Anshula Nema

Anshula Nema Oct 2015

Today letting go was not easy,
There was the moment,
When I actually didn't wanted to go,
I didn't know what were you thinking,
But all I knew was I just can't let you go this early,
Today for once you spoke something more than a few words,
Today you made my face glow a bit more,
I might just be your friend,
But for me you are a bit more than that,
I know this is completely insane,
But yes that is what I feel for you.
I might say it doesn't hurt,
But yes it did hurt when I saw you go,
I remember the constant turns I made to see you go,
I remember that you just stood there just to see me go,
And there was you, coming through the parking lot,ordering me to go,
And I stood there on the stairs,smiling,
We didn't say a word,
But we could feel what the other wanted to say,
And then it was time for a good bye till next morning,
We somehow managed to say it,
But I over there wanted that moment to stay,
It soon ended with a smile on my face,
But unfortunately you weren't there to see me at that state.

Sometimes you don't need words to explain things, sometimes it's just the silence which plays the part.

#love #romance #teenage #timewellspent

Anshula Nema Oct 2015

I'm gonna be the Girl..

Sometimes you feel alone in a place which is crowded,
It's like you want to breath but you can't.
It's like you wanna cry and scream and yell and tell everyone,
I know you have got lots and lots and lots of people out there for you,
That they care for you, they pray for you!
For once can you please be that person for me?
I have seen heart breaks and smiles,
Seen people fall and rise!
What is it that makes me so different?
For I could stand high and still go on,
With the heavy heart and tears in my eyes.
Years are gonna pass,
I'm gonna grow more stronger.
So that when you look at me,
You won't be able to recognize me.
For I would have been changed to core,
And you would still stand and stare.
I'm sure I won't be regretting things,
Because I would have learnt to go on and survive.
You gonna watch me turn,
Slow and steady.
So people, are you gonna be that one person for me for a while?
I wish to share lots,
But you have bounded me to not.
I wish you gonna understand soon,
That the girl you left behind is the one who always thought of your good.
I'm gonna be the girl you would regret letting go,
I'm gonna be the girl you would remember all you life time,
I'm gonna be the girl you would have a reason to smile,
I'm gonna be the girl you would choose for a life,
And yes I'm gonna be me,
For you to show my best side.!

Anshula Nema Sep 2015

Someday You'll Understand

When all of a sudden,
A person makes you feel so comfortable,
That you start and end your day with them.
You have got no idea about what's going on and you end up being more than best friends.
There is this relationship,
Which is more of understanding,
More of emotions,
He knows what I want without me saying it.
The very eye contact we almost everyday avoid so that non of us could see that we adore them.
The silence is more than enough to say words.
I know you are a bit more sensitive than I'm,
I know you are a bit more hurt than I'm,
But trust me ,
I would love to heal all your pains,
I would love to spend my life with you.
But the fact is contradicting.
I know you respect me,
I know you adore me,
But at the same time you think I'm far too perfect to be with.
Which at some point hurts me.
But still there is some hope,
That one day you'll understand the love I carry in my heart for you.
I may not say things,
But I care,
I may not show,
But I feel.
This relationship is way ahead of what is called a "relationship".
It does not needs any words, any explanations.
All it needs is time,
Time which we spend together,
Emotions, emotions which are buried deep inside.
And the love , love which is in our hearts, unconditional.
And so there I'm with some hope inside, that someday you'll understand.

#somedayyou'llunderstand

#love #broken #heart #understand #someday

Anshula Nema Sep 2015

I Wish.!

I wish I could have been a bit more selfish than I'm now, so that I could live the life my way,
I wish I had a little more courage than I have now, to face the people who come in my way everyday,
I wish I could have told people what it felt like when I was with them, so that they could have stayed a bit longer with me,
I wish people had not taken me for granted, so that I couldn't have shown the awful side of me,
I wish we talk like before, so that I could still share those secrets with you,
I wish life would have been more beautiful than now, if I had you by me.

#wish

Anshula Nema Sep 2015

Whenever I look through your eyes..

Whenever I look through your eyes,
I see a new world,
The world where there is joy,
The world where there is love.

Whenever I look through your eyes,
I see a spark,
A spark which makes my face glow a bit more,
A spark which lights the world.

Whenever I see through your eyes,
Your eyes say a million things,
Your eyes hold the faith in me,
Your eyes search for the answers,
Your eyes make me stay for a while,
Your eyes bind me to you,
For me this very time is our time,
The time in which the world is still,
Lips are shut,
Heart beats a little faster,
And eyes say more than words.
The stillness has lots and lots of emotions,
These emotions are only understood by us,
These emotions have a meaning,
They have a saying,
They are there to hold us.
Holding on to you might be a bit tough,
But the way you make me stay,
Will keep me going.
I want to go places where it is only us,
So that for once you would be able to see me,
See me in the way I'm,
So that I could see the reflection of mine in your eyes.

Reflection of true me could only be seen when you stay with me for a while.. When I would behave like a kid of four and still smile.
Be who you are.. Cuz you are you.. And no one can be the same as you.!

#heart #eyes #reflection #togetherness

Anshula Nema Sep 2015

They say..

They say I look beautiful, well that is not completely true.
They say I'm sweet, but they haven't seen the other side of me.
They say I'm the buddy to hangout with, but they haven't looked deep inside my eyes which still search the presence.
They say I fit their group, but somewhere I feel lonesome and cry.
They hesitate to say what they feel like , I wish they had known me a bit more.
They say we are lucky to have you, I wish they knew that I was the one who was lucky to have them.

In this big world people will judge you, somewhere they haven't known you that well. Let go all the things which others say and live. Be the one who you are and let the world stare.

No matter what happens, believe in yourself because the ones who judge you know your name, not the story behind it.

#believe

Anshula Nema Sep 2015

This is Me.!

I wish letting you go was easy,
But for now that's like the most hardest thing for me,
I wish I could ignore you at times,
But that seems impossible for me to do,
I wish I could know what all you thought,
So that I could spare some of my time with you,
For today to be mine worse day with you,
From screaming to crying, I had done it all,
For me to spend the afternoon was a big deal,
For me to not think about what happened was hurting,
For me to forget what had happened was not so easy.
This time I'm shaken from inside,
I ain't as strong as I look from outside.
I'm weaker than you could think about me.
I act like your words don't hurt,
But the heart knows very single silence is like a scar on this heart.
For you, you may see only the side which is strong,
The side in which I laugh like I don't care.
The side in which I smile.
The side in which I'm a bit emotional.
The side in which I say silly things.
The side in which I make mistakes.
But the other side is completely different,
This side has fears,
It is weaker,
It cries every time it is hurt,
It has pain,
It has seen worse.
But this is me, which shows you something which you are happy to see.

#love #broken #heart #truestory