I'm sorry for the nights you spend asking yourself why
I'm sorry for the time you spent waiting for me to reply

I'm sorry for toppling your reality too soon for you to prepare
I'm sorry if you thought that I never really did care

I'm sorry for the anger and the pain and the tears
I'm sorry It ended up like this after all this years

I'm sorry you asked if I'd be here and I always said I would
But most of all I'm sorry I didn't love you like I should

i would think of jumping sheep
but it wouldn't help me fall asleep
or listen to and read classical scores
but they don't put me to bed anymore
even to take the strongest sleeping pills
the bad thoughts and worries it could ****

but i heard your voice
you talked as i closed my eyes
it excited me like the jumping sheep
it graced my ears like the classics
but most of all

it knocked me out in an instant

It's a particular thing for me to say
This feeling I cannot leave at bay
I've always wanted to
But maybe, I'm not bound to

I always care
That's why I don't know if I can bare
I see and I hear
But I don't want them to feel

Depression is more worse
Than a long discussion
I might always go with them
But still, I know unpleasant things about them

Words that are unpleasant
Roots inside me like a plant
They think I'll forget and won't remember
The truth is it's going to be with me forever

I'm always out of place
For me it's alright, maybe they want some space
They all now have a new friend
But I still hope
That our friendship will never end