I dipped my fingers into my sadness
I fell into it
And it swallowed me
It filled my lungs and
Ran up over my lips

It consumed me
It coated me
It seared my skin
Yet froze me in my tracks

It is what keeps me awake
And yet what stirs me to sleep
It pushes thoughts out my head
To only replace them with many more

Don't get lost in heaven
Cause I might not get in
I'll  be the first to acknowledge
That I have sinned
The gates of Eden might rust
And keep me from from what I lust
I'll break all the doors of paradise if I must

I woke up on the wrong side of paradise
Born this way by the design
To gaze into Eden
To never have it as mine.

I woke up to the locked doors
Of a heaven I could only dream of
I hope to destroy it
To hate the thing I once loved.

When you bend something
It will strike back and bend you
This is the relationship
Between society and nature.

One day I hope
To scream  through a hole in the ozone
And hear it hit the empty vacuum of space
To know God isn't there .

I hope to one day
Look at your picture and
see someone I don't know
To find no beauty there.

One day I hope
To look in the mirror
And see my reflection
And not find my father there.

Today I woke up
With a load in my heart
I have carried it for ages
I hope today to let it go.

I have become smoke
I'm here but you'll look through me
I'll fade the same
I'll linger but then I won't leave a trace.

I have become ash
The winds takes me where it will
I'll drift the same
My colors have faded to Gray

I was once fire
Bright was my flame
Forgot who I was
You'll just become disappointed with the remains.

They drank the river dry
And with parched lips
Looked up to the sky
For even more.

They cut all the trees
And with a gasp
Later asked
Where's our beautiful view.

They send prayers and pollution
Into the air
And wonder why
Why acid rain is the only response