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Jun 2015 Christopher Tolleson

Insignia

Jun 2015 Christopher Tolleson

Olga Valerevna

Insignia

Enough with all the anger, enough with all the skin
I'm tired of the people that I've been letting in
This nothingness is lonely and more than I can take
I want to be remembered as nobody's mistake
To sing at every silence and hum at every word
Put all of it in poems that everybody's heard
I'd like to sit in thicket and let it swallow roots
That flourish into gardens and harvest many fruits
Without the fear of waiting or wanting to escape
Release the sense of longing for somebody someday
The thought of it is simple and easy on the eyes
A mess of little secrets I've come to recognize

all a shambles

#eyes #mess #secrets

Jun 2015 Christopher Tolleson

Heavy Treads

Jun 2015 Christopher Tolleson

Olga Valerevna

Heavy Treads

if i can't sleep beside you i don't want to sleep at all
i'd rather be an orphan in the places where i fall

and i'll continue living like i never had a home
make everywhere i'm going just another place to roam

there's not a single step that i can purposely explain
but all of them collectively are holding fast today

it's not the kind of feeling you could ever even dream
i'm nothing but myself the days i'm nothing like i seem

some days weigh more than others

#days #heavy #tread

Jul 2014 Christopher Tolleson

love, the drunkenness

Jul 2014 Christopher Tolleson

Madeline

love, the drunkenness

this is love,
we'll do what we do if it gets us drunk,
we'll find what we find if it gets us drunk,
we'll risk what we risk
just for the untainted rush of your skin absorbing mine,
of hair and fingers and breathless things,
of push and pull and longing things,
the wildness, the want
the drunkenness, the drift

Jul 2014 Christopher Tolleson

a reunion, brief and sweet

Jul 2014 Christopher Tolleson

Madeline

a reunion, brief and sweet

there is an undauntable light in my eyes
and a hickey sliced warmly across the middle of my throat,
and the half-lingered and utter warmth of your hands in mine.
there are murmured "i love you"s
and unsuppressed smiles
and the promise of
soon, soon,
seeing each other again.
there is rewarded patience
and the warming of my long unkissed mouth
to yours
and there is the reassurance that
yes, it was worth it.

for p

Jul 2014 Christopher Tolleson

unlikely friends

Jul 2014 Christopher Tolleson

Julie Butler

unlikely friends

Body stomping
like crushed bones beneath lead feet
my cheek meets the ground
my teeth start to bleed
hi it's nice to meet you
says the concrete to my jaw
I said I didn't know you cared so much
it's not often that I fall

Jul 2014 Christopher Tolleson

Sapphire Stains

Jul 2014 Christopher Tolleson

Olga Valerevna

Sapphire Stains

I dipped my skin in acetone to render it untrue
The look I have achieved - a simple shade of black & blue
I wonder if the people who can see it are surprised
But reckon there is nothing that will shock their states of mind
I haven't been exposed enough to feel them looking in
To ask them any questions I could even dare to spin
So if you want to look at all the flesh I've ever worn
I ask you to be gentle like you've never been before
I cannot bear the judgement of the people who are here
Who've come to make a mockery of all that I call dear
And yet I fail to move because I've paralyzed my bones
I guess I'll have to stand until I catch the final *stones

#bones #catch #stones

Jul 2014 Christopher Tolleson

Never Stop Feeling Strange

Jul 2014 Christopher Tolleson

Olga Valerevna

Never Stop Feeling Strange

I carry you in everything I do and say and see
And wandering the streets today I try to let it be
But how can I acknowledge what I'll always never know
Or hope that you could ever tell me where it is we go
I'm tangled up entirely, my skin is not the same
The driver or the passenger, I'd rather go insane
And if you're calling out to me you're calling someone else
I've not been hearing anything because I'm not *myself

title and inspiration taken from Copeland's, "Strange and Unprepared"

#strange #stop #feeling