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Is that my name up on that list?
Does someone know that I exist?
Is this a mistake?
Am I even awake?
Pinch me now to make sure...
Ow!
Is my name in black and white?
Maybe I'm doing something right
Wow! I feel so much better than before.
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Rolling hills sigh.
No, I will not stay for them, I tell myself.
Yet I leave the container that grapples me.
I climb their sorrows. I climb their suffering.
No, I will not stay for them, I cry as I I cling to them.
Animals chitter with laughter as they scuttle by.
Who told you to grow into the trees that grip your ground?
Who told you that people were allowed to make you slowly destroy yourself?
Why did you let people build on you so they slowly demolished you?
*Why?

The singing flowers
The dancing rain that patters
On the roof above.

Looking down, I sigh.
Looking up, I smile.
Happily I climb
The mountain of
Separation.

I reach your side.
I hold your hand
I smile at you.
Finally,
We are
One.

The magical feeling that
Swarms me,
Executes my Sadness
And brings forth
The feeling
Of
Solitude.

We banished the mountain
Sure, we harmed a few
Wrecking *****.
But,
To see your green eyes again,
It was
Worth It.

I let the
Love into my heart.
It made me grow
It made me light up.
That stupid Mountain of Separation
Is utterly destroyed
Into
Pieces of imagination.

I don't know why
I just feel I'm better off
Staying in the same room I was born in
I look outside
And see a whole world better off
Without me in it trying to transform it

You are out of my mind,
You aren't seeing my side,
You waste all this time trying to get to me
But you are out of my mind

Listen, I know
This one's a contradiction because of how happy it sounds
But the lyrics are so down
It's okay though
Because it represents, wait, better yet it is
Who I feel I am right now

You are out of my mind, ooh
You aren't seeing my side, ooh
You waste all of this time trying to get to me
But you are out of my mind

Heard you say
Not today
Tore the curtains down
Windows open, now make a sound
Heard your voice
There's no choice
Tore the curtains down
Windows open, now make a noise

Oh, don't you test me, no
Just because I play the piano
Doesn't mean not
I'm not willing to take you down
I'm sorry

I'm, I'm out of my mind,
I'm, I'm not seeing things right,
I waste all this time trying to run from you
But I'm, I'm out of my mind

Heard you say
Not today
Tore the curtains down
Windows open, now make a sound
Heard your voice
There's no choice
Tore the curtains down
Windows open, now make a noise

You are out of my mind
You aren't seeing my side
You waste all of this time trying to get to me
But you are out of my mind

Heard you say
Not today
Tore the curtains down
Windows open, now make a sound
Heard your voice
There's no choice
Tore the curtains down
Windows open, now make a noise.

a Rhythm is what I dream of.
One that can flow
So I used (parentheses) to make people think that I have a rhythm.
Or italics, or bold words.
Maybe commas, or periods.
Or something among the lines.
What I'm really doing is
Finding a Rhythm.

I play with the fonts, with the size, with the writing.
It doesn't really help.
But, if I cause enough damage to the original text,
I forget what's happening outside of the screen.
I guess I want a Rhythm.

Finally, I found a Rhythm.

bleh.
its worth it
but
i cant seem to wrap my head around the fact
bleh.

The people are running by me
I eye them with distaste
While the sky smiles upon them
Leaving me in the dark

"Come quick!" The clouds shout to me.
"I'll stay in the dark." I say to them.

I leave the sun to its people, and enter the shadows once again.

In the colour that I hope
I believe deeply that they will come to life
And dance around the children
Helping them bloom into themselves
Letting them see as I stare in awe


The rough shades of gray and black
Get chased away by the light
I smile in happiness and join the children that are playing
But they stopped the jump roping, the smiling, the laughter.
I sighed and turned away, but the light chased after me.
I ran away, but they still followed.

*So now I'm on a forever run.

the single idea of that perfect moment that holds that perfect person
that prosperity of the idea
where i am no longer alive, no longer dead.
the single idea of that perfect place, of the perfect me, of the perfect outfit.
how about this, world?
**That idea? It's a ******* lie.

i remember a few months back
i was lost.
i was betrayed.
i wanted to die.
i guess its the feeling of life
that keeps my chest rising and falling
that single feeling of possibility.

i remember when i wanted to die.
my sister uttered a single sentence
that changed my course.

life is hell. it's ruthless and cruel, but death is ten times harder.

did i guess
where the hell i can find a **** good soul
or something among the lines of that
or did god magically send one to me
or was it a blessing in disguise
i guess that it could be either
so go away and call me a ****** loser
or a dud or a drag because, yes.
i believe in blessings.

in the decision
of life or death
i don't know what to pick
so how about this
**** the person who asked

I scream UGH

What seems to be the matter? Someone asks me.

I turn. Nothing is right! I point to the tables, the chairs, the candles.

But they're just how you ordered them.. The person stammerers.

They're out of order! I scream. The person stares at me.


So am I crazy? Or were they out of order?

I smoked the plants
I cut down the trees
Letting life pour through me

Closing my eyes
dropping to the dirt

A owl
it sang a sound

I knew this sound.
i got up, dripping in the sound's voice

See, there?
the owl sits, waiting to let out the song
that saved us.

Did it?
May I ask?
Oh, the questions I have.

The shadows faded into corners,
as I pulled the light
towards me.

I hoped, pulling up my scared lip
They didn't notice the hope and light
Supporting me gently

I'm not drowning anymore.
*I'm treading.

The thickness of it all
Chocked her.

They asked, How long?
She turned. Indefinitely.
So, her dreams faded to ash.

The smoke grappled for control
As it crawled through her lungs
She fought softly
The smoke retreated
Alone into the darkness of it all

**A unfair fight, so I am guessing.