If Only
A thousand words I wish to say
But only silence is heard
Feelings to share, a message convey
But I don't say a word
A ton of things I would do
To show how much I care
So much I would give to you
If...I really dared

All the thoughts I think of you
Deeply held within
Concealed completely without a clue
It'll look, as it's always been

If only I could but show
How you make me feel
If you would only know
What I can't reveal
If only you knew the ache I felt
The day you shut me out
The pain and sadness that I dealt
When we walk the parting route
If only you knew the memories it brought
When I saw something you'd like
Everything about you I never forgot
Hidden in my heart so tight
A thousand word "If Onlys" fill my mind
Wishing you felt this way too
A thousand words I would find
To say "If only you knew."

I tore down my walls
I opened my doors
And made room for one more

I was once sad and lonely,
Having nobody to comfort me.
So I wore a mask that always smiled;
To hide my feelings behind a lie.

Before long, I had many friends;
With my mask, I was one of them.
But deep inside, I still felt empty,
Like I was missing a part of me.

Nobody could hear my cries at night,
For I designed my mask to hide the lies.
Nobody could see the pain I was feeling,
For I designed my mask to be laughing.

Behind all the smiles were the tears,
And behind all the comfort were the fears.
Everything you think you see,
Wasn't everything there was to me.

I thought I had to keep searching,
For the thing that'll stop my crying.
For Someone who'll erase my fears,
For the Person who'll wipe my tears.

But now I'm truly smiling,
I have long ago cast off the mask I'm wearing.
For I found the One that my heart was seeking,
And He gave me joy unceasing. ♥︎

When I first met you,
I thought you were the one.
And when you met me,
You showered me with love.
I thought about you,
Every single day.
And when you talked to me,
I didn't know what to say.
You said you liked me,
But you seemed so far away.
I didn't know love was so complicated,
I was so fooled by your empty praises.
And though you left me broken,
I don't want my words to be unspoken:
I wish you the best in life,
Though all you told me were your lies.
I want you to be happy,
Though we are now apart.
I hope that you grow to be a gentleman;
I mean it from the bottom of my hurting heart.