You are sweet and kind.
I'm so lucky you're mine.
You're silly, goofy, and strange,
but no one makes me laugh like you can.
You're honest, genuine-
which is the best relationship to be in.
I am so proud to call you mine.
Most days, I feel I don't deserve your time.
But you love me nonetheless,
and I really must say you're the best.
Not just the best person or friend,
not just the best lover or future husband.
What really has me smiling right now
is knowing you'll be the best father, no doubt.
And I really hope and pray it's true,
that maybe, just maybe,
someday our son will grow to be just like you.
I love you, Alex.
            -Carolyne

Uncertainty.
I cannot be sure of anything,
Except uncertainty.
Uncertainty, certainly.

Eternity.
The thing that lasts forever,
But only seems to exist in the future.
Semi-Eternity.
Living internally.

Serenity.
You can only
Know it truly
If you have lived chaotically,
This price-tagged serenity.

Uncertainty.
When does eternity start?
Have I paid in full for my serenity?
Uncertainty.

Must I live this eternity
With uncertainty in my heart,
Always chasing the serenity
That my chaotic life has bought?
              -CM

"The mind in its natural state can be compared to the sky, covered by layers of cloud which hide its true nature."
- Kalu Rinpoche

Sometimes I ask myself
"Why am I still here?"
but then you take my hand,
I can almost almost taste your smile,
so sweet, my dear.

Everything I hold dear
is in my hand,
in my hair,
the smell of you lingers
and I have to sigh through the tears.

You have stolen my heart,
enraptured my soul,
and devoured me whole.
My mind is tethered yet torn apart
when I think of you and what you've done to me.

Just you wait, my love.
Not much longer, someday,
when I have taken your oath and sealed it
I'll steal you away swiftly.
Swiftly we'll fly across oceans, my dove.

Take my hand,
hold my head to your heart
and remind me that it's mine.
Each beat whispers as soft as desert sand
*"I love you and we'll never be apart."