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Apr 29 · 114
Hotels
Jessica Head Apr 29
Living in all these hotels sincen 2023 Christmas eve
Makes me hate men.
Like seriously men **** their children & sometimes I hear women getting beat up. Like ***.
This one time I was was tweaking real bad but I know this was foreal this guy on the floor above our room. He beat up his gf and ***** that kid infront of her. And. Like it happened every day. That kid was crying and when room service came by he ******* that child kept he/she fukkn quiet in the bathroom.
What the **** is wrong with sick men.
I know I tweak alot but I kno it's for real **** that's going on.
Most of the time I am on one and tweaking, chilling in the bathroom all fukn night most times half the time. I hardly get outside. I'm always with myself N MY babies. I look out for my children alot. And have cameras almost in every corner in my bedrooms everywhere I went to make sure they don't open the doors and don't get touched.
*** I LOSE MY MARBLES
Some days when **** gets to me.
Sep 2023 · 210
Followers
Jessica Head Sep 2023
May I get more FOLLOWERS. Please,
I've been on this poetry club
Forever.
And I only got 99 of them.
That's a laugh!!!!
Sep 2021 · 152
Almost a hundred followers.
Sep 2021 · 186
You're so ungrateful.
Jessica Head Sep 2021
You are selfish
Don't be expecting to get my babies from me.
You accused me for years.
Yet you still act so innocent.
Grown *** man
Can't be an adult
Has to put everything on reverse
Put every little lie on me.
I'm pretty sure every one knows you
And you do that to me.
Everyone knows you.
I don't have to tell anyone
Cause they already know
You lied to my face.
When i seen you cheating.
You come back inside throwing me around.
Almost beating me up.
Cause I caught you.
You still denied the two little boys we have together.
You keep saying
"They're not mine".
So 6 or 7 years going on with this pretend life you wanted.
Babies you say that aren't yours.
I think I'm done here.
He knows I'm pregnant with my 4th. His 3rd biological baby with me.
And he still says it's not his.
So i think I'm done.
Me and my little ones are going to go hide in a shelter somewhere.
You don't deserve us.
Wheres your fukking *****.
I'm sorry i bothered having your babies.
Or whoever babies you think these are.
Lol.
Only I know.
I'm too honest
I'm too loyal.
No man is going to tie me down.
Or put me 6 feet under.
After this pregnancy
I'm tieing the notts.
No more babies for me.
Because there father doesn't have *****.
All he wants is baby making ***.
He can't even admit these are his babies he has with me.
But whatever.
Go live a lie by yourself.
May 2021 · 149
9 years
Jessica Head May 2021
10 years to be exact
I've been on this on website.
That's a long time.
I thought I would've been famous by now
*****
I'm not all that good at poetry.
Or writing.
May 2021 · 137
Sometimes.!
Jessica Head May 2021
Hey
Tonight, I almost got a beating.
Tonight, I got threatened for my unborn baby to get murdered.
The ******* father doesn’t believe me.
I know for sure I have not cheated on him.
I know for sure this unborn is his.
Sometimes I wonder what it’ll be like if I just left.
I really would hate to leave my children in the hands of untrustworthy, filthy people!
I am thinking if I should cut myself off.
Off on having anymore little ones.
Apr 2021 · 234
G L D
Jessica Head Apr 2021
Talk to me here
Apr 2021 · 309
Missing Person Case
Jessica Head Apr 2021
This year.  I might just go missing.
If anyone knows me.
My boyfriend most likely taken my life away.
Going onto out sixth year together.  And it's getting more violent.
Mar 2021 · 163
I Still Visit You HP
Jessica Head Mar 2021
Don't think I haven't forgotten about you GLD & DHH.
I still love you.
Mar 2020 · 99
Confused
Jessica Head Mar 2020
I feel sad today
Only one person makes me happy
While the others are not here anymore
I want to leave
Smoking cigarettes aren't helping
Makes me sick when I'm almost done.
I'm craving the other drug
Yes, I have a drug addiction.
I want to cry
I want money for the drug
But then again
I want to do better
Everything is a mess.
Having children
Boyfriend problems
Drug addictions
It's all a mess.
I'm left to be a single mother.
Sometimes I wished I went for that abortion
In 2015.
I didn't plan on dragging my children with me.
Down this **** path
I never speak of happiness
I don't even like talking about my relationship
With my partner
That was a problem
I wasn't happy in it.
I'm sorry.
We have a child together
I thought I was happy
But I'm happy you left me this child
He makes me happy right now.
I feel like I gave up on raising my first child.
I feel like they stole him from me.
I would like to have my children to myself
Raise them my way.
I would like to leave.
Move away
To where my dad is.
I hurt alot.
I could see my son is getting lonesome for his dad.
He stays really close to me
In this ****** room.
I'm going downhill
The drugs
****
I hate the drugs.
Mar 2020 · 241
This Makes Me Happy.
Jessica Head Mar 2020
Reading All My Stuff On Hellopoetry Makes Me Happy
Man I Miss This H.P
Having Time To Myself Reading.
Smiling At My Crazy Self From The Past.
Of How Crazy I Was Over Him
Gabriel
Fukk I Miss That Guy.
I Got Now Two Crazy Lil Men Now I Love Them Lots.
Rest In Peace Donald Herman Head.
Jan 2017 · 412
Fukk I Miss You
Jessica Head Jan 2017
I Can't Stop Thinking Of You
What Happened?
To Us?
Was It You?
Was It Me?

I Miss You
Hurt
I Feel You.
Where Are You?
I Just Don't Know.
Oct 2016 · 621
Days
Jessica Head Oct 2016
Time is going by so fast
     **** I don't even know anymore
My heart rushes
        I wait everyday
  Really don't know what I'm waiting for
I've been thinking
  What it could've been.

I love my son I am raising on my own
     Lots of people loves him
...

He makes my days fly by.
I enjoy every moment I have with him.
Jimmy Head
Aug 2016 · 768
I'm sorry
Jessica Head Aug 2016
I wanted to come with
I wanted what all you have said
I wanted that love again
I wanted it all back what we had
I wanted you back
I wanted the real me back also
I want to live with you
I want to get off this place
This cursed place

What's stopping me
My heart aches
Its torn into tons of pieces
I really hurt
Saddening hurt
I wanted to see you

How long does distance becomes a chore.
**** I wish I knew why myself
Why am I scared to go to you
Why am I afraid to hurt someone else that have already hurted me mentally and physically and spiritually.
Its not what I really meant to stand you up.
Your gone
Would I have to wait another year to try get to see you again
Will I come to you
I didn't even get to see you two days is not long enough.
Two years is too long
We got this bond that will not go away
I feel it
Its real
Since the beginning.

I will come to you
I will do something about why I feel the way I feel
Why I am torn
Why I'm hurt
Why I didn't do what I wanted to do

I'm sorry but I will make my way to you.
When the time is right.
If Only You Can See Thissssss.
Jul 2016 · 3.9k
I miss the old days
Jessica Head Jul 2016
I miss the old days of how it use to be
You and I will go all over the place
Day or night
Anytime
Any day
Just to be with eachother
Laugh
Tease eachother
Yes, you were my beautiful side of me
Where I felt so happy
And I still do feel that feeling
With every thought of you
Makes me feel happy and special
All I can say I wish and pray for those times to come back
I loved you
Still do
My heart aches
But now I got a new love I made him myself
My son
My love
But you were my first love
In which I still crave for
I miss you so bad
But least I still got these happy feelings and memories to look back on
Maybe one day
We will come across eachother
I also believe I was the only one you fell in love with too
Actual love
Not the kind your living
Cause I know how you are too
No one will ever treat me the way you did
You treated me better than anyone else
And it's hard to move on
I miss you.
G.L.D
Jun 2016 · 333
Untitled
Jessica Head Jun 2016
I loved you once
You left
I don't  think I can love you again
You left a couple of furtures behind
Decided on leaving long ago
I didn't  realize it will be this hard
Now that you're gone
I'm lost
With my own
To look forward to
We will have to try and get somewhere in life.
Just to see happiness again
God, help me.
Creator is my God
Forgive me and guide me once again
I had it all
Alcohol ruined this plan we had
Didn't even get to see this little guy.
Couple more weeks and I will be happy.
In which there is no father for my unborn child
I'm not afraid, or scared
I know I got this.
K.B
Jun 2016 · 363
Can't say what or who.
Jessica Head Jun 2016
My first love will always be true
My first love will love me and accept me for my wrong doings.
My lover now will be insecure, mean, tollarate, cruel.
My baby will love me back no matter what goes on least I got him
My first love taught me how forgive and how to treat eachother
When loving and caring.
Choose whats best for the both of us.
Feb 2016 · 373
Entering A New Life
Jessica Head Feb 2016
I have decided to take a new path in my life
I will be having my first child
20 years old isn't so young
I look forward to having more children with him
This guy I met a few years ago but I never gave him a chance
He knows that I've been on my own all my life
I have decided to keep him
He wants to keep me
He's offering me a new life
New journey
He wants me to finish school
And get what I thought I never deserve
I have more to discuss with him
He's successful himself
I think I have found love
Real love
Young restless love
He says he's not young but to me he's just as good as me
He makes me feel good
Better of myself
The other side I never got to see
I am very happy that I found love
I thought I will never get someone who accepts me
The baby I am holding is not his
But he wants it
He wants me
I can't wait to carry on with my life with him
Everything will be great
Cause of him
Now that we happened to just be together
I am also happy that I'm having my own baby
Just about 5 months
I look forward with this new life
He asked me to move to the city with him
He even told me I can start school
Finish where I left off in school.
Who knows maybe I will just might graduate
I don't want to let this opportunity to pass me by
Not with this guy
I have told him
He's so interested in me.
Pray he won't leave me
I still feel alone
I know I won't be so alone when I have my love in my arms in some months from now.
Make's me tear up and smile
Glad that I never gave up
Life changing
I have lost many friends as the years went by
Yes I miss them
I still don't got much friends but not like I need any
Friends will gain when I gain to a better self of me.
At times I was lost but I held on tightly
Stayed strong
Held my head high as I always have been doing.
I will take care of him and my children
When I say no matter what
I mean no matter what
I've taken care of myself.
I'll love to love my children and bring them up.
When I have more with him.
He seemed happy that I'm ready to grow up and have plenty of babies
I told him I was much mature than him
He said no I'm not
Just makes me smile
I can't wait to have what I never expected
It's never hard to expect the unexpected
Even when it's a loss.
I'm in love
Can't wait to show my dad what I have made and found
That his baby girl is going to build her own life.
Even though he was part of my life for a short period
My father is my father
I kept him updated and really close.
One of these days I will get a house for me and my family and have my dad to live with us too
Since my sisters can't seem to want him to live them or take care of him
I know it's a big responsibility I look forward to it.
I always have been and I don't think I will ever let that dream slip by
Now that I have this chance to do what I never thought I would get to.
Good things happen or great.
I found love it came out of nowhere.
A family I can call my own.
I will never did what I did before.
I will never leave my new love not even if anyone tries to steal me.
Cause that's how much I feel in love
Will be tough love.
Blackk
Jan 2016 · 313
Moving On
Jessica Head Jan 2016
I am moving on
but I don't know where I'm going
Your memory still haunts me
Why can't you just let me be
Why is time going by so slow
Where are you?
I just don't know
But I'm standing by the door
Waiting for you to come by
One of these days
These times you will see
I'm feeling ever so lonely
My tears will fall to the ground
I love you
But I don't make no sound
I'm moving on
Oh yes I miss you.
Dec 2015 · 504
Dear You D.H.H
Jessica Head Dec 2015
I don't know you anymore
I thought we were meant to be
I thought you were going to stay
Nothing's standing in your way
Can we try just to breathe
You know our love is meant to be
For eternity you walked away
Jessica Head Dec 2015
I Will Find My Indian Heart
In Another Indian Land.
Dec 2015 · 394
Untitled
Jessica Head Dec 2015
"I remember long ago , when you were mine before ,
Those were the days that I loved you.
But now I found someone new that is true to me, now your just a memory",
Oct 2015 · 282
DEATH
Jessica Head Oct 2015
I imagine death is simple
There is no pain
I want to die
Be an angel
Set free.

I feel like I can do it
Take my breath away
Save it for another life
I'm guilty
Depressed.

That's another thing
Depression has come back to haunt me
Maybe this time
I won't be so lucky with the rope.

In the end
All is white
All will be sorry
All suffer
All is different.

Forever rest in peace.
Oct 2015 · 464
If you ask me...
Jessica Head Oct 2015
Tie me up
If you love me.
Oct 2015 · 416
Love
Jessica Head Oct 2015
Love is so mysterical
I am in love
With the same man
I've been with
Since the beginning
There is other guys
Trying to steal me
Good luck.
It taken me
A year to get over
My love
He came back
He loves me
The more time goes by
This is love
Love
It feels asif
It is love.
Time
I depend on time
With him
He knows I love him
Is it really love
Its ghetto where I'm at
Dope as ****.
Glad it aint rank.
I love his laugh.
Oct 2015 · 2.0k
5 Years
Jessica Head Oct 2015
Year 1 - June 30th was the day I fell in love with you. It was rough at first, you were always stealing me away silently like no one knew I exsisted. No one cared about me at the time, you knew that I was bound to be all alone in my life of how I was. I just wished it wasn't you but **** you stole my heart this beatiful  year.
Year 2 - It was young love for the both of us, I taken it rough cause I was so in love with you I loved spending my time with you, even when we drank, you treated me like your girlfriend. But I had those dark days where it bugged me that I loved you most and I spent most of my days with you which I could've did way much better with schooling and all that other stuff but I managed then people really started to care about me but I didn't care about their care about me cause I know I was bound to be alone, after they starting really looking for me and realized that I was with you but they couldn't do anything about it, was too late for that now.
Year 3 - I'm sure it was in the winter, you got into trouble with playing with guns, and jailed for a week, and you couldn't be around the community due to danger to the community for a year. I decided to move to the city where you were staying, I didn't mind the city but at the time I started seeing someone from the community, I missed you but I also missed the community and I couldn't do this anymore babysitting and not being able to get my freedom. you had to go get into more trouble in the city when I left and got more jail time you were gone for a long while.
Year 4 - Things weren't working out for you and me. I know that you really wanted me back. But I was with someone else and he didn't want to let me go, he kept me silent like he was ashamed to have me or just didn't want to show me off. I was starting to become his joke or whatever I can call it. I loved him, he's kept in the dark from his family but accepted by my family. Could say I was with him for like a year, till he really started to see someone from the city. I left him I'm angry cause he was a keeper but man he is dark so I kind of didn't like that, hiding on me whenever he wanted like I was never apart of his life. I got fed up of this and left it hurted but it didn't hurt as much as losing my first love.
Year 5 - We aparted. My second love I left him or we just wanted to apart. I wanted my true lover back I did whatever I wanted to do. All adult and what not and no one can stop me now and no one can do anything too. I pray that I haven't chosed the wrong path. with this guy I'm hoping to be his partners in crime. I'm back with you my love, I did tell you that I love you cause you wanted to hear it and I never said it to you ever till that night. Our birthdays are coming up, I'm looking forward to spending it with you.
2011-2015.
Oct 2015 · 1.2k
WEED.
Jessica Head Oct 2015
Oh you know just smokin dat dope. Lol. Who's all from Saskatchewan CA?
Oct 2015 · 729
Love Letter
Jessica Head Oct 2015
You
Fell in love with you
On a beautiful summer day
Smelt like mud
And pines.
This love
Is forbidden
But I am insane to tresspass

You raise the fire in me
When you
Touch
Feel
Me

Why do you have to be
The beginning
And ending
To my poetry

Why are we still here
In this house
Were
We
Met

With your georious looks
Hard stares
**** body
Tough
Rebel

You
Blend
My taste
You do know
What I love most

Your beauty to me
You became my reason
To stay be strong.

When winter is here
Life feels right
Then there's spring
Another spring
With you

Summer days come
I enjoy leaving with you
Glad we're still together
And you forgiving me
For the wrong things I did
I'm just happy
You kept me so close
All these years
It doesn't seem like
Your here for me
But you do got my back
You got me.
All of me.

I am crazy over you.
I'm pretty sure you know it.
Sep 2015 · 390
loniness is with me today.
Jessica Head Sep 2015
Why oh why oh why
does my tummy feel like its upside down today
I am lonely
for him
I am sick
There is this other guy
that wants me
but he's a dog
no good.
It's best if I leave for awhile
Go stay in town with my sister
then again I'd leave to Regina
Cause I'm lonely
And I'm really ashamed
Maybe I'll go back to Saskatoon
visit my dad
I got till January to go where ever I want to go
January, I'm starting a course in Melfort with my mum
Make some money
and buy a truck, tv, game console, and beautiful good looking clothes
I will treat myself
to a new life.
That course is for unemployment work or something like that.
I can travel with my mum
all the time.
I'll get over him
I had a miscarriage
I'm sorry to those mothers out their
I wasn't ready
not with him
I loved him
Our relationship was falling apart.
it was the best choice to separate
I'm to young to be with him
I can't tell
it's hard to explain
I am looking forward.
I could say that I **** some bad paths in my life.
I'm more sober than ever today
I just want to leave
Lost today though.
I pray for myself and struggles to be taken care of, and for peace & happiness. Forgive me dear Creator, And Lord Jesus Christ for my wrong doings.
Amen.
I love myself
I just feel so lonely...
Sep 2015 · 352
Leave
Jessica Head Sep 2015
Forgive me for my wrong doings
I'm guilty
My past is catching up to me
I'm scared
I must make a change
Change my future
Forgive me to you whoever I did wrong to.
Aug 2015 · 269
Ashes
Jessica Head Aug 2015
Darlin this is madness
Why don't you come back to me.
Aug 2015 · 410
Tomorrow You'll Say Goodbye
Jessica Head Aug 2015
Lay your hands on me baby
Make my body cool
Just when it may ends
under my skin
like a silver
Oh baby
Why don't you hold me all night
Cause I know tomorrow you'll say goodbye
When I kissed you my baby
Did you feel anything
Cause when you kissed me my darling
I swore I can hear angels singing
Oh baby
Why don't you hold me all night
Cause baby I know tomorrow you'll say goodbye.
Time passes slowly as we lay here in the dark
Babe I can always sleep to the sound of your beating heart
Oh baby
Why don't you hold me all night
Cause I know tomorrow you say goodbye.
Aug 2015 · 524
So Sad
Jessica Head Aug 2015
All the shades of blue
The saddest one is you
Lower than the ocean
And the sky
When you never been so down
So lost
And so unfound
You've used up all the tears left in your eyes
And its So sad
It's so sad
Yeah it's saddest day you've ever had
When life leaves you by the road
Abandon and alone
And you never ever been so freezing cold
When standing your on the bridge just praying for someone just to pick you and to take you all the way back home
So sad
Yeah it's so sad
It's the saddest day you've ever had
Oh and it hurts so bad
Yeah it hurts so bad
Yeah it's sad.
Aug 2015 · 573
Dear Audrey
Jessica Head Aug 2015
Audrey. I met you on here hello poetry. Man have I never loved anything more but your wicked poems. I wish you never left. I loved how you talked about taking her far into the desert and how you described your love in that wicked way.
Come back.
Yes it's been a few years since I haven't read his poems but I can still remember it, that's when I fell in love with poetry.
Jul 2015 · 426
He Is
Jessica Head Jul 2015
He is my prettyness I wish he can be my shadow but don't leave me at night.
I am in love with him
It's been 3 full years
And we been aparted for a year,
Due to him going to jail for a few months
Since then I never got to be free
I feel pretty when I'm with him
He looks at me different.
Now we look at each other from a distance and up close
I lost myself when we aparted
But I died along time ago.
With you I feel warm
Just love that warmth feeling
That's why I choose to love you.
Something I miss. So lonely being me.
Jessica Head Apr 2015
I ****** up along the way to a successful life, till the alcohol got to me.
I'm back, it feels good to be back. :)
I fell in love for a year or less, guess we weren't happy; he wasn't happy, but I'm happy I'm in the big city of Saskatoon. I left the rez last week on Wednesday. I left behind my love, and my two boys(dogs). I've been busy, keeping out of trouble sort of. Sure am glad to be back on hello poetry thought I forgot my password n email lol. Enjoy I be writing.
My family says I'm a freak. Paranoid. The people in school says that too, not just the students but staff too. I don't want to go back to the rez.
Aug 2014 · 389
Untitled
Jessica Head Aug 2014
Why won't you come back for me and to me. I'm so lonesome. Depressed without you. Do you ever think about me? Do you even miss me?
I think about you everyday, I miss you everyday. Somehow I wished I can go back and relive that life we were living together.

Yes I know you made those two years ******* yourself, with me always being there near you. I'm sorry we got attached to eachother, we got to close and I want to be that close to you again.

You made me pretty.
You made me feel pretty.
You are my prettiness.

Which i should be ****** thankful to have you or to atleast onced your near.

You and I, we were deadly together.
To G.D. imissyou!!!!
Jul 2014 · 807
Owl Kiss
Jessica Head Jul 2014
I can't believe your gone.
An owl kissed you when you went away.
Forever in my heart is where you will stay.
I never seen a man cry, till I seen a man die.
Dealing hope
Please dry my tears
losing you was my biggest fear
For you I'll fight like the way you want me to
Times are gone
I can't believe your gone
Fly, fly, fly, hold me, hold me close
An owl kissed you where my heart is I hold you close
True, true love will never be the same
True true love will never ever die
Tried to remind myself every time I cried
Times are gone
I can't believe your gone.
By Joey Styles
May 2014 · 352
Untitled
Jessica Head May 2014
So much poems made a day. I'm so amazed that the system could handle all that.
May 2014 · 293
Untitled
May 2014 · 328
Untitled
Jessica Head May 2014
Peices of me went missing.
Jessica Head Apr 2014
It's scary being scared all the time
Only when I'm alone I feel safe.
Apr 2014 · 559
Scrambled
Jessica Head Apr 2014
My mind is ******....
I am not in control of myself anymore!
Jessica Head Apr 2014
Every night I'm here in this place. This house makes me feel scared, alone, afraid. What am I afraid of? Why do I feel alone? Who am I scared of? Questioned myself all of these questions that appear in my thoughts, sometimes I think someone else can hear my thoughts. I can feel someone in my thoughts, and I can feel their thoughts. We can hear eachother thoughts in this strange way. I will be OK. Someone told me that I'm OK and that I will be OK. Am I OK? I am in this room. I'm trapped, walked myself right into it and I didn't know it till now. Its just something I see. Complicating writing, or talking about whatever, haven't really spoken to anyone.
I have so much to say, but any of it just can't escape my head. I will be OK though, alright!
Apr 2014 · 269
Untitled
Jessica Head Apr 2014
Now honey, don't be stingie with your love!
Mar 2014 · 344
Untitled
Jessica Head Mar 2014
Out of sanity.
Into insanity.
Gone insane.
Jessica Head Mar 2014
A grown man's heart are much more stronger than a young woman's heart.
Wasn't too sure if I should share this!
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