I don't get it
She's so great
And you
Deserve better

You will feel the space
between sounds,
between your fingers
and your faces,

it will hurt your ears
to communicate
any desire to touch,
to see, to hear,

and when you taste
their absense,
it will become far too easy
to long for their perfume
on your pillows.

i feel
empty
like the glass spilled
with nothing inside
the mess that needs cleaning
but not a piece out of place to even show it
so many pieces
but none of them fit quite right
feeling...incomplete
the skeleton without the backbone
under the bed
already out from the closet

Anxious
you say to me
in all honesty i'm sure
there is no reason to worry
but you haven't been searching
your whole life for a reason to run

I mean,
It's not
like I'm
falling
for you
on purpose.

Part of me wants to be in love
So badly
But the rest of me
Knows I shouldn't do
That

I can't
Right now
all around me
People are twisted up into other people
Everyone's in love
With someone else
And that just isn't me

I will not give you flowers

I can't do that
I don't know how

but I will give you loyalty

I'm young
And I have time
And I can be alone for a while

I need to be alone for a while
I'm existing by myself
And I've learned to enjoy my own company
So get those false promises away from me

For now.

spinning faster
and I look for you
does she question
my motive for leaving?

the roads
hold a home
for us, somewhere
hundreds of miles away;

somewhere safe
from ignorance,
somewhere
beautiful and cold.