Nothing could ever make me love you less,
Yet somehow everything you do makes me love you more.

I love you
With every strand and fibre of my being,
Every ounce of blood in my veins.
My happiness and pain,
Yet for you I'd suffer the strain
If I could bring your heart to my domain.

Oh the flowers blossom and bloom,
Yet my eyes don't wander from you in this room.
You with a smile so tender and true,
That it hooks my heart,
And forever I'll fall for you.

I love you...
But I cannot pull those words from my throat.
I love you, so much...
But the voice in my head says, "don't."

Take me in motherly arms and rock my soul to sleep.
If I keep going through everyday this way,
I'm not gonna keep.

I'm stumbling, fumbling, hurting because you're just out of reach.
So I drown my sorrows in smoke,
Till I dont have to breath.

Give me a hand like your own,
A hand to take hold,
Make me feel like I'm not alone.
If i could give you my all,
For second,
Just know that i would.
If i could say everything,
Then everything,
Is what I'd tell you that you mean to me.
If you could see how I love you
 then maybe
I wouldn't be lonely.

I learned that this is not the place where you find yourself,
But the place that makes you realize you are lost.

Hurts too much to be hurt,
So I'll just be on my own.
Sorry mom,
Couldn't find a girl to bring home.

I wish I wasn't this scared,
Feeling like Fear has a blade to my throat.
Telling me I'll be hurt,
If I try to let it go.

Cold mornings no longer take me by surprise,
I don't wake expecting the brown in your eyes.
Coffee on my own,
No longer makes me feel alone.
They say it's better to have loved and lost,
I say it's safer when you're on your own.

There's a demon in my head,
I tell it the truth,
And listen to the lies it's said.
It says, that I can just drown in smoke.
It tells me, it'll help pull the words from my throat.

Now I'm drowning,
I've been left in this place.
I'm choking,
Sorrows leave me in this state.

I'd rather not see you in mourning,
So I say I'll get help in the morning,
But I know i won't.

I listen to my demons,
They numb my throat when I scream.
I listen to my demons,
They make sure I don't dream.
When I fall asleep sober,
All I see are nightmares,
And I wish it could over.

I'm struggling, trying to catch my breath.
Fill my lungs with smoke, but the burdens aren't lifted yet.
I still see the world, but it's all in grey,
Won't someone take me away.

What even is this?

Why do we hold it to such a standard?
Raised atop a pedestal,
A goal that not all are lucky enough to reach,
A prize that not all are able to claim.

Why must some spend life running around in search,
Chasing a concept yet baring no knowledge of its meaning?
Why do we search for this feeling that we have never known,
As if it were something last lost now found.

Somehow, I guess we just know.
Instinctively, we know.
Happiness lies at the end of a 4 letter word.

But love is stupid,
And I'm stupidly in love with you.