A metal bar
bullets rang
blackout
,
blood

deficits on me

Tear me up
salt my wounds
and I will come back
patched and proofed

Stop my tracks
tie my foot
and by this pavement
I'll starve and stood

Call me in names
of sharp refutes
and I will breathe in
to calm my thoughts

But tell me to change
the one thing I be
and you would break me
into insanity

I have known words
to estrange my mind
and I have heard you
brought back my life

A disfiguration
of what I was
A continuation
of who I am

And I,
I am
A broken
Masterpiece

I woke up this evening
showered with guilt

I found my body in covers
seven layers of faith
My soul is made up of dust
from destruct of past mistakes
I have a heart made of stitches
threads of melancholic fate

I am not real
the image you saw was projection
the sound you hear is wind
my brain that gave you comfort
is degrading, a ceasing clay

I wanted to be a star dust
to fly above the ground
and to be part of an afternoon sunlight
I will keep a human warm

But I am not real
And I will stay in this forever
even if it don't exist
because in this soulless shell of a body
I can hold you, ghostly friend

Dust, let me be the dust.

My coffee candy was melting
as I wait in a wooden swing
the green grass of this meadow
outnumbered blue skies in my days

Birds started humming
my eyes closed to take it in
I breathed a heavy feeling
opened my eyes, sinned and grieved

Then you are there
standing, waiting
telling me it will be safe
stretching your hand
you are my calling

The only sanity
that I have left

It sat upon a wooden piece
the cushion there is none
ate with silverware
but just bare hands
and tasted wine
of the lower class
a canopy is where it slept
in a blancket made of scrap

it shed a tear
thinking of why
the only rich it has
is a black device
that had the world
which has the love
and a million thoughts
of what could've

It wants to hide
beneath these scar
cursing the clouds
for being hatched
in a world in where
A star is bright
but it is just dust
and nothing much.

I fall in love with old souls
when I'm just a dead soul
they accept my sorrows
and I brought them loathe
forgive me dearest
for I turned into hurt
while looking at loving
as the holy of all that bursts

I am in grief
because two nights ago
I lost myself
in the abyss
and I cannot go back
I am clawing at this corner wall
it's choking me,
I cannot breathe,
and I had to live till the day
that  my body too, descends
to that place
that kept my soul
steal it,
never returned

I cannot stare straight at your eyes
When we talk in small distance, I keep looking afar
Walking in empty streets, my vision is distant
Did you ever ask me why? Maybe, maybe not

I find you too beautiful, I find you too good
That if I stare a little longer, I'd give away the groove
That my eyes might daub you and  never get to look
I might get fond of these scenery, knowing the time is short

I find you like a masterpiece, I'd like to keep it cool
In the small time I dye your image, to not misunderstood
That though what I do is not the custom, I'll live by the mood
In my head you'll keep steady, the you that I'd yearn for

You'd hate the guts that wrote this
And you'd hate the person too
But I don't regret to have told you
You'll always deserve the truth

I'm in a swinging chair thinking
of the path I have taken
the guilt that never visited
and the wish to feel greed
I am here singing, the silence I had within
then the wind started humming
of another rhythmic gem
it tells me "hello, I am missing you"
slowly. painted the smile I'm lacking

Finally, everything is ending
finally, I don't think of dying
there are three kinds of treetops
I've been eager to climb
now it's all down to one
because the wind started humming
of another melody
it tells me "hello, you made it through"
"I am proud of you."

I held my sorrows low,
now I'm tearing up the snow
the cold voice I have totted
have now relieved my pain
of the duty of darkness
that I will never forget
when she visits me again
it's a friend in homecoming

Till we meet again
my darkest dreams.

Physical pain
I have forgotten
how it felt
to wince
and cry
to want it to stop

Physical pain
a mere dot
when I have gone through
a pain for heart
bullet through mind
burned soul
yet alive

Physical pain
do you hear me?
when I beg for help
to feel
for tears
and blood

Physical pain
are you deaf?
or am I,
am I the one
who don't listen
you were there
yet I,
I did not care

You are an art, full
a wonderful maze

The corners I'll paint
with this mischievous lips

How do I keep calm
when your sunset left a spark

And I can see your eyes
through this water paradise

May you be the storm, but
won't be fearing me to drown

The blazes amazed me
but I will never frown

To lose myself in yours
till the end of time

I made
for you
this puppet
To follow me
through
When it starts
to wish
for new life
Cut it's sew
Then re-establish
my powers
And create some new

This is a purple moment
With the sky bare-skinned white
Once was a boy with the straw hat
His story be told aloud,

One upon in a day-end
Decided to sit and watched
The sunset in a purple up-ground
In the cliff by the immense pond
It stretched into wonders
The distance by the miles
His eyes failed to hold it closer
"When I grow, I'll see beyond"
And he did became a little older
I assumed, he would further watch

What did I expect? He is only human
And this world has different lights
Now he sees the darker version
That the pond now matters not
For he won't look beyond the sunset
And not to the promise land
The boy now wanted freedom
So he sailed, never came back.

dadum dadum

The rain has fallen down
these pebbles sang
their lost kids ran
the rain has fallen down

My kitty cat
slept on the rug
and listened as
the rain kept falling down

it brought me back
to memories
when rain and I
was one

and we would miss
the last retreat
into the clouds
of misbelief

but we would laugh
and play it out
sing this song
of raining, falling down

and in the end
another friend
sit alight
joins our partying

the rain would stop
it will shine
with colors
that are bright

and we then sang
another song
the rainbow is here
all along

To you, her future lover
I plead this simple song
of blessings I thought of
when she's not mine anymore
because someday she won't be
the angel I loved to gaze at
she will choose someone over me
and I will give her the freedom
as I promised to her now
She doesn't deserve to be tied
as she is a free woman

when you hold her hand in public
do it tightly, she loves the warmth
unlike me, you'll get to embrace her
you can show the world she is loved
tell her she is beautiful
fade her insecurities away
and please treat her gently
as she has a fragile heart
I won't see her future children
I'm sure they'd be as pretty as her

if she looks for me as I'm far away
tell her I had to leave
to set her free of my touch
I love her so much
please tell her I do
don't worry as I'd never bother you two

I'm talking so humbly
in this rainy night
because I was her lover
but her very best friend first

I saw my ashes in your shadow
And I looked at it as love
I felt the sorrow in your burrows
And I cried because it's love
You have held on to tomorrow
So we will not be apart
I still see my ashes in your shadow
I believe it is still love.

drooped down eyes
****** tears

warmth of sweaters
two or three

but you see,
this look is real

too tired and done
to even leave

if the last thing
these eyes will see
is you,
my darling

it will be
enough for me

this, my world
swarmed in happy
because you,
made it real

I knew of it, of course
when you decided I lose touch
then treat me like a mock
you used to befriend and such
then one morning you were gone

I knew of it, of course
but the hurt be fixed repeat
when disgust was in your eyes
in your voice a shameful scoff
I bled then patched it up
but desired you didn't laugh

a joke was made of me
your friends were insanity
I knew you liked to bleed
I knew of it
of course

And I saw little atlas
in the night sky above
reminds me of someone
that I so dearly loved

I closed my eyes to breathe in
keep the tears from coming down
and try to smile the bitter
hoping I'd get a little 'hi'

how you been doing, princess?
I am missing you so bad
did you know I sprained my ankle
as I tripped on our past

my heart is bleeding laughter
I remember how you sound
your voice I treasure greatly
is fading in my mind

To my dear words,

I have learned to not
force you out too much

To give you the patience
and the time to come alive

I have decided to help you
heal your wounded lies

So you can form your letters
with newly thorned demise

And your enemies will wept
for they cannot bind you
in their cage

And I, who will adore you
will be proud of your revenge.

I see you, Love
in darkness
I see your love
in light
You drowned my heart
in kindness
And you see me
here and now

Hold my hand
then tell me,
You will always
see beyond
That I might
turn to a stone man
Still, you'll hold me
hand in hand

The edge
is a wave

Don't stand straight!
slip~oops

O' lovely lady
bring your light,

the smile of beauty
to calmness

those lips deliver
happy memories,

make me remember
your tender kiss.

These truth that I am unboxing
might stab your little wounds
but it is too much, I can't bare it
I want the world to know
that the you, little darling
in my eyes are beautiful

I'll elaborate my cause;

You are beautiful because,
at some point you stopped caring
but I knew you worry more
and you tried to hide your madness
behind the crazy in your soul

You are beautiful because,
a lot of times you hated my ego
but you know I'd need it most
and we cannot say words together
behind our barricades of loathe

You are beautiful because,
you lit up when I say stupid
and did not walk away in rue
though in time our connection's sliver
the bond will freeze and float

You are beautiful because,
in my eyes you were salvation
when really you'd deny this all
yet beyond my unorganised delusions
you stayed a little more

If space was a disease
and silence is the bullet

I am a tattered soul
that's been woven to pieces

I am infected with
the lingering thoughts of death

For happly I left
and for happly I teared

she is just in there
one arm long
I am surrounded
yet it felt alone