I don't know what you said but it sounded important.

I feel that I love you.
Carelessly, selfishly, incautiously.
I don't need walls to protect me.
I'm armored down to my soul.
I'm so wrapped up in you.
And I still feel whole.
At the same time,
I feel that if I lost you,
I wouldn't feel lost.
If you could never love me,
I wouldn't even feel loss.
I can live without you
Though, i'd rather not.
I feel that i'm me when i'm with you.
Yet, I don't even know who I am.
I want to find myself with you.
But I don't need you to hold my hand.
The thought of loving isn't scary
when it involves you.
I'd like to think that i'm ready
even if i'm not quite sure what to do.
Maybe it's because I'm not scared
of what you'd do to me
or if I see myself in you like a mirror.
Perhaps it's because loving you feels sure; right now, right here.

I'm ready to come home again.
Please let me in.

The hour changed today.
I'm thinking of how time's changed in memory.
The person you knew last January is not the same person who’s writing this.
The person I knew last January is not the same person i’m writing this about.
I won't hold it against you that you don't feel the same way anymore.
I lost my patience.
You told me you hope I don't regret my decision.
Only to change my mind.
My sorry wasn't enough to rewind.
Time had passed.
It's been enough.
Nothing can last.
I'm running out of time.
I'm still not patient.
Though, all this time,
you're still the only one on my mind.

But just maybe by then i’ll be north and you’ll be south
just how we’ve always been on different paths
but somehow ended up at the same place again and again.
Meet me in Amsterdam.
When you’ve toured every major city
and I’ve seen enough landscapes.
Would you spare a week from all of this and escape?
Just to feel like we’re sixteen again
when we planned that we’ll do this one day.
We said we’d live.
I know you said a lot of things.
Yeah, so the future didn’t turn out the way we hoped,
but i’m hopeful that one day you will
Meet me in Amsterdam.
Where we’ll experience night, day, and beautiful weather.
See and do all kinds of things together.
Where we could pretend we’re in another universe
Where we ended up happily ever.
Where I could finally say goodbye to you forever.
Maybe when we leave, I’ll go north and you’ll go south.
Or maybe we’ll somehow end up at the same place.

I just want to die

With or without you by my side.

I’m tired of running away

And I've ran out of places to hide.

So from here on out,

I accept that I am invisible.

I no longer have anything to say.

If you happen to feel my presence,

It’s just that i’m thinking of you.

Don’t bother about my existence.

I’m a blurry image a part of your memory.