I guess this is more of a prayer

But dear God

I struggle with putting you first

I want to be better at it

I say I put you first

But sometimes these priorities get mixed up in my mind

You know I'm not perfect

Yet you love me

You are a God of Love

I want to get my heart back on track

But I need your Grace

How long will it take for the human race to get it
Girls looking for love from boys who break their hearts
All because their father tore theirs apart
It's psychotic
Teens looking for love in all the wrong places
They find gods who fuel their depression
They look for love in that boy or that girl
It's funny because those same things tempt me
It's scary because people don't seem to understand that if a fire is hot
It means to get away
Don't draw closer
The definition of insanity is doing the same thing multiple times
And expecting the same result
People with broken hearts
What happens when one day
The weight of the depression becomes to great
Then the gun looks like such an easy way out
You just want to put it to your head and pull the trigger
Is that because their is no solution to your problem
Or maybe you just haven't found it yet
Chasing false gods is downfall of humanity
Are you going to join the insanity?
No pleasures of this world will ever solve your problem
If they become your god
They will bring farther down then you ever wanted to go
Humanity is the living definition of Insanity

So full of wholes
So full of lies disguised as truths
The lack of evidence proves it's just a ruse
It's so hopeless
My heart breaks for Atheists
So many work so hard to bring followers of Christ down
There is futility in their lives it will get them no where but down
So many know the truth
So many atheists know of Jesus
Yet they hate him
They've seen him
Yet claim that he doesn't exist
How can you hate something so much
That doesn't exist?

I'm not enough
I don't have what it takes
I don't have the strength
I don't have the heart
I don't have the will power
I don't have the voice
That's what I was told for years by people who didn't really know me
They were right
I'm not enough
When it comes to the fight
I'm the first in flight
I'm weak and cowardly
I'm not enough
But some how God took this piece of nothingness
And used me to tell others about him
With God I have nothing
With God I have everything

Life is one of the hardest races
It's like running in a high speed chase
Obstacles everywhere
Sometimes you get pushed to the ground
The track looks far and narrow
Full of obstacles that want you to turn back or better yet
Take the wide easy path that cuts through the course
The race of life is the hardest, fastest race you will ever run
Are you fast enough or strong enough
The truth is your not
You need the speed
You need the strength in your muscles that you just don't have
You need that passion for life
The passion only God can give
Those obstacles will try to take you down
You need to jump the highest hurtles
Dodge the largest rocks
Leap over the largest gorges
But I can't these athletic feats
With these feet
I need the strength
I need the speed
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me
I can climb the highest mountains
Leap the deepest valleys
Are you ready for the race?

Looking into the night

All I see is your glorious light

Stars dancing like kites

Their colors shining, flickering, flying

Like kingdoms

They rise and fall

All around all I hear is
Do good in school
Get a good job
Make some cash
You see they leave out the last part
"And die"
I stopped and looked around
Were told to do what we're told and climb the ladder
What they didn't say is there's some broken rungs on that ladder
Money doesn't solve my problems
Neither do some useless pics on a screen
Neither do the pills
The drinks
Or the sleepless nights with a girl
I may not have experienced these things
But I've seen so money lives crash and burn because of them
Here we have the rise of feminism
All I hear are protests
Women's rights regarding abortion,
Pay
Equal rights
Yet those same women
Are the skimpily clad models guys look at on screens
You see the objectification of women doesn't happen with equal rights
So much as the way the look through the eyes of men
I could right day in and day out
Society is crashing
When we'll we get our heads out of the sand and look at ourselves
Abortion is ******
Lust is adultery
When we'll we see the monstrosities in our lives?
When we'll we see the cure
Jesus loves those little babies
What's even stranger is that he loves the killers of those babies
He died for each and every one of them
Jesus died for the adulterers
The rapists
The murderers
The innocent
The arrogant
The Prideful
He died for sinners
He died for this suicidal society

Dear Son

I hear you scream out of desperation

I see the pain you're going through

I hear your cries of terror

I know the suffering you went through

I watched as your father hit you

I watched as the bullies humiliated you

I saw knew your suffering the day you were left an orphan

I felt your tears run down your cheeks

Did you see?

Did you know?

Did you hear?

Did you watch?

Did you feel?

Did you hear the voice of the mother I gave you who comforted you?

Did you know the bullies stopped because I sent a friend to stand up for you?

Did you watch when I gave you son-ship in a loving home?

Did you feel the son-ship I granted you in my family?

Did you see the healing I provided?

Why then do you cry to me?

Why do you ask for what I already gave you?

I gave you my son?

What more could I have given to prove that I love you?

Be still

Look around at the blessings you have

Don't look at what you don't have

Be still

And know

That I am God

Dear Daughter

I saw the beatings you took

I watched as you were crying on the floor of your room

I saw them scream at you and abuse you

I heard you call my name

I felt the depression and brokenness you felt

I felt the pain you felt of a family who scorned you and treated you like a dog

Did you watch?

Did you see?

Did you hear?

Did you feel?

Did you watch as I sent the neighbor to come check on you?

Did you watch as she took you in and cared for you?

Did you see healing I provided through the comfort of your friends?

Did you hear the uncle who cried with you and tried to be the father he couldn't?

Did you feel the grace and mercy I gave you?

Did you feel my love?

You called and I came

I love you

All this I did for you

Open your eyes to what you have

Count your blessings

Be still

And know

That I am God

Here I stand

There they run

In herds

As a mighty wolf pack they run into the fire

Here I stand while they blindly run, drunk on there own arrogant ignorance

I scream and cry

Yet they do not heed

In to the pit of Hell run billions

They care not for the things of the glorious God who made them

They don't understand that Christ came to save this filthy race called man

I cry in the name of Christ

Turn from the ways of the world

Follow Christ

Grow to know him

Only then can you be saved from an eternity of fire and suffering

I write this because I love you dear reader

The here and now will pass away like snow

But our souls shall never end

They will only move to a different place

Make the right choice of where your soul will go

Every day I wake up and put on my armor

I strap my sword to my side

I cling to my shield

As I walk onto the battlefield every day

The enemy whispers in my ear

Everything is hopeless

What's the point?

Just drop your sword and lay down your shield

It doesn't has to get any bloodier then this

That's when I realize that those demons are right

It doesn't have to because my God already won this war

I'm merely pushing forward from victory

So I will raise my shield high

I would rather come die and be brought home on my shield then drop it and run

I will draw my sword

And I will fight until my last breathe

Will you?


I will draw my sword

Why do we rush to end a life?

So many are quick with a knife because of their own conveniences and preferences

How many are quick to save a life?

As we were adopted into the family of God shouldn't we adopt the innocent little children who are about to be slaughtered?

There will be a day
When the whole world will tremble
The whole world will fear
And flow with blood filled tears
Valleys will run red
Because the world turned away from you
You gave the world every chance
But we won't bow to you
You will send your two prophets who will be persecuted
Beaten and scorned
Through your chastisement
Your grace will run evermore
On that day chances will run out
You will come riding in from the sky
Your armies will make this world tremble
As it assembles
On that last battle
This world will fire every destructive force upon you
They will mean nothing
Not even touching your glorious robes
Everything this world has to fight
Will fall
Like a child trying to **** a mountain
This world will have been given every chance
Every grace of salvation
But when that day comes
You will finally release your righteous fury
And this world will fall
Sin must one day end
You love the souls of this world
You died for us
You give every warning
Every grace
Every possible chance to tell us of your coming day
You will take your children home
But those that refused you
Will be lost
In that last battle

Used to protect

Sharp

Shining

Fierce

Can pierce the hearts of men

Yet preserve them

His brush strokes are big and small

As small and intricate as the atom

As big as the galaxies that make up the night sky

How beautiful is this world

Its canyons and oceans

This creation is certainly beautiful

Yet the creation of heaven is even more beautiful

Thank you God

For the eyes to see this beauty

If you could see
My filth ridden heart
You would only want to tear me apart
You see my outside
I look like I'm chill
And I've got everything under control
The truth is
I battle my heart constantly
I am the chief of sinners
In need of a savior
I fight pressures on all sides
When I jump into the fight all alone
I'm sent spinning
My strength just isn't enough to win
I begin to cave in because all these pressures are to much for me
But it's not about me
It's not my fight
It's a burden I was never meant to bear alone
It's the fight that was won two thousand years ago
I'm just feeling the aftershock
The truth is that I'm a sinner who is just a fool
But when Jesus came in my soul
I began to ignite
And God made one of his knights
This heart isn't mine it belongs to my King
Jesus Christ

Sit down now and let me tell you the truth
There's a place of danger
A place of fire
A place called Hell
Don't go there
You see there are two places after death
One is Heaven
One is Hell
Don't follow this world in to the flames of Hell
Follow Jesus into the arms of Heaven
You see this world is running head long into a fire hotter than this world has ever known
It burns hotter than molten stone
All I want to do is tell the world
You don't have to go there!
Follow the one who loves you
Some may say
If God loves me than why would he let me go to Hell
HE DID EVERYTHING TO SAVE YOU FROM HELL
He sent his son Jesus to die on the cross
He gave you a gift
Are you gonna take it or throw it away?
It's your call but I told you about how to be saved
From that eternal fire
I love you that's why I warn you
Jesus loves you
That's why he died for you
Please choose Jesus over Hell
Choose love over death

Get good grades in school
So you can buy a house with a pool
Says teachers and parents
Like that's all that matters
Money and patents
But lets step back
My patience is about to scatter
There are millions around the globe
Enslaved, starving and hurting
Shootings more common then ever
But we're told
Forget about all that it probably won't happen to you
So live for yourself, go for the gold
Because this life is yours so live it to the fullest
Yes I do well in school
Not for the grades and money
But so I can one day give those less fortunate then me
Don't get me wrong I'm thankful for my education
But from whom much is given much is required
Our generation can be different
Instead of being greedy for money and power
Why don't we be the change in the lives of the sour
This world is in need of love
Be the change
Set captives free
Fight for what's right
We can be the change

I'm sick of it
I'm sick of a world who refuses forgiveness
I'm sick of a filthy world
I'm sick of Christians who believe they're somehow better then the world
I'm sick of myself because I struggle with love
I struggle with loving the way my father loves
I struggle to see the world through my fathers eyes
I'm tired of Legalistic people who think they've somehow got it figured out
That think that somehow they're righteous enough
I'm tired of fighting for the dying that I love
When they reject me
But
I will still love them
I will still fight for them
I will strive to love the way my father does
I will fight to give the compassion my father does
I will not bow to pride
I will not bow to lust
I will not bow to greed
I will not waste what I have
I will not give up
I'm tired of this world
And I'm tired of fighting
But I have been given the task of Jeremiah
I have been given the voice to speak
Although many will not listen
None of this is my work
I didn't do any of this
My Father did
He gave me his grace
All I ever did
Was say
Yes

Did you know you were thought of before you were born?

The God who made you made a plan for you before the world began

When Jesus walked the Earth

He loved those in the world and came to save the world

And then the ones he came to save

Put him on a cross

He was beaten and whipped

He was bruised and battered by beatings that killed many

But he planned to take that pain

He knew he would do it

And he knew who he was doing it for

When he was put on that cross

He thought of you

He thought of your name

He thought of your personality

Your face

And he knew many of those he loved

Would reject him

Don't reject him

He loved you before you were even born