She
was the kind of girl
that *tasted the sunshine,
as the rays
sweetened
her mood

and
she often caught
glimpses of Heaven,
as the raindrops
reflected
her dreams

She
was the kind of girl
that listened to the night,
as the darkness
whispered
her fears

and
she forever grasped
the parting seasons,
as the leaves
scorched
her soul

She was
the kind of girl
that savored the scent,
as the morning dew
coveted
her memories

The truth was lost
as it drifted out to sea
and the lies you told
bore the weight
*that drowned me

The urge to disappear
down the rabbit hole
returned with a vengeance,
as the melancholy
song of failure
echoed in her mind

She would welcome
each sleepless night,
leaving swollen eyes
in the morning light

Suffer  through
the aches and pains,
feel the burden of fatigue
and the needed weight gain

Her hair would start
to lose its shine,
gums would bleed
but she'd be just fine

Anxiety would peak
from high to low,
nausea would inevitably
come and go

Her body would be given
to house another,
losing all control
to become a mother

Forgetfulness would visit
now and then,
joining her tender *******
and nausea- over and over again

Her belly would grow
her feet would swell,
her bladder would be
a living hell

The cramps would scream
her back would bite,
her head would hurt
picking dreadful fights

Vitamins would be her friends
alchohol would be her foe,
they'd be no turning back
her other dreams - happily let go

The ones she had
of moving on,
the forever sun
now dead and gone

Releasing her freedom
for a different start,
a new family with the man
who had won her heart

She said yes
in love's sweet name,
but now she fears
love just can't do the same

For his life
seems set deep in stone,
filled with family
where he's already found home