Those vices I dropped like rhinestones
on the starry path to respectability
become diamonds when he whispers "tonight"
when he reaches out to my child weary flesh
-unwillingly- I will respond but.
I cannot shrug off the dishes and bills
the stain on the floor where the cat bled
the un-watered plants;
how many times have I written these lines?
Ah God…even my most poignant moments
have become mundane -
like the Taj Mahal must appear
to the beggar on the steps
selling downloaded pictures
in the shadow of holiness.

More precious than gold,
More precious than pearls
Is our time spent together,

Every smile, every laugh,
Every tears, every trials,
Every joy, every pain,
Every hugs, every story

Every moment we share,
Is unmatched by any other.

your aroma over my nose,
your palms against mine,
Your voice through my ears,

Sensations....
Etched in my heart is your name.

But let not these precious moments enengulf us, for more are yet to come.

Every moment we spend together,
Is more precious than any other.

As I lie on pastures 
Along the grimes of these woods
Breathing in the morning dew
I feel awakened and anew
Past sins washed away like the streaming river
Wondering if I've live till forever.

But then I look up to you. 
Your face looks shiny and 
new. The angels are gathered 
around you with their harps 
and violins. Singing that I’m free 
of my past sins. I think this is 
the beginning of something 
beautiful and not the end. Hand 
me my pallet and set the canvas 
up for I will paint a portrait of us. 
While the winds ruffle through the 
curls of your hair and the leaves of
the big old oak tree. I try to speak 
up words of love but it almost seems 
that the morning dew has set a flood 
from within. Come over dear and rest 
your bones with me while I draw this
portrait using my blood and tears. Oh 
darling won’t you rest your bones over 
here next to me under this big old oak tree.

Your beauty akin to the moon
Forever gleaming in her prowess
Shadows mortify at the thought of you
Your light begets hope thrusting miracles
I've been praying all my life
Stay with me my dear
As these woods as our witnesses 
We vow to be forever rooted from the veins to our beating hearts.
Now come closer dear and dance 
with the ventricles of my heart* ~

95

My nosegays are for Captives—
Dim—expectant eyes,
Fingers denied the plucking,
Patient till Paradise.

To such, if they should whisper
Of morning and the moor,
They bear no other errand,
And I, no other prayer.

It has been a one hell of a time
may these times never end
what a beautiful world
full of joy full of love
we learn we grow we blossom
we laugh we cry we awesome
God has given me this new adventure
Lets make the best of it
Happy new year folks.
May god bless you
help others, help yourselves
Grow.

I run and I run
For the next big rush
I need the excitement
To keep my mind from turning to mush
Running in circles
Getting nowhere
What am I doing?
I have no idea
Nothing is good enough
The thrill doesn't last
Just puts me in debt
I can't even laugh
There's nothing funny about my life
Why can't I be happy with being alive
I need the next vacation
The next shiny thing
It's all external
I spend like a king
Deeper and deeper I go
I want to stop but just don't know
How to fill this hole in me
I'm looking for something that I can't see...*
Love