Born after months of waiting
Gone in a hurry to be God's Angel
Born so parents can be blessed
Gone so heaven can rejoice

Baby Stella gave much
Without giving
Baby Stella said much
Without saying

Baby Stella came to tell you
That you are special
Your love tested and won;
You gave hope and strength to many

May you in your solitude
Be the most peaceful
With an Angel by the side
Thank you Sherly
Thank you...

Darkness feels
From ear to ear
Cold and warm
Soft and numb
Flying freely into space
What have I become?

Stars pass through my eyes
And light exits through my brain
Time stands still in my ear
Tasting all the drops of rain
The world is upon me once again

And what are hearts?
Not meant to break
And what is love?
Not meant to take
Will someone please, walk me down this way?

The never-ending corridor
White walls
With infinite doors
No ceiling
And no floors

Walk with me, hand in mine
And show me where I can find time
My hand on the ****
Turn it for me and open wide
With your lonely key
You’ve kept inside

What a world behind this door
Hell or paradise
I’m not sure
Depression in expressive waves
Dimly lit and Fading away
Invoking all emotion
The motions law that you made
Gravity is something gray
My heart slows to a shallow beat
I pull the ground from my feet
And I find that no one is here but me

Love is a world far away
Passion exists only today
Chemical seduction
My body’s abduction
A natural imbalanced high
Give me my drug
And **** the pain
Straight from to vein
And to the brain
Addiction bleeds from the heart
Spilling out across the sea
The door opens from behind
And once again, I know me

Darkness feels warm and home
Alone in space again I go
Microcosm in my mind
The heart dies with the fading stars
The mind goes with each passing day
Alone to float across
An empty shell that once
One day maybe something more
Till you come out
And push me through the door

Her first name did not fit
she wore cloddy shoes &
knees & elbows were

dead skin & lived
above a bar with
a pockmarked

brother & invisible mother,
she ate cardboard, chalk,
paper & paste;

Glory was her name.

you sent me a letter
last july
before you proposed.
i cannot forget
the words you wrote.
i’m happy, she’s great.
but there it was
between the lines on the page,
the ink had bled, a smear…
i think you shed a tear…
the longer i read,
the more it became clear.
i did not reply.
the pain gripped my chest.
for weeks, i could not rest.
i think i’ll ask her to marry.
why the hell would you say that to me…
if you had not hoped i would stop you?
i realized much too late.
you were married this may.

I saw you; I swear I saw you.
You and your divine attitude .

I could tell you were living in a beautiful life.
You loved your wife, as a man, working hard and trying to provide.

As I was watching you running miles, I couldn’t stop imagining how I could make you shy.

Firstly, I would invite you to a room where you wouldn't see the sunlight.

Then, you would be tied.

“Oh, I see red, Are you shy?”
I smiled and said: “Sorry, my darling, I have to apologise.”

It was only your blood that covered my eyes

The tango was still going, and I started to wonder why
Why you ended up crying, shouting and dying

Was it your holy innocence?

Thinking hurts, worse than the cuts on your flesh.

Let’s just both wave and say goodbye.

“Bye, dear stranger.”
You were sleeping like an angel
“fine, I would help you.”

“Bye world, bye.”

they creep in slowly
when i least expect it
in school during math
at home when I'm watching a video
in the bus as i stare out of the window
crawl in on all fours
they know what they want
they take it
they leave me empty
the won't leave me alone
not even when i am broken
and crying
and i have nothing left to give
they still find something to take
my mind is an endless hum of suicidal thoughts
whispers
and so i talk louder and
laugh harder and
try to drown them out and
it never works because they are still there
friends look at me with concern
it's just the stress i tell them, exams and deadlines
they buy it
excellent
so everyday i am free
to go home to
suicidal thoughts and chill