they could usurp
the ticks of worldly clocks.

Lend me your hands.
Palms up as a sign,
perhaps as an invitation...
for me to take them.
And maybe...
hopefully fill them...
with mine...

sorry....!!
i know that
you miss me,
but
i don't want
to cause trouble
to you
as i promised you
that
you won't have
a single problem
caused by me

as the night becomes longer
my strength starts to weaken
my stomach becomes hungrier
and i soon start to break,
the sky seems like home
it's where i'm destined to be
i'm no longer strong
i can no longer fight,
as i pass by the mirror
ther stands a girl
no, she is not me
i don't know who she is to be,
my wrist is now scarred
so is my heart
my mind is now
full of horrible thoughts
i cannot escape
i cannot fight
this dark cloud
has taken over me,
i try to smile
but i do not mean it
the nights are hard
but the mornings are harder
waking up to be
someone i'm not,
i cannot feel
i cannot think
i'm now nothing
i've been fighting for way too long,
things have gotten worse
and this war is now
harder to fight
i was supposed to be happy
i was supposed to be free
but along the way to my destiny
something took over me
it was unexpected
i was not prepared
never did i think
i could feel like this way
it's a dark cold world
that i'm now living in
i fight for my life
to be back how it used to be
i can no longer remember
who i was before,
happiness was once me
but no longer it represents me,
i've fallen into
a never ending hole
so no matter,
how hard i fight
IT WILL NOT END
UNTIL IT FINALLY ENDS ME

Love Is A Disease,
And I Am Bound
To Illness

we will miss you
forever
even though you are
not with us now
you will always
live in
our hearts
forever

rest in peace
my love

My hate for you is so great
that even every day
I imagine a new way
of killing you,"
      but
"That seems hard to do
considering i'm crazy
for you,
don't you think so...?

i'm still feeling
the warmth of your kiss
yet yearning for
some more......!
i felt secured
in your arms,
hoping to get
more of your hug......!

i felt like home
when you hugged me
and now i feel
lonely and
i miss my home