Am I not your poor your weak?
Your wretched refuge from a teeming shore?
Do you not still hold the lamp?
Before me at the golden door?

Who is able to decide..
Who is the free and the brave?
The ones who sit back and enjoy?
The wealth gained day by day?

The ones who never had to prove
Or be alone against the struggle
The ones who never faced the storm
Never even touched a shovel?

Is this not the land I'm told..
That is free and for the masses?
And position is not imposed
Or subjected just as assets

As an American I have to ask
What was the point of all this war?
When we are simply going back..
To all that we were before?

The belief that one was equal to all
The terrible government crippled us all
And beneath the rubble did they not crawl?
To fight back against this demonic brawl?

In the end all I have to say
Is we did not give millions of lives away..
To keep waging war or giving labels..
Just give me one reason how you are able?...

To decide who deserves to be free..
Who decides where serenity is allowed?
To say that to be an immigrant..
Has simply overflowed the crowd?

Is America not for the free?
For the ones who fight every day?
The ones that lay awake and pray
For poverty to go to grave?

Is this the land not for the brave?
Not for the ones who battled their way?
The ones who fought every night and day?
Does the lamp still not guide their way?

I hate how much I think about you
The way my world fades to black
Where happiness is but a memory
and reality is simply aftermath

You probably think me crazy
For this pathetic lingering on
I know the fire has died because..
All its warmth is gone.

I know there is no way
To reignite the hearth
But I stare into it anyway
Remembering every word

The ones you chose to say
That made me feel vivid and alive
The ones you chose to say
and leave butterflies inside

The ones you chose to say..
To see tears swell my eyes
The very words you chose
To tell me goodbye.

I picked a dozen roses
And sent them all to you..
Some are different colors..
With a symbolic point of view..
2 red roses for your smile..
That drives me insane..
2 pink roses for your kisses
That leave a lipstick stain..
2 blue roses for your eyes
Pools of natures perfection
2 yellow roses for your beauty
My only selection
2 purple roses for your body
Of which I can't ignore..
2 black roses for leaving me..
Dying on the floor
please accept these flowers
And know I love you so..
Each one a fragment of myself..
And all that you let go.

When we come face to face
I'm mumble mouthed for sure
From all the broken memories
Laying in pieces on the floor

When you draw your excuses
I still cannot point the blame
In the end it's all my fault
Every ounce of pain

I look you in the eyes
And..my words seem to falter
You cry for my forgiveness
But that cannot be altered

I counted days alone
I spent cleaning out my conscious
Now you blow in wrecklessly
And all I feel is nausious

I can see the hurt
You truly do regret..
But that is not enough
To ever make me forget

The way you chose to end it
Threw my heart on the floor
Laughed and prodded my emotions
Until I couldn't take it anymore

It took me to move
A thousand miles away
So I could finally escape
These awful games you play

So please do me a favor
Hear the words I speak
For they are far more kind
Than the ones you left for me..

You'll always be in my heart
My first everything was you
You have my forgiveness
But we cannot start anew

I'll love you forever
But your love is not true
Today's the day you love me..
And the day I cannot love you.

To the girl that stole my heart
The same woman who broke it
Moon light shows the truth
And valentines day provoked it..
Back from trade school I ventured
Forever was the plan
And you would never leave me
A loyal worthy man
Day drags me into worry
So thoughts invade my head
Much too soon to realize
For I was far from dread
Promises like pills and poison
You dosed me while unknowing
Didn't realize you were playing
Really had me going
Even now I see only apathy
Mean words wont wash away in time
It kills me to have to say it
Anyway read the 1st word a line

I know you don't care anymore but..

It hurts when I breathe
It hurts when I speak
It hurts when I convince myself
To get back on my feet
It hurts to see a smile
And to drown in the rain
It hurts so ******* much
I think all I know is pain
It hurts to watch love movies
It hurts to be alone
It hurts to see the pictures
Still sprawled throughout our home
It hurts to wake up everyday
And hurts to close my eyes
It hurts to take these lonely walks
Under the darkness in the sky
It hurts to look at women
It hurts to pretend
It hurts so ******* much
Will this ever end?
It hurts when you come and trample
Through my dreaming mind
It hurts when I wake up
and can not press rewind
It hurts when I see your number
And when you text me too..
I think it hurts so much..
Because my heart is still with you
You never gave it back
And now it hurts to live..
A man now less than loving
With so very much to give
It hurts to see you laughing
And it hurts to fake the role
And pride will not allow myself
To ever be made whole
It hurts so ******* much..
I'm losing my ******* mind
On **** here she comes
Hey yeah I'm doing fine

A flower so beautiful
Yet so brittle
A rare possibility.
Growing spontaneously
In a garden of engenuity
Where everything is
So complex..
Each new bloom
Is more diverse
Than next
The garden now seen..
From a place
Where everything
Is exaclty the same..
Where the rose
Is suspected
As just a flower
With the ability
Of love
No sense of devour
And as ignorant
As those
As the "ability"
To judge..
Love
As a meaningless..
Possibility
Than those who see..
Only a garden of snakes..
Will never dine
In the peasants inn
Of heritage and courage
Because he who sees
Only a flower
As a plant..
Is as ignorant as..
Those self dignified
To sign loans and
Grants..
What if the flower
Is more than we see
What if trapped inside
The mind of a person..
Not recognized
By society..
The flower is more
Than we can identify...
Just don't forget..
Your opinion..
Can brittlize..
The fragments of
What's left of it..
Because in the end...
Even love
Calls quits

When I say your name
Tears flood my eyes
Dragging me back down
To that darkened place inside
When I hear your voice
My own seems to falter
Forced to relive memories
I can never alter
When I see your picture
Denial streams through my veins
And I come to an overdose
On all that still remains
When I close my eyes
I pray not to dream of you
I just want to sleep
One night right straight through
But I always see your smile
I always hear your laugh
I always wake up next to..
Your tear soaked photograph.

I can not remember
How it used to be
When I would wake up
And listen to you breathe
I can not remember
The taste of your kiss
Nor can I see clearly
Your rose ted lipstick
I can not remember
How it feels to be alive
I've been so consumed by hate
And the mask I hide behind
I can not remember
The touch of your skin
I can not remember
What it feels like to win
In fact all I can remember
Is how much it hurt
When I feel on my face
In all the **** and dirt
All I can remember
Is the taste of betrayal
And I can not remember
How I used to prevail.
I wish I could remember
At least one memory
Where I was not depressed
Or in a prison of misery.

Here I am
Falling to pieces
Are you the one?
To put me back together?
I know I'm scarred..
Not much to look at at
Buy beneath the skin
Resides a ride or die man
Don't judge a book
By its cover
I am living proof
Of such a notion
Take my hand
Hear my words
They're more than
Just statements
I love you now
And I will
Love you til the end
Tick tock goes
The clock
Bombarded endless beats
Here I am once again
Falling to pieces
Be the glue
Be the string
That holds me together
And I promise you
Nobody
Will ever hurt you again.
Trust in me
Follow through
I am not a liar
Help me find
A piece of mind
I'll never abandon you
Here i am
Yet again
A pile of pieces
Not much to see..
But trust in me
And..
You'll never hurt again.

I toss and turn
Like a ship in the ocean
Like a mad man
Void of emotion

Compass points to
Wealth and riches
Full speed ahead
To beers and *******

Had enough of these
Lying deceiving
Girls who say
They're never leaving

But as soon as
The adventure ends
They write me off
As less than friends

They say any port
Is good in the storm
As long as it has alcohol
And a place to keep warm

I don't look at
Life that way
I look for the port
To stay

But all this time
Coasting trial and error
Play my cards carefully
Cuz I'm afraid to scare her..

But here I am
Still sailing
To that woman worth
More than nailing.

A notch on the belt
Of captain yours truly
A tad bit corny
***** and unruly

Maybe I'll find her
Somewhere more exotic
Find that woman that
Defines mere ******

But until that day
Comes with the horizon
I seek my comfort
In the eyes and the thighs in..

The place I wake up
Safe and warm
Because there is truth in..
Any port in the storm.

Here we lay our
emotions to rest
Lust and love no longer
linger on our breath
The way the moon
Would illuminate
Your face
The apple lip balm
I can still taste
I reach out
To press rewind
And bring us back
To happier times
Under the old willow tree
Lost in those fields
Where I'd bring you
Flowers
And you'd ask me..
Am I really real
But now time has
Left us behind
You have went your way
I'm still going mine
They say time
Cures all wounds
But its many moons
And I still feel so blue
I think about you
And what we used to share
I'm just tired of rolling over
And not finding you there.

Today I saw the sky
Drowning in the rain
I saw the world's negligence
And felt our worlds pain
We as a species
Disconnected from our earth
Comfort found from possession
Instead of family by the hearth
I saw our world crying
From the pain we have caused
The Forrest stripped to nothing
The northern ice now thawed
And as we turn a carless eye
To our world and our mother
Neglecting all we've been given
Provided for like no other
All in life we need..
Was not created by man
We have simply forgotten
How to live off of the land
One day rapture will come
Not biblical but for sure
And mother nature will abandon us..
Like our species has done her.
Our world is dying..
And resetting..
Is the cure.

Walking down this dark highway
Wondering if you pass thought my way
And if you do then what do you say?
Your memory is all I have left today
Not what you needed at the time I guess
Because if I were you wouldn't have left
So I find myself now holding my breath..
Staring down counting back my steps
Its funny how life twists and turns
Its amazing how fast bridges burn
Light the right ones up and a lesson learned
Spending every penny earned
Don't need the money or society
Because all I need is already inside me
My way back to you and our rivalry
Through the night the burning bridges guide me
Spectacular view.. from where I'm now stranded
You threw me away but look where I landed
For all the miles I have now expanded
Fought my way back nothing's been handed..
I spit out your taste and your name
Point your finger yeah I'm to blame
For being a loyal lover and the one that came
For you when your life was going insane..
So now I walk and all that's left to say
I'm not sorry I wasn't good enough that day
I look into the night and wander astray
and these burning bridges light my way.

I walk through life alone
Absent emotion
Face set like a stone
Through the dark I roam
Where I lay my head
Is where I call home
Could be here or could be there
Don't ask me to tell
Because I'm not sure where
My eyes a permanent stare
Cut me stab me I assure
You I don't care
I've been there before
Its no suprise when
Hurt beats down my door
Sure I can't take much more
But I'm alive and as so
I endure
Don't you look down on me
Sure I'm a ****** mess
In my blue jeans
Dont like it then don't look at me
I walk alone down this
Lightless street
The world's a barren place
And on every tree I
Still see her face
You don't know how bad that tastes
I laugh and smile
But hide my empty state.

There was a time I'd wait
For you
There was a time I'd die
For you

There was a time the rain
Didn't matter
There was a time the pain
Didn't matter

There was a time that I wasn't
Afraid
There was a time I wouldn't
Roll in my grave
There was a time
Yeah there was a minute

When I couldn't see life
Without you in it
There was a place.. We called home
That's still the place
I write alone

I am..
Broken and scattered
Fragile and shattered
Dressed but tattered
Beaten And battered

Lost and ignored
Put on the shelf.. Stored
Forgotten and ignored
But another to your hoard

Stripped and undignified
Told only lonely lies
A mask to hide behind
Nobody to idolize

Strong but weak
Stricken can't speak
Emotions that leak
I am but a meek..

Shell of what I used to be
I am my own worst enemy
Prisoner of but apathy..
I am simply
Nothing.

Tell me what has happened
To the love we used to share
Why did you just let me go
Like you never even cared

Tell me whats been trampling
Through your georgous mind
When you close your eyes
Is it my face you find..

Tell me what has changed
In the days of your retreat
Do you feel victorious
Over my hearts defeat?

Tell me do you love me..
Do reciprocate my pain
When its bright and sunny
Does your reality rain

I'll tell you what has happened
Since you walked away
Mt heart still beats for you
Even though its been betrayed

I'll tell you whats been eating me
Drilling through my head
Its sleeping on the couch
Because I still feel you in my bed

Don't tell me that your sorry
Because its what I want to hear
Don't come back looking
Baby cause I will not be here.

So many words to you
I have left to say
So many nights to god
I lay awake and pray
I just want to tell you
How broken down Inside
The pieces of me struggle
fitting together in my mind
The shadow I cast grows
consuming all and me
I try to run but can't escape
This apathy..anger and agony
I toss and turn at night
Reaching for you in my bed
Which has grown so large lately
I am simply entombed in dread
They say time is the cure
be patient you will see
But I fear there is no time
this pain will never leave
The moon illuminates
the pictures on the wall
Inside my conscience speaks
and answers to your call..
Have I lost my mind?
Please god let me forget
She's somewhere laughing loving..
and I am burried in regret
There are so many questions
Seeking refuge in my head..
Look at the clock.. 4am..
Guess I'll sleep when I'm dead.

The suns gone down.. back tomorrow
and here i lay awake now hallowed
and the words i wished id swallowed
the path in life i wish id followed..
means nothing now because i was weak
inside myself where secrets keep..
the ones that wake my deepest sleep
and out of me creeps sanity..
to her i mean nothing..
for she left me in the past..
but id still tell her i loved her..
even if that breath is my last.

I enjoy watching the sunrise,
on the porch in my chair,
morning coffee.. first cigarette
I could be dying.. I still wouldn't care

Breathing life into vision
the colors erupt as the light invades
the warmth spreads to me
a splash of hope.. a splendid taste.

The way the dew glimmers
while trees dance in the wind
the birds sing their song
almost absolving my sins.

Experiences like this keep me grateful
for the hardship I endure.
I don't take medicine for my depression..
a dose of reality is the cure.

The sun tires almost instantly
I see by the pink streaked sky.
I extinguish my last cigarette..
as the light says its goodbye.

The silence of your whispers
when you speak to me.

the erotica you use on my mind
sets my mental state at ease

when you grab my hands and embrace them
tell me to have my way

clothes undone, ready for some fun
and I can't look away

your eyes so memorizing
beauty captivates my cell

your body sculptured perfect
if theres a flaw I couldn't tell

you bite my lip, breathing
go faster.. harder please

scratches down my back, prove I do not lack
the ability to fulfill your needs.

the sun has gone down tonight
the aroma of us has followed..

in the aftermath of our naked clash..
my endurance dwindles hallow.

Shadow on the wall tell me can you feel?
am I your imagination do you know Im real?
are we in other worlds connected at the spine?
Can you see me as me or am I just wasting time?
do you share my heart? or maybe my thoughts?
Are you reason for the darkness that my life has brought?
Do you crack a smirk when the sun comes out to play?
Maybe use some trickery cuz I wouldn't know.anyway?
does the way you lay down behind me show what my life is worth?
a silhouette on the ground in all the bugs and dirt?
when I go to sleep do you say a prayer?
do you show praise in demons tounge I can hear from over there?
do you walk around my room playing cynical games?
poking proding me in my sleep dig into my brain?
If you are just inanimate.. have nothing to do with me..
Then tell me why I look into the mirror and its your face I see..

Open my eyes,
No more being blind
Time to accept my hand
Its taken enough time.

Open my ears
No more being deaf
No more fighting a pointless war
Ill leave with a few medals
pinned upon my chest

Time to say the words
I never thought Id say
So long, farewell, goodbye
Like you'd care anyway..

I feel in my heart
Im a good man, I deserve better
I hope you think of me
And leave tears on my letters

I've never said a mean word to you
So I won't start it at the end.
Just remember you lost a faithful lover
Remember you lost a loyal friend.

One day your gonna miss me
and all my corny rhymes
But by then ill be healed
And had found a woman worth my time.