"Just tired"
He muttered

But you could tell it wasn't
Just the lack of sleep

But lack of hope
And happiness

That made him
Act the way he did.

I hope you have a daughter
Just as beautiful as you
I hope she is an angel
And she makes your dreams comes true

I hope she falls in love one day
I hope their love is real
I hope she drives him mad with love
The way you made me feel

I hope she loves her culture
I hope she loves her God
I hope he doesn't fit the mold
The same way I was flawed

I hope she doesn't hide from you
And that you've helped her understand
True love transcends both faith and race
And it sure as hell's not planned

I hope you get to meet him
And see how he makes her smile
I hope that if she tells him yes
He can walk her down the aisle

The hardest thing I've ever done
Was giving you my heart
And being crushed as ignorance
Tore our love apart

I was thirteen when I made the first incision on my ****** heart, allowing its contents to pour out in a heavenly wave of confusion and innocence.
Which is fine.

I was fourteen when I tried to stitch the pericardium back together with the “I love you’s” that were never meant to be said, the heat of the activity, and the temporary “Stay Strong”s.
Which is also fine.

I was fifteen when I learned that the heart muscle can only regenerate in small, limited quantities, that it would never be quite the same in its entirety.
Which is, again, fine.

Now I am seventeen days from my sixteenth birthday, and I’m learning that time spent alone can not only let you find yourself, but can also lead you to parts of yourself you weren’t meant to discover quite yet.

But I am almost sixteen, and it’s too late. I cannot forget what I know.

Maybe seventeen will be kinder.

-

After work we meet for a drink
I’m as nervous as I can be
I want so badly to kiss her
She was right there across from me

Tonight was the very first time
And all I could do was stare
When she spoke, I heard sweet music
Like love songs flew through the air

Here in the booth of this crowded bar
One or two drinks break the ice
I'm wanting so badly to kiss him
I'll bet it would feel really nice

Rock n roll blasting behind me
Lights turned down low, very dim
I'm hoping they'll play something slow soon
So that I can dance slowly with him

I should just lean over and kiss her
But what if she gets upset
I don’t want to ruin the evening
That I would truly regret

Finally a slow song is playing
This might be my only chance
I reach for her hand and I take it
Then ask her “Would you like to dance?”

My heart starts to race at his touch
I let myself get carried away
I follow him onto the dance floor
Where our bodies so close start to sway

His arms hold me tightly close to him
My arms hold him just the same
I feel his lips brush past my ear
Then his voice softly whisper my name

Her fragrance is so mesmerizing
Her touch makes my smile ignite
Dancing with her on this evening
Oh what a beautiful night

The feel of her arms wrapped around me
As we move slow across the floor
I sing to her now as we’re dancing
You are the one I adore

I think I am falling in love
I can't think what else this could be
Butterflies inside my belly
My knees start to feel very weak

My eyes meet his for a moment
When he stopped for a moment to look
Now I'm lost in his eyes forever
That moment is all that it took

So many months we’ve been talking
Now finally we get to meet
I’m holding the girl of my dreams in my arms
I feel my heart skipping a beat

My heart is now beating much faster
Never knew it’d feel something like this
I’m in love with this beautiful woman
A dream that I still haven’t kissed

We both want this moment to happen
Up onto my toes I lift for a kiss
His lips open up to meet me
Finally knowing all I had missed

My lips part a little bit more
His mouth covers mine with his
I feel his tongue brushing mine
Never has it felt good as this

I must have landed in heaven
Her lips feel so soft and divine
Now feeling like we are both flying
I can not believe she is mine

We’re soaring high over the dance floor
We spin in the breezes above
That’s just how this moment is feeling
As head over heels I’m in love

I love you
not because
you're good looking

I love you
not because
you're caring

I love you
not because
you dote on me

I love you
not because
your smiles are sweet

I love you
not in lust
of your crevice
or orifice
or skin

I love you
because
without you
I feel

incomplete within.