What is this?
Why would you do this?
It's just a dream,
But it just,
No it isn't real.
It all lines up,
No I'm going insane.
I need answers,
No I want answers.
Insanity will drive you mad,
Don't think to hard,
You know it was a dream,
It was just people close to you.
Maybe with a secret,
But why not just tell me,
I could care less,
I want your happiness.
So what if he's my best friend,
So what if she was my crush.
I do just believe it was just,
Betrayal of a dream.
My own betrayal,
My own dream.

I don't know,
This,
Unexpected feeling.
Rush of emotions.
Filling the container,
What are the contents?
I'm unable to tell.
That black box,
What's inside?
Why is it inside me?
What's the meaning.
One day it will spill.
Then all will be revealed.
But
Until then,
The black box will remain
A mystery.

Lights,
Flash!
Don't blink.
You might miss it.
What is it?
I,
I don't know...
But I think I blinked.

Stop it!
I get it,
You can be cold,
Freezing even.
But the rain?
The rain doesn't help.
Like at all.
I can't get warm in this,
I can only think of one way,
Well the only I want.
Warm body heat,
Spreading to one another,
Side by side,
Keep the freezing,
Words in my mind,
So you never want to part.
But those are only wishes,
For I am alone.
Curse you winter,
Curse you rain,
Curse you cold,
Curse being alone.
Well until next time.

May I hug you?
Like really hug you,
I mean we hold each other.
May I hold your hand?
Have our fingers interlocked,
My thumb running back and forth,
On the back of your hand,
Sorry about my clammy hands.
May I stare into your eyes?
Get lost within the depths,
Lost in a trance,
I promise I won't get lost.
May I have your company?
I'm lonely without you,
You cause so much within my mind.
But I'm lonely not desperate,
So I'm asking,
May you cure my lonely?
I will cure yours.

My mind,
It wanders.
Cursing me with images.
Playing videos of,
Moments.
Not moments that have happened,
No,
But moments that,
Well,
I want.
For example,
One that always appears,
I wish to relax.
My head in someone's thighs,
Their hand in my hair,
The TV on,
Just in the moment.
Or,
Sitting beneath the night,
Us amongst nature.
Or on the hood of my car,
Looking into the vast beyond,
Talking about whatever.
Oh also.
Laying side by side,
My arm,
Being used for a pillow,
Drifting to sleep together.
But then again those are just,
Beautiful Fantasies.