Lying
Is easier without eye contact.
In a text message,
You can say anything,
And they'll never know.

Yes, I read your letter,
No, I haven't cut recently,
Yes, I'm taking my meds,
No, I'm not thinking about killing myself.

They like to hear that last one.
No, I'm not thinking about killing myself.
But it's never the truth.
I am always thinking about killing myself.
Not like I'm thinking about going to work tomorrow,
But like I think that I could be a mermaid.
Sure, I'm probably not going to be a mermaid,
But it sounds like a nice escape sometimes, doesn't it?

Crush.
I think I finally understand why they call it that,
Because knowing you,
Is like the biggest, tightest, warmest bear hug,
But like, with an actual bear that could rip my heart from my chest without warning.
But I don’t mind,
Because it is warm
And soft,
And I know that you are not a bear,
You’re much too gentle.
Too good.

I know that you’re too good for me,
But you insist that it’s something you can’t see.
But I’m glad for it.
I’ll take you as long as it takes you.

Mood:
An overdrawn debit card with overdraft protection.
Giving.
Giving more than I have,
After giving all that I had,
And carrying on,
Not because I have to,
But because I love you.

I fall in love with everyone I know,
Head over heels by the second hello.
Because, when you like someone, there are two first impressions:
Hello, nice to meet you,
Get to know you,
Come to love you.
And hello, wow I like you.

It’s all in the hello.
Like,
Hello, I am broken.
I introduce my scars like I introduce myself.
Because you should know what you’re getting into,
Before you commit to hello.

And hello is a trap,
Because for me, my handicap,
Is the limitless love I have for everyone but myself.
It doesn’t take very long,
Once you let me in,
For me to find a way to love you.
For your flaws,
For your secrets,
For all the reasons you hate yourself.
Because I see the beauty in it,
And I see beauty in you.

I’ll give it away,
My love to you.
You can have it,
And me,
Every piece.
Because I don’t want any of it,
But I want it to do good.
So if I can give you even one shred of light,
It will be worth all my darkness.
For I feel everything,
And I fall in love with everyone I know,
Head over heels by the second hello.