He spoke his words
Out came the truth
They felt like swords
Shattering the eternal youth
I guess it is time to let things go
For my time it ticking away
I am tired of putting up a heartless show
The words I thought will never come out to say

Just kidding
No, I won't falter
Falter my guard
Guarding myself
From harm

Just kidding
No, I won't let
Anyone near
Won't let my 
Chilled heart
Be warm

Just kidding,
No more flowers
Happy-feely thoughts
That cloud up
My mind

Just kidding,
No, I won't play
Won't push next
But would rather,
Pause and rewind

Just morphing
Back into having
A chilled heart
That's uncapable
Of feeling anything

Numb
'Til the flowers
Grow back

When I say your name
Tears flood my eyes
Dragging me back down
To that darkened place inside
When I hear your voice
My own seems to falter
Forced to relive memories
I can never alter
When I see your picture
Denial streams through my veins
And I come to an overdose
On all that still remains
When I close my eyes
I pray not to dream of you
I just want to sleep
One night right straight through
But I always see your smile
I always hear your laugh
I always wake up next to..
Your tear soaked photograph.