I'm broken,
Wrists open,
Hoping for home,
But I'm too far gone,
To know where that is.

You don’t know how much you mean to me. How much you help my mind, body and soul. I won’t say your name because you know who you are. I doubt you’ll ever even see this. But I need to get it off my chest. Plus if I say your name and how I feel it makes it very real. Because I shouldn’t be feeling this way this quick. It doesn’t make sense. But I know you don’t feel the same so what’s the point. You’re the only one that makes me feel comfortable. The only one that wants me to come out more. It just feels like everyone hates me. Everyone but you. Well. It feels like you do sometimes. But hey. What can I do about it. Everyone hates me in the end. I hate me so I don’t blame them. But I just don’t know what I would have done without you. So thank you. You mean a lot. And I mean it. I can feel myself tearing up. I think I’m finally gonna cry. The first time since the first day of getting here. She was scared this was gonna happen. She always said she was right. I should have listened haha. But I do care about you. Maybe too much. I just wanna kiss you on the head and cuddle up with you. But I can’t because I know you don’t want to. And it kills me. But I just have to get on with it. So I will.

I just need someone to talk to
They don’t care, nobody at all
I just need someone to call
They have their own life
I just need someone to tell me to put down the knife
Stop being over dramatic
I just need someone.

Its 01:19
I hear nothing but my heart
This is the loudest silence
It speaks more than words could
Its peaceful
Its nice
I have purpose
A light in my life
I'm finally happy
Good night.

I will wait around forever,
For the chance to finally get her,
And be able to make her mine,
I will wait forever,
For the time.

I will wait around forever,
For the late-night plans,
And the chance to hold your hand,
I will wait,
For the chance to get down on one knee,
So that you and me can be.

I want to text you this at 2A.M,
But I promised you I’m over it,
I think about you now and again,
And love you just a little bit.
 
I want die,
But I want to live forever,
I break down and cry,
Wishing I hadn’t seen your face,
Not once,
never.

I want to leap from the highest point,
And crawl to the deepest hole,
You were like a life checkpoint,
The next chapter,
Making my life whole.

I want to die,
But not forever,
Just to see what it’s like,
I wouldn’t want to leave you forever,
I wouldn’t do that,
never.
 
I feel so much for you,
Even though I lie and say no,
But I don’t know what to do,
Because if I come clean,
Then you’ll know.

How much of a **** I am,
That I said what it took,
And tried what I can,
To get you back,
With no luck.

Come lay with me,
You are a necessity,
I want to feel you,
While it is just us two.

I wish I could put into words,
The love I feel,
You don't give me butterflies,
You give me hummingbirds.

I want to do it
But I don’t want them to hear
They’d finally hear the pain
The screaming
And crying
The pain I feel
In my core
The one I wish to leave
The one that makes me want to die

I feel empty inside
I wish I'd died
When you left
The world is grey
There is no joy
I've lost my light
And now there's nothing
But eternal night.

I will wait around forever
For you
No matter what you do
Or say
I'm here to stay

I want to die,
But I want to live forever,
I break down and cry,
Wishing I hadn’t seen your face,
Not once,
never.

I want to leap from the highest point,
And crawl to the deepest hole,
You were like a life checkpoint,
The next chapter,
Making my life whole.

I want to die,
But not forever,
Just to see what it’s like,
I wouldn’t want to leave you forever,
I wouldn’t do that,
never.

Drink and drugs drown the sorrows,
They numb the pain
The hole that stops me
Feeling whole at night
Alone

Longing for your presence
Hoping to wake up next to you
Seeing the life in those eyes
Filling mine with hope

Maybe tomorrow
Maybe.

i'm sat in the dark all alone,
in my room back at home,
i cant live away,
what can i say,
i want to end my life,
like i want to end the day.

When you smile,
You warm the hearts of the coldest thugs,
And give comfort,
To the little boys needing hugs,
You light up the room,
It’s never a sad moment,
When you smile.

When you laugh,
Birds sing in unison,
Baby’s stop crying,
You lift up the spirits of everyone blessed to hear it,
There’s not a frown in sight,
When you laugh.

When you dance,
You rewrite the rhythm,
Everyone dances to your beat,
They all follow you as you move you feet,
There’s not a song I hate,
When you dance.

When I hold you,
There’s no place I’d rather be,
But I could be anywhere,
As long as it’s you and me,
I fall in love a little more,
When I hold you.

I've left myself empty,
By helping everyone I know,
And now I need to build,
But don't know where to go.

I can finally see,
What i need to do,
I need to care about me,
More than I care about you.

Some nights I want to drive,
Just crash my car and hope to die,
I don’t know why.

Some nights I want you,
So I can hold you and cry,
I don’t know why.

I see you everywhere,
Your beautiful dark hair,
That gorgeous smile I put on your face,
And those skinny black jeans with the high waist.

You're all I've ever prayed for,
You're everything I need to get by,
I couldn't wish for a better friend,
And I hope over love will never end.