I tried. I tried going about my existence the way world wanted me to. I lived my life the way I was told you are supposed to live. I lived for them, by their rules. I wasn't ever smart or intelligent, sharp or funny..
I was never the brightest guy in my school nor the most popular.
I never liked studying, I never liked sitting idle waiting for things to happen either.. things that were placed in somebody else's hands..
to judge me, pass me or fail me.
but I tried. I tried really hard to become all that. and on days when I made it, it felt like I was wrong and they were right.
that they know how to live a life and I don't, that I tried too much..
I stayed awake all night so I could let them have a moment of happiness at my expense. I did all that, I lived all that, and I suffered.
day in and out. I was miserable, more miserable than anyone can ever be.
in my search of their greatness for me, I never made a friend because everything was a competition.
yes, I fell in love. but it wasn't love at all in the end. she was like everybody else, just wanting things. so I left.
and so I'm leaving. I'm leaving you all today. I'm leaving because even though I know you never meant no harm.. you did more harm than you can ever imagine.
I'm leaving because in spite of constantly listening to everybody..
I never learned a thing.
I'm leaving because i can no longer be a part of the world the way it is today.
a world that's not made up of dreams, or the sky. but people put inside boxes. I don't want to live my life in a box, and no amount of money can ever tempt me. no. today I leave.
today I leave, to never come back. for if I don't leave today, I might never. I'm leaving because I'm tired of not telling you how much you **** and I don't. I'm leaving because I now realise what you never told me. it costs nothing to be happy.