I don't feel like writing
Or breathing
Or even living
I have no inspiration to do anything.
I just want to lay down
And fall asleep
To never wake up.
But I always do.
Each day feels like a drag
Like I am bringing everyone down with me.
I can't smile.
My heart feels too tight
Too tight to breath
I wish I could do anything.
But forcing myself to do something only makes me self conscious
I don't feel like doing anything
But I will always wake up
Just to feel the same way.

I am not strong
But I am brave
I can put on a smile
Through anything
I am not strong
But that doesn't make weak
I can fight for what I believe in
Even if it means losing
I am not strong
But I can hold back tears
If it means you will be happy
I am not strong
But being strong on the outside
Doesn't make you strong on the inside
The inside is what counts
Be strong in your own way.

This is what I am
And what I was
For as long as I could remember
I was trash under your feet
Only trash that could be thrown away
Whenever you felt like it.
I was treated like trash
So I thought I was trash
I thought I was only good enough to be used
And abused
And cut
And bruised
I thought I deserved it because of you
I was trash
But trash doesn't always stay trash
It gets found
Treated like it isn't trash.
Pampered because it was never trash.
I am trash
No I was trash
But now I am not
Because trash doesn't stay trash forever
Sometimes it gets recycled.

I have fallen
Into the ashes
Of what we were
You have forgotten
Who I am
The minute I fell
Into the mess you made
I have fallen
Away from us
Because I was never enough
To make you feel alive
So instead I died
I have fallen
To my heartbreak
Because I somehow thought
You would change.

I am not perfect
I can be sweet
And I can be serious
I fall apart easily
In hopes that someone can fix me
I fall in love too deep
And I hope someday you can fall in with me.
I am not perfect
I have my flaws
Many flaws
I laugh with my heart even if it is too much
I trip and fall all the time
Hoping you can catch me
I am not perfect
But thanks for believing I am.

I have fell to deep for you.
So deep
That I can't escape
My mind only revolves around you
And how my heart soars
When you talk to me
Maybe this is love
But all I know
Is I have fell so deep for you
That no one can save me
But you.

I feel lost in my mind
Like everything is a mess
And I can't find my way out
And I stay there
In the mess that is my mind
Never seeking help
To find the exit
Just staying in the mess
Until I either find it myself
Or die