You whispered

And the Stars came into existence

It's beautiful

Many follow other gods
Gods of broken hearts
Shattered dreams
Drugs
Alcohol
That guy
That girl
The list never ends
I'm here to tell you it's all just a trend
A temporary covering of the real pain that just causes more pain
It leaves a nasty stain
I'm here to tell you it can be washed away
By the God of Love
Jesus loves you more than you could ever imagine
He loves you beyond understanding
What happens when those gods break you
Many turn into people full of hate and rage
Others are depressed and anxious
I know the God who loves where there is hate
He is the light in the dark
He puts back together what the world tears apart
False gods break hearts with pain
The true God breaks them with love
He's holding his hand out to you
So don't slap it away
Take it and experience love beyond the universe
His love is faster than you could ever run
His love stretches farther than galaxies
His grace is deeper than the deepest oceans
Jesus saves
Follow Jesus
It's the best decision you will ever make

Summer friends will give you a smile as you walk down the hall

They might hang around when things are going good

But when the good gets going

They're the first to burst through the doors

Don't surround yourself with friends who will only be friends in the good times

Winter friends will stand by you when things get hard

Winter friends stand with each other like soldiers.

A band of brothers and sisters

Surround yourself with winter friends

They're there

She opened her eyes to white walls
White sheets
A pain in her jaw that felt concrete
She couldn't feel her face
Her jaw was filled with an empty space
Then she remembered
The bullet that was meant to ****
Missed its mark as if it was aimed with skill
A shattered jaw
restrains her maw
All she wants to ever do
Is scream her problems away
Her Mother shattered and broken hearted runs to her bedside
She hears her Father was at work as usual
He nearly lost one of the greatest blessings this world has to offer
But he's to busy making money and making offers
She goes to the therapy
Mental and physical
She hears she may never be able to eat or speak the same way again
The therapy doesn't help
She feels like a floating piece of kelp
She feels she has no purpose in life
No reason to exist
So if living hurts
Then why live at all?
Then one day
She hears a knock on the door
She opens it
There she sees that girl in the hall she always avoided
That girl who tried to tell her about God and Jesus
Before she thought her and her God were silly
But now she feels chilly
She lets her in
She tells her about a God who loves her
A God who gave her a reason to live
She realizes the futility of the atheism she grew up with
She goes to church with her friend
To her surprise people welcome her
Although she looks different with her deformed jaw
They welcome her and seat her in the front row
She hears more of this God
To hear it sounds kind of crazy
Then she hears about the evidence of his existence
Her heart immediately becomes whole
She accepts Jesus as her savior
She feels love like nothing this world ever promised her
Then she gets to know that guy in her youth group
Shes been burned before
But every time before
They always wanted something
All he wanted to do was give her something
He gave her kindness and respect
He gave her love
Whenever they talk
All he cares about is her dreams and what she wants
He talks about himself only when she asks
As she grows older she prays and prays
That God would show her if he is the one
On her twenty third birthday
He brings a gift
A ring
She knows immediately
He's the one
You see when she listened to Jesus
He led her to a husband who loves and honors her
When she followed the world
She settled for thieves
And boys who claimed to be men
If only every American Teen Romance had this ending
Unfortunately they end up worse

A guy meets a girl at the beginning of the year
As they get to know each other
Outcome the tears
First come tears of Joy
Next come tears of pain
The girl lacks a father
Who told her she was worth enough
The guy didn't have a dad who taught him respect
The girl wants someone to love her
But the guys just there to rob her
The guy knows the right words his pro at persuasion
Little does the girl know
She's about to get bated
The guy uses her for her body
Some guys may not know it at the time
But that's why the stay for another chime
Then the guy realizes
He is her god
So he runs out of fear
He leaves her a psychotic mess
In her pretty prom dress
On the front steps
There she sits
Tossed away like dirt
Then comes the hurt
The girl fell in to far
And now she doesn't know how to get out
She fell into pain
And now all she has is rage
You see when he stole her heart and ran
He took all she had
For a temporary fix
Then comes another guy
The girl doesn't understand anymore
Why she still loves
The one who broke her heart
Then the cycle repeats
She keeps thinking
Maybe this ones different
Turns out
She was wrong
Then one day she's had enough
All she has is rage and pain
Because anything she ever had
Was broken
She doesn't have anything left to live for
So one day
She takes her fathers gun
Walks outside
She holds it to her head
Ready to be dead
Any second and she'll have what she wants
To end it all
Then without hesitation
The trigger is pulled

Don't give in to those thoughts

Those thoughts of hopelessness

Depression

Anxiety

Suicide

When You think you have nothing more to live for

Get up and fight

Tell the devil he can't have you

He can't have what you see as worthless and Jesus see's as precious

Cry out to Christ

When you don't feel his love

When you can't hear his voice

Don't stop crying out

Praise the name of the God who created you

He will open your eyes to show you all he's done

Sometimes to forge your heart

It takes a little fire

Be still and wait

Wait for the water of the Holy Spirit to wash over you

To cool you down

Don't let the fire melt you

Get up and fight

God doesn't create the fire

He might allow it because it serves his purpose

But never forget he loved you so  much he broke the laws of death for you

God sacrificed his only son for you

He didn't force Jesus into submission

Jesus loved you enough to be the sacrifice

I spent years running from you
Now I'm running to you
In the heat of the night you gave me hope
I remember that night
It was your grace that stayed my blade
It was your love that kept my heart beating
I was sick of what I had become
I felt so *****
I knew that if I ****** that blade that I would meet you
But that wasn't my time
I knew you had a purpose for me
You brought me through that fight
You calmed the storms
You taught me to keep my eyes on you and not on those waves
Those wives looked so big
You reminded me of the size of your grace
You reminded me of what I was born to do
I wanted to end it all so much
I didn't want to live
I didn't want your grace
Then you called me out
You offered me a place
You gave me a home
I felt so worthless
I felt so hopeless
And you stepped in and made me feel hopeful
Worthy
Something
You made me remember what it was like not to feel pain
You are my God
You are my King
And one day
I will meet you
Face to Face

Don't let him do it

Don't let him break you

Don't let him taunt you

Don't listen to his lies

Don't listen to the temptations

He was given kingship of this world

But my Father allowed him that kingship

Don't let him beat you ******

He wants you to feel worthless

He wants you to feel purposeless

He wants to exhaust you

He hates you

You walk under the name of your Father

Which means he will do everything he can to destroy you

He hates you

PICK UP THAT SWORD!

DON'T GIVE IN!

NEVER GIVE UP!

I feel empty and drained

There is no thought

Just empty

God promised me Joy

So I will seek it

I will seek Joy in him

Sometimes I feel like I can't find it

But it was promised to me

Therefore it must be there

Maybe I will receive in it in just a little while

Maybe I must endure a little while longer

If so

I am at peace with that

I have come to God

I have come to see his wonders

I know I have the ability to be filled

But I must keep fighting

Everyday I hear all the bad things I've done

Whispers in my ear to end my life with a pun

But dear Devil

You can't haunt me with this guilt

You can't drive me to suicide

I decided years ago I would never take the cowards way out

When I accepted Christ as my savior I became a soldier

There are people God sent me to rescue by his strength

So don't you dare think that I will leave my brothers and sisters behind

You better get out of my head

Cause that knife may look good but Jesus is better

I will meet him on his time not mine

YOU BETTER GET OUT BEFORE I START SWINGING!!!

THESE ARMS WERE GIVEN TO CHRIST AND WHEN I SWING I SWING FOR DISTANCE!!!!

Christ saved me from my past

He saved me from a body cast

So you can't take my life

Because I serve as a soldier

And I stand with God

To the end of the line

Here I am again
I come here on routine
To confess the things that I do
To confess what I have done wrong
What I need help with
I stand alone
I stand amazed
By the God
Who loves me
I stand unworthy
Before the Holy One
Although He is three in one
He is one
I stand here broken by what I have done to you
I failed you again
I stand here asking again
Why me?
You chose me to fight for you
Why?
I know you called me for something greater
Greater than the normal life
Why me?
There's nothing special about me
You didn't choose me for who I am
You know every failure I will ever make
Every second you have already lived
You gave me these gifts
I had no part of it
You made me who I am
One day
When I meet you
Face to Face
I will know

So many walk through life

Blind to the sinking sand they walk on

They don't realize their life will end at dawn

So open your eyes

Step out of the sand

And walk into the ocean of grace

You keep trying to put me in a box

You try to crush my future

You try to surround me with all of this evil

You try to make me think that I'm what I was

But I won't go back

I was declared free of this shame

I was given the power of Grace

I was declared a free man

I can walk where I want

I can think what I want

So stop trying to make me think that this evil is what I want

You can't put me in a box

My God has a plan for me

So what can stop me

I will bow before his name

I will serve him

So back down before my God

When I can't get back up
When I'm drowning and I can't see the surface
When I'm broken
When I'm beaten
When I don't know why
When I can't see past the day
When I can't see past the knife
God please put me on my knees
Show me your peace
Show me your love
Father open my eyes to your grace
When I'm at my weakest screaming for help
Put me on my knees
Raise my hands
Fold my fingers
Push them to my forehead
Remind me to pray

Get to know her

Get into a relationship

Get into her pants cause her curves fit my qualifications

When I'm done with her I'll just leave her with the kid

And then I'll just start on the next girl that's a push over



Don't fall for a boy

Let yourself be caught by a Man

Let yourself be defined by God

There's a place called Hell
It's burning fire in a cell
You could be headed there right now and you don't want to know it
Or maybe it hurt's you to much to show it
Hell is a place of fire and torment
A place of loneliness
You may be asking why I say this is the truth that saves
It sounds like that truth that scathes
The reason is because you don't have to go there
You may think I know I'm good enough
Well being good could never make you clean enough for heaven
Sin sends you to Hell
Jesus sends you to Heaven
The Bible says for all have sinned
And fallen short of God's glory
We are all headed for Hell originally
But lucky for us it didn't stay that way
Because Jesus didn't stay in the grave
He was God who came from Heaven
To be sin for us
There had to be a payment
Jesus was the payment
He loves you so much that he died for you
So you wouldn't have to go to Hell
And spend eternity in that cell
Accept his gift
You were warned of Hell
What's you're choice
Heaven
Or Hell?

Caleb

Your God called you to life

So why do you cling to death

Let go of your Gods

Remain steadfast in who you are

Remain strong in what you know to be true

This world has nothing for you

Cling to your God

Where do I start
I'm amazed that you gave me a part
A part in your universe
Everything that I see is just an apple in the cart
A grain of sand in the desert
When I look out into the stars
All I see are your wonders
And that's just a scratch on the surface

They light up the sky
Like pink and purple dye
They're an open door
To new worlds and new planets
Meteors and comets
Make the world respond with rockets
Flying through the door
Like we have nothing left to poor
Their beautiful
Wonderful
Worthy of a stare
Like their's not another care
The stars are full of questions
Without answers
Are we alone in the universe?
Are we ready to leave this world
And take to the stars
Are we ready for new worlds
Beyond our imagination
Where we can do things beyond all possibility

The greatest form of Love
Unconditional Love
It soars like a dove
It serves with joy
It never takes or demands
It is perhaps the purest form of Love
It doesn't give in to anger
It does not expect anything
It only gives
It's the kind of Love a father has for his children
It disciplines out of love
Not anger
It is Love that never ends
It is Love that isn't earned
It is only given
Our world needs a little more of this Love
Our world needs more Agape
Less sin
More of Christ

Me:

God I can't do this anymore

You sent me to do an impossible job

It's too hard

These temptations will **** me

I don't feel your power

I cry out to you but hear no reply

Where are you?

I need you to remove this adversity

I can't do it

I don't have the strength

This is too big

Jesus:

I told you I am with you

You're right these adversities are too big for you

But they're not too big for me

I stand beside you

I am the breath in your lungs

My power runs in your veins

These temptations form a thorn in your flesh

My Grace is enough for you

You haven't scratched the surface of the power you have at your call

I am enough for you

My Grace is sufficient for you

I am sufficient for you

I commanded you to keep going

What made you think these struggles were too big for me?

You stopped and questioned

You stopped and doubted

But I tell you

My Grace is sufficient

For you

You will know

That one loves God

When they cry out on their knees

Thy will be done

There's rest

When every ounce of my strength doesn't come from me

It's peaceful in these storms

I'm not anxious anymore

I just want to seek your face

I just want to know you

I want to see you

I love this peace you give

Thank you

People ask
If God loves us
Then why do bad things happen to his followers?
Here are some of the questions
Why did God allow me to be an orphan?
Why did God allow this injury to turn me into a monster
on the inside and out?
Why does God allow these temptations to haunt me?
Why does he allow my family to hate me?
Why do I have this disability?
Why did you allow my father to abuse me?
Here's why
Because he knew he could trust you with this hardship
He knew that you couldn't get through the pain alone
He knew that you had what it takes
He knew that he would be there to guide you through
He knew the limit to what your heart could take
He knew you are a fighter
He knew that with his power
He will shine the light through the darkness
He allowed this trial to come to you
Because he knew he could trust you with it
He knew you could do it
Those are only a few questions
I'm sure there are a lot more

It's what we are

We are all shameful

Disgusting

Harmful

Sad

Sickening

Yet we don't have a conscience that condemns us

It is to warn us of what our monstrosity will bring

I'm sad and pathetic

It's because I lost sight of Christ

Don't do the same

You've gotta fight

Four long years

The Devil tried to crush me

I was deep in sin

Fighting to climb out of the darkness

My God gave me his hand 12 years ago

I kept letting go

I kept chasing shadows

Getting glimpses of the light

When I took Jesus hand I was able to escape the darkness

It was slow progress

It took several years

He kept pursuing me

He kept reaching out

He kept loving me

Through the disgusting muck that I threw in his face

My God has done everything for my good

Every time I cursed his name

He forgave me

Every time I take his gift of salvation and spit on it he forgives me

I can't let go of his hand

His hand is the only way to salvation

So you can keep your lies because I'm high off of Grace

The further I go down this road of life,

The harder everything tries to pull me away from my King

I have to tell the world

They can keep their fantasies and make believe satisfaction because I'm gonna cling to this hand

My grip will only grow tighter

Here I have found my life

Here I have found my joy

I will not fear the future

I will not fear what the future holds for me

Because I serve the God of the future

And He is in control

Whether it is pain, regret or loss

I will not fear

Because I serve the God who is in control

To those in despair

And ready to pull the trigger on life

I beg of you don't

If you face abuse, fear, guilt, regret or just straight up pain

Depression

Anger

Don't pull the trigger

Don't pull it

Let go of the wheel

Let go of control

Let God control your life

Don't try to drive it

You will crash and burn and the last thing we need

Is another loved one put a pull in their brain

And leave their family behind

Give your life to the God who is in control

"It's all about me" or so we're taught

We're taught to make a name this world won't forget

Go for  fame and fortune

Power, money, pleasure

All these material things

They don't have an ounce of meaning outside this pitiful seventy year lifespan on this earth

All good things, just turned into Gods

This pitiful seventy years isn't even a drop in the bucket of eternity

If all I do is follow this heart of selfishness,

I will end in self destruction

If I humble myself and follow the Lord of Life

I will find myself in wonder of a Heaven I couldn't even imagine

Follow Jesus

Forsake yourself

Follow Christ