I am not yours, not lost in you,
Not lost, although I long to be
Lost as a candle lit at noon,
Lost as a snowflake in the sea.

You love me, and I find you still
A spirit beautiful and bright,
Yet I am I, who long to be
Lost as a light is lost in light.

Oh plunge me deep in love—put out
My senses, leave me deaf and blind,
Swept by the tempest of your love,
A taper in a rushing wind.

A few years back, in 2003
My older brother confided in me
That he didn't like girls, he knew he was gay
But we'd always been told that wasn't okay

He looked so afraid and with tears in his eyes
Looked up and he cried "I'm always living lies!"
Our parents were Christian, and he was unsure
If they would accept him or look for a cure

I kept his secret til he shed his doubt
He gathered my family, and finally came out
I was so proud, but he seemed so ashamed
He thought that by "God" for his "choice" he'd be blamed

My father still loved my brother the same
But he couldn't believe that, and wallowed in pain
They have stopped speaking, and haven't in years
And when I see my dad he still breaks down in tears

He loves his son and misses him still
But my brother's convinced my dad never will
So they both remain empty and both just stay sad
They're both too stubborn to fight for what they had

She rode upon a horse's ghost deep in the blackened sky
And floated down to where they roamed to make sure they would die
The humans on this planet have ruined everything once grand
They've killed off trees and animals, and destroyed so much land

She watched from in the sky while riding on her ghost
Trying to decide which people she hated the most
And when she had decided who was first to become dead
She swooped down on her dead horse and chopped off all their heads

And few soon became many as she went on a rampage
Killing all the people, no matter gender, race or age
She just wanted the peace back that this planet used to have
But humans have destroyed and wrecked the beauty in their paths

Once she had killed the humans, and gained her wanted peace
She realized that she had no more anger to release
And when she looked around and she had the earth to herself
She whispered to the air and wished there was someone else

I crumble just like fallen leaves
Being raked into a pile
I'm just as naked as the trees
When I can't make you smile

I hate to see you happy
Much as I hate to see you frown
But you took every piece of me
And you turned them upside down

I just let my ashes fall
I'm not sure what else to do
I had let go of it all
When I stopped holding onto you

But it's never a fair fight
Life always has the upper hand
And there is no wrong or right
There's no point to understand

We just have to travel on
Trying to make our journey's end
Write and sing our favorite songs
Let them play and play again

I'm not sure where this road goes
But I'm ready for the trip
Go somewhere that no one knows
And just make the best of it

1603

The going from a world we know
  To one a wonder still
Is like the child’s adversity
  Whose vista is a hill,
Behind the hill is sorcery
  And everything unknown,
But will the secret compensate
  For climbing it alone?

Lord, with what care hast Thou begirt us round!
Parents first season us; then schoolmasters
Deliver us to laws;—they send us bound
To rules of reason, holy messengers,
Pulpits and Sundays, sorrow ******* sin,
Afflictions sorted, anguish of all sizes,
Fine nets and stratagems to catch us in,
Bibles laid open, millions of surprises,
Blessings beforehand, ties of gratefulness,
The sound of glory ringing in our ears;
Without, our shame; within, our consciences;
Angels and grace, eternal hopes and fears:
Yet all these fences and their whole array
One cunning *****-sin blows quite away.