Woke up with usual daily routine
Terribly wanting for a change
Moody, and makes everyone go mad
Still not satisfied, maybe wants getting wider
And finally the most awaited day arrived
The change! But is this the change i wanted?
I think better was the days before

When you see the closest person avoid you
When they are the only one you pursue
There you'll have the pain in heart and soul too
The confused state and don't know what to do
But still you have got those little hope
They still think that is a kind of dope
Without knowing it is the worst *****
And you'll make it better 'cause your the rope

It's a teleological fantasy
This is getting out of hand
To love sweet Dis
Was all I could think

With purpose draining out of me
With purpled eyes that barely see.

Ah, purple! The color of royalty!
This fair spring air is choking me.

Each bead of magic,
Faetal symphony!
I lost this poem
Unto the sea

And you and I were just a dream
I'm self-defined,
Eternal reach.

Walking, talking, eating,
One lover only baking,
hum waking- up
Is anyone good
at loving?
Always
giving
metals
The modern
love robot

((ATM))  
machine
There is
no
place
Oh! Yes
Lend me all
lovers
at my home

The ((OZ)) fame
Artsy Auntie
(EM) so lame

Listening to
(REM)
Headrush
Makeup
blush also
*** in-between
My break up
My lunch hour
All over again
throwing
cash
way off the street
look out I almost
crashed_

That Casanova
racer
slim
reducer

My
((ATM))
Sexter machine
Pixstar diet
Laughing to
the bank

You are
better
But in the
least seeing
Her for what
she is
The beauty
she is making
up the beast
He is the
Eight personalities
Burnt money
Miss French fries
Baby blue eyes cry
My cash went dry
Henry the eighth

The love affair in
September Goth
Just recently shot
Lord of the rings
Be sure you don't get
the blues
She-devil jeweler
Saphire I
got rushed
She fires out!!
She Forgets **
The finest
champagne
candles

On the tenth
Cash reminder rush
I cannot recall
how I
got here?

I will be back
for the cash!!
That gave her
Total recall

Over there
someone
left more
cash
Someone
overloaded trash
What cash potential
her  best clothes

He looked like
moon dancer
Jacksons five
black glove
Casanova the
best climate
For Cash
Australian mate
Jumping
Jack Flash
You cant always
get what
you want
But if you try
sometimes
You might get
what you need
Don't rush
your life away

With that
Casanova
Don't rush your
stars of
the Nova Scotia

It's OK
It's alright
Just calm down
Everything is fine
Alright?
You're alright
You're OK
Just relax
Relax and breathe
OK?
It's OK
It's alright
Just calm down
Everything is fine
It's going to be alright
OK?
I've got you
Alright?
I've got you
You are always safe with me
Just breathe
Just breathe
Alright
Alright

Alright.

I honestly feel better now
After I got those words all out
They look so harsh and broken but
I got them all out of my heart

I read them and it makes me sad
But now it feels like empathy
As if someone else wrote those words
And they did not come out of me

One day I'll probably go back
Delete the words I wrote today
For now I am just glad they're out
I think I'm gonna be OK

But now when others read these poems
They will feel sad just like me
I don't know how I feel about
This other side of empathy