How do I keep myself from falling apart when I’m a bit astounded by the beating of the broken pieces I call my heart? Or keep a smile on my face while I’m going through this excruciating pain? And what if I fail? And all my dreams are shattered and my nightmares win the game The thoughts of taking a razor blade And cutting myself to fulfil my rage The thoughts of taking myself to a happier place .. I have dreams of myself holding a knife at night And stabbing a girl till I took away her life I would expect screams of terror and of fear but instead she was silent There wasn’t even the slightest show of scuffle or violence When she died I came closer to the blurred image of her face And she whispered in my ear with no fear but grace “Thank you for letting me out of this place of abhorrence ” As her heart beat began to drown away I fell to the floor and my heart started doing the same Her face got a bit clearer but the image turned grey And with curiosity I tried to focus my gaze As I took my last breath I saw her
I used wake up in fear that the end is near But this time I woke up and understood this.. The only thing that was killing me .. Was me
this is the first poem I ever wrote like 5 years ago :)
In the arms of Morpheus I lay down, all my worry finally at bay Til the earth shakes and I find my self on the floor besides my bed The world bringing me to my knees So I have nothing else to do But pray.
If I don't make it to heaven Will you stand by the gate Will you call out my name Will my sins be our burden? Will you argue my case Or would you try to erase, who I am? who we were? Enjoy what you've been given? You do deserve all that is heaven Or will you build a ladder Come sit with me here So we could burn together
Go ahead Run Look for her Search far and wide. Through jungles through seas, skies if you must... and when you're tired and aching, I'll kiss all your bruises, dress all your wounds and pat you on the back for trying to find even a little bit of me, in someone else