I dreamt I was in a fight
and woke up
from a deep sleep
stitchless,
in an excruciating fire,
tortured by a burning,
a hellacious tingling.

And when I went to
soothe this itch,
I reached down & found
half of me wasn't there.
It took my breath away.

And as I lay there,
I wondered
if anyone really cared
about such pain,
such sacrifice,
this price I had to pay
for politics.

The only sound I heard
was my heart beating
in my throat
and some burnt guy
lying in a bed
right next to me
without
his face
crying.

Probably
like me,
he wanted to die.

if you see storms
hiding beneath my irises,
blow them away for me. please.

if you see stars
stuck in between the creases of my palms,
bottle them in a jar for me. please.

if you see jards of broken glass
twined with strands of my hair,
take them out for me. please.

but please don't hurt yourself
while trying to save me.
if you think you're about to fall,
please stop yourself.

i am a hurricane waiting to happen.
and that there are secrets hiding in the
creases of my lips as i smile
don't hold me accountable for
the loss that has not yet been found

they're not in the words i have yet to say
nor in the laughter i have yet to produce

they say music is both a prosecutor and a defender.
i have not decided which of those i am but in the meantime,
*let's pretend this never happened

I wanna be artistic
**** achromatic
violence like lip biting
& brain
splattered on the walls
of some place sacred
&I; wanna be worshipped like satan.

Sweet Christ.
my hopes are high.
as am I.

you've got a mind
I'd like to **** blind.
so whenever
you've got the time &
if you like
being set on fire.

I could help.

but we aren't friends
otherwise.
& you're selfish.

His warmth I love
Though never touched
Cause suns still burn
From far away

He'd hear my thoughts
Though never speaks
But silence talks
In many ways

Oh how I'd love
To have him near
To talk even
For just a day

But I know well
As dreams reveal
When I come to
That he's not real

The waves above
sweep over mockingly
teasing me with
gravity

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