Expressing myself on paper is what I do best
I feel you’ve silenced me
You stolen my voice
Tucked away in your selfish ways
You liked it better when I was always quiet
You always talk over me
My words always had to compete with yours
Your words get louder and louder
my words turned into whispers
My feelings you ignored
Overlooked and unheard
You push them aside
Left on the curb like yesterday’s trash
Is this how you think a friendship works?
You never heard a word I said
You ignored every whisper
Now all that’s left is silence
I’m tired of whispering to make you feel better
You say I was pushy
I call it giving you a better direction
You say you’re  miserable but you do nothing to solve it
I gave you a map
Wrote down the directions
Handed you a compass to find your way
But you like where you are
It doesn’t matter what you say

I’ve found a new love
A love to carry on
A love that will never leave me
A love in its purest form
A love sweeter than anything you’ve tasted
Sweeter than candy given to a baby for the first time
My eyes light up in wonder
Pupils dilate with excitement
My mind journeys far and wide
Searching and seeking for the perfect words to write
My body is waiting in anticipation to hear the scribble of the pen on ****** paper
The same feeling as any solider feels when waiting to attack
The same intense emotions
feeling every one build up until it explodes
All my senses and all my emotions
Explodes like grenades in war
Shrapnel piercing paper like bodies
Silence follows
I read every word
Uncovering the mystery of what I just wrote
Reading how my own mind skips around
Shining light onto the darkness
Loving the beauty in every word
My mind doesn’t always make sense
I love seeing how my mind works on ****** paper

I’m a flight risk
You can consider me a villain
Locked up in a cage
Surrounded by guards
Video surveillance to capture every movement
I’ll stay with my cage because I’m content
But don’t get too comfortable
I can vanish at any given chance
Im a escape artist
A vanishing magician, if you will
I could be in front of you
Pulling tricks from my hat
I’ll make you smile and you’ll enjoy every second
But if you take your eyes off me
For even a second
With a wave of my wand
I’m gone the next second
I’ll leave no trails to follow
No clues to find
Good luck finding me
You can ask Sherlock Holmes to give it a try
My disappearing act is the greatest of all time
Welcome to my show
I won’t disappoint you
My disappearing act will definitely confuse you
I’m am the leader of my circus
My next act will be the greatest
With smoke screens of all pretty colors
It will leave you in awe
Are you ready for it?
Just say the magic words
Abracadabra
....

I don’t give a **** about my reputation
Everyones hates me without any hesitation
A girl can handle so much, so why should I care anymore
I don’t give a **** about my bad reputation
Oh no
Not me
I DONT A GIVE A **** ABOUT MY BAD REPUTATION
I MIGHT AS WELL STEAL ALL YOUR BOYFRIENDS
THATS THE LABEL THAT YOU GAVE ME
I MIGHT AS WELL LIVE UP TO
ALL YOUR EXPECTATIONS
I DONT A GIVE A **** ABOUT MY BAD REPUTATION
I smiled like the sun, kisses for everyone
And tales, it never fails
because real story won’t do the trick, youre gonna make up something quick
YOURE GONNA BURN BURN BURN BURN burn to the wick.
You made me the barra barracuuuda
Yeah
I’m a heartbreaker
Dream taker
Love taker
Love don’t you mess around me
Don’t you forget
All of you created me
I’m the right kind of sinner
To take him under and unleash my inner fantasy
I’m the invincible winner
That I was born to be
I’m a heartbreaker
Dream breaker
Love breaker
Don’t you mess around with me

Dear diary,
I spoke of what happened the other day.
I told a friend of mine that I think I was *****
Oh my gawd diary!
You’ll never guess what happens next!
She went and told our entire class!
But wait diary before you judge me too
Just be patient and please let me continue
I was approached today by at least 5 girls who I used to call my friends
They called me all kinds of names
Then they cornered me into the bathroom
Then started to beat my ***
It didn’t last very long diary
I think I’m alright
I think it’s safe to say that was going to be the only time
You know diary
I don’t know why she didn’t tell the whole story
But I think she feels guilty
I hope everyone forgets about this
I would hate to be targeted my entire time in high school
I would hate to have to switch classrooms because those girls won’t leave me alone
I would hate to have threats on my life every day at school
I would hate to feel like I didn’t deserve any better
Don’t worry diary she’s supposed to be my friend
I don’t think she would ever abandoned me after all the mess she’s made
I sure tomorrow diary everything would be okay