My bed is not as comfortable as it used to be

I could toss and turn for hours but it still would not feel right

As I lay in this bed I think about the beds I could be laying in

About how much better i would fit in them
And about all the dreams I’m missing out on

But then again, this bed has been here forever

It’s been good to me and did it’s best for me

It’s been here forever
I had finally gotten used to it
But only cleaning the sheets and adding some pillows does not make this bed a good bed

I hope you don't know what I'm talking about.

I did not fell for the boy with the stars in his eyes
Not for the arms that felt like home
Not for his scent that smelled like tomorrow

I fell for a boy who is real
And he fell for me because i was real
He had green eyes
Arms strong enough to protect me
And a scent that i bought for him for his birthday

He was not something that i created in my own mind
He was who he is now
These things made him the way i want to remember him
I don't want to remember him as a poem
I want to remember him as a person

I have been running away from you
Running away into the woods
Where there are trees taller than the house i grew up in
And beams of light that shine brighter than my mothers smile

As I wandered off into the sunset
And hide behind the leaves
All I kept thinking was
'He would have liked it here'

I am so small
Tiny
Fragile
I like to think of myself as a strong person
Determined
And big

But when I am with you I feel like the tiniest move I make
Could turn this world upside down
You make me insecure
I have to reconsider every step i want to take
I just want to be what you want me to be
It's exhausting

Someone once said:
'Your skin is tougher than your soul will ever be.'

It hurts.

I have never wished that there were more minutes in a day
Until i met you

I do not feel empty anymore
But i do not feel whole
You fill me up with love and then leave me wanting more
I have got feelings bigger than my heart
Leaving me restless,
Wondering,
Not sure if i belong

You carved your name into my heart
And i can't get it out

Since I've met him,
i don't have any poetry inside of me
I don't keep it locked up in my head
It flows out of me everytime we kiss
Hold hands
Of when his heart and mine melt into one

This is all i have got to say and i cant even finish this sentence cause my heart and my head are a mess and i have never been this much in love and it is scary and exciting at the same time, i am finally getting over that ******* because i am IN ******* LOVE WITH SOMEONE NEW AND THAT SOMEONE NEW WILL BE MY SOMETHING NEW

**I'm a mess

Hoping for the best
Beginning to fear the worst
Hearing names that sound familiar
But not the same
Never ever the same again

The wave just swept over us
Dragging us to the places we never got to see
Letting us think about everything we ever did
or said
or felt

We feel so little now yet we still are overwhelmed
We never wanted to hear the answers
Cause we knew,
It was not what we wanted to hear