Paint me the words
You mixed with
Those acrylic eyes of yours
And the canvas of our skin

Momma says to be honest with these
Says all your prayers should be that way
Well I've been burning myself to see the sun
Hoping that the sun will come one day
That one day I will be stained glass
Colors will burst from my insides
And we can call that day sunday
My prayers will be honest than
To the God that forgot our names
to remember only his own
And when that God cries forgiveness
I'll take back the times I cursed his name
For the way he snatched those I loved
right out from between my arms
When that day comes
I will pray more honest like

You got your drinking whiskey
The kind that you sip to remember
You drink to laugh and cry
Scrap books liquified and bottled
With a cork and a price tag
Than you got your warming whiskey
The kind you drink to feel summer  inside your ribcage
The kind that melts the winter in your thoughts
and leaves you on the floor in a spring embrace
Lately I've been drinking whiskey
Strolling through the aisles seeing all the bottles
Debating on which is one or the other
And deciding on what kind I need most

The warmth of our bed
The taste of you
The feeling of your touch

Blonde beauty
Green eyed thief
Stole me away
Upon twilight hours
You’re lungs sing
Songs of forgiveness
You’re mind speaks
Lessons of longing
Blonde beauty
Green eyed thief
Steal my heart
Leave me to be

You can still smell
the summer nights
Warm and wet,
The hushed conversations
through paper thin walls,
It's around midnight and the instruments are singing,
My lips never felt better than
when they were pressed
against yours

I flew to Miami in the early of dawn
Watched the sun rise above south beach
Made my way to the bar to take it all in
Planned out the days to come
Felt the breeze against my neck
The sweat beginning to roll down my spine
Quenched my thirst with *** and sugar cane
Fell in love with a Cuban beauty
Watched the moon from a rooftop
Cried the stars
Slept all the next day

Tell the reaper I don't need her
I can lay myself to rest
Just write my name on my tombstone
and that I always tried my best

I'm sick of all the goodbyes
The letters I never sent
Addressed to yesterday's lovers
with words I never meant

My chest flutters with the thought of you
My hands columbus to your body
These uncharted territories
My heart is learning to survey
Your oceans and ridges
The bridges between us,
Our bodies embrace
without any words to give
Simply the breaths between
These lustful longings

I never even knew your name
never had enough courage to say hello
Just eyed you from across the room when nobody was watching
They way you wrote your poems with your head down
How you always made sure to cover your mouth when you laughed
You are the only girl that has ever made me buckle at the knees
loose focus, can’t focus, no ability to make sense of anything
You made me want replace all the parts of me you wouldn't like
I never even knew your name
I never had enough courage to say hello

I just wanted to feel again,
I knew the properties of space,
Stayed within my borders
Held colors in my hands,
I know nothing,
I want to be held by the world,
But now I am silent
I’ll probably stay that way,
It is hard to express some feelings

I want this to be short and simple,
I hate myself
I love you
I'm willing to make myself better
Just to hold you close again

Fifth and final, All written to you,
The keeper of these words,
Whatever this becomes,
Know that it is simple,
Understand that this is good,
One day I hope you’ll look back
on the memories and laugh

I hold these valentines close to my chest
They are all addressed to you,
You with the faith unbroken
You with such gentle intentions
It's not easy to quiet the sounds of the heart
Yet these love poems do the best they can

I'll write my sweetest words
My most heartfelt letters
All to the silence in the room
I am tired of bleeding this body
And playing my heart strings
To an empty audience
I'm still hurting somewhere
And my body ain't bleeding
Those love letters no more

What chained me to this?
When did I lose my freedom?
This stutter in my finger tips,
The shaking of my bones,
Every hour spent wondering,
When you’ll next return to me

Smoke on my bedside
Fires beneath my pillows
Sleeping with the demons
Minefields for dreams
Crosshairs by morning
Bells ring by noon

You give a whole new meaning to sheet music.

Most days I find myself daydreaming
of my skull painting the walls of the room

There came a time
Where I did not think of tomorrow
I only hoped to see the end of today
Pleaded for a sign from somewhere
I was met with a desert,
The cool of the night,
A cry for mercy,
And the silence of war

These storms have come
They hang heavy over my roof
The night is spent dreaming
My days spent in static
I wish to be the man I once was
Back when these legs could
Carry the weight
I am tired now
So tired I no longer have the
Energy to hate myself
So tired now I sometimes
Forget what it is to feel

This is it
No revisions
My mind has been racing
But at a steady pace
Almost as if we are shooting
for our best possible time
in the yearly gym class mile run
Maybe if I finish first
The class will shout my name in celebration

My heart
It is in pieces
All scattered along the shore
On this island of a body
So lonesome at sea
Fighting off the waves
praying for someone
to venture to these shores
and stumble upon the
fractured parts of me

I've wandered for years now
All through neon streets
and past rainy day storefronts
For a warm bed and a hot meal
Something to fill my gut
As the sirens howl down
interstates and byways
I remain wandering on the shoulder
Thumb out hoping to
be taken by some strange angel
To a paradise of a place

You turn these afternoons to songs
These mornings to symphonies
Those nights to crescendos
All the music in the wind
Stems from the simplicity in your smile
The contagion of your laughter
The sunlight in your chest
You are all that is
and all there ever was

It has been a year now
Since my vices ran rampant
I flew like Icarus among the clouds
Saw god or whoever resided there
Fell to earth in a crater of who I once was
Burned for days amongst tubes and doctors
Sweated out the best of me
prayed to whomever would listen
Reminded myself of what I was
And chose to be different

This body has no tombstones
This skin dances with angels
This body holds no secrets
These bones sing the truth
This body hides from no one
This blood will flow forever