I am the monster you created! I am the life that you hated! I am what you would like to destroy, now I am here to distress and annoy you! I am the ***** secret you wanted to bury. I am the thing that children find scary! I am the burden you have to carry. So why don't you admit that I am real and we can get on with learning how to deal with our co-existence as I torment your mind. I am your monster, I am your Frankenstein!

I know you're gone
And you can't live on
But some nights i wonder
If you ever really left

I know you're there
And i know you can hear me
But every day i question
If you really still care

I know I miss you
And there's nothing i can do
But I keep wondering
If this was all a huge mistake

I know you love me
And that's plan to see
But I ask myself all the time
If you know what i know
That you were and are
Everything i would ever need

Your bright smile would truly brighten up any man's saddened lonely old heart as I feel saddened I look at your bright smile and suddenly my heart smiles for the first time ever my saddened heart smiles its your true beauty who has made my heart smile no other beautiful bright could ever cheer up my saddened heart your smile has truly touched my saddened lonely heart.

Where do i belong?
in this cold dark world
she wonders as her arms slowly curl

Where do i belong?
in this unhappy place
she asks as she cries to the sky

Where do i belong?
in this miserable life
she cries ,to the beating heart, she holds inside

Where do i belong?
in this facade of emotions
she asks the mirror on the wall

Where do i belong?
in this terrifying mind
she wonders as she imagines her future

Where do i belong?
in this awful illusion
she imagines as she ends
the future of the unknown

As she sits alone
Her tears run down
Her saddened face
She is truly lonely
Alone in life
Always alone
She stops
And listens
To the wind blowing
It blows her her
He truly love's you
And shall always
Be with you
Never alone
I'm always with you
I'm here inside
Your warm heart
Forever you shall
Never be alone
Forever together
Inside your
Beating heart.

i'm begging Agony
to let go of me
leave me
let me be
please, i cant see
someone heal me
revive me
i'm drowning
so alone, so helpless
******, Pain, i shan't forget this
but i bet that
i'll forget that
i basically asked for this
to have to sit and reminisce
litterally begged for it
gotta have someone to miss
i had to want to be loved by
someone who was gonna leave without a goodbye
not a tear, no, he did not cry
this i know
but he had to go
NO AGONY DON'T-

im almost gone
wasting away
completely alone...

Do you ever think about me?
Because I dream of all the things you said we'd be.
Daily, I cry over everything you said we'd do.
Truly, I was ready to live my life on the run with you.

I'd said it before.
told you, I wanted nothing more
than to be loved by you...
and all I wanted to do was
be your everything.
"girl of your dreams'
whatever that means.

Because I understand none of this
I don't get it, my life was so full of bliss
before you walked out the door.

Left the essence of you behind
now at night when i dream
we meet in my mind
and all the time
I wait until I'm alone to cry.
I wonder why
You left ME behind
Because you promised me
You would never leave.

My dear human diary...
Why did you make a promise
you couldn't keep?

listening to Ne-yo
"what am I gonna do with forever now?"
how
will I breathe?    

every breath that I take
with every move I make
it's feeling more and more like I'm making the same mistakes.

because I breathe in
and I think of- of him
again

the memories
they get the best of me
**** me slowly
painfully
I ask again:
how will I breathe?

we've already established well enough that I can't see
maybe love can blind you
pain does the same but it also has more damage to do

pain targets my memories
the ones that get the best of me
tear apart the rest of me
force me to hold on and cry
lest I
forget
the good times
each and every morning's sunrise
every time I opened my eyes

to see the guy I thought
was the one for me

he and I are one
and the same

though he took all of my pain
away
every
single
day.

but every sweet and romantic kiss, every soothing touch...
it was a lie.

now all I can do is try
not to cry
I
sit and sigh
stare at the sky
wondering a simple thing
yet it is so complex indeed:

why did he come into my life and hurt me?
why didn't he just stay the hell away, and let me be?
why did I choose to let him in?
now I'm stuck with torment I can't describe-
would you like me to begin?

I mean, I
can try...

it's like having your heart ripped open then
sewing it shut
yet you still can't stop the fact that you care-
is this too much?

I mean, to care
though he is elsewhere.
yet... not so far away
because it would take me less than a day
to reach him
if I wanted to
it is something I could do.

this pain
is worse than I thought it would be
never before had I let someone this
close to me...
forever I'll be
wondering why...

this hurt, this pain-
it hasn't gotten any better.
I'm hoping and praying it doesn't last
forever.
feels like I've gotten left out in bad weather
breaking benjamin-
"birds of a feather"

I can't see
can't breathe
help me
please...

I need
someone
anything
stop this agony...

out of time
I've lost my
will
to survive
I've learned to thrive

and I
can't take another
surprise
I gotta open my eyes
be more wise...

but I can't see
can't see
can't breathe
somebody help me
help me
save me
or I'll be
forever alone
on my own

well, I'd rather be
me
myself, and I
but why
do I feel
a need
for
something I can't have
I'm trying to open a locked door
no key

but I'm not talking of ken only...

deep down, I know
the hurt has yet to go
I know
I still care for jordain
so...

what'll I do now?
how
do
I
breathe?

he's
no longer by my side.
how will I sleep?
I got insomnia late at night

because I'm up cause of
the dreams
they **** me
inside
no where
to
hide
and I

can't see
can't see
can't
breathe
help me
save me
or I'll be
forever
alone.
on my own.

Just gotta fix my eyes
and say amen
I'll speak life
and seek You again
First.

I see what I want and I take it. I do not care about the consequences of my actions. I would rather be feared than loved. I do as I please and revel in the satisfaction of making gains. I walk around politely and appear normal, but inside I am a menacing form with little in the way of remorse. I do not act with reason but in self interest alone. I prey on the weak and the unsuspecting. I leave broken and shattered lives and destruction where ever I go. I wear a mask of illusion for I need no reason at all.