What is right?
What is wrong?
I wonder why
I have this song
In my mind
And in my heart
Am I a poet
Or am I a bard
I sing along
As I write
But my voice
Has no light

we are the masters of self-destruction
trying to numb the pain with wine
and drugs
and smoke filling up our lungs,
we write down in lines with no rhyme
all the things
that make our souls burn and die.
our poems bleed
we drink their blood
then we write again,
listening to stupid songs all night
wishing sometimes we were deaf
wishing we were dead.
we let the doors open
anyone with a knife can come inside
cutting our hearts in half,
any tear is welcome
to create the ocean around us
in which we deliberately drown ourselves.
masters of self-destruction,
our bodies are temples where dying souls hide,
we run till our legs are broken
jump off cliffs
go between sharks' cheeks
forgetting to sleep
to dream
we bleed
we drink
we love
and hurt
it's a madmen game we play
each day
laughing hysterically
while slowly taking steps to the graves
we dug for ourselves,
the masters of self-destruction we are
lunatics
worshiping what's not for us to adore
crying
hiding
falling again
and again.
legs broken,
hearts cut and eaten
flesh ripped from our bones
lungs full of water
ears burnt
our eyes scream
but that's fine
'cause we are the masters of self-destruction
and our life is just a mad game

i see you painted in other peoples's eyes
i see you smiling in the blue irises
swimming ocean's deepest blues
crossing the horizon and touching the sky.

i see your picture in the green eyes
in spring's early grass i see you laughing
daydreaming,
playing with some hopes
the way you play with my thoughts.

i see your picture in the deep brown eyes
eating their chocolate
the way you sometimes eat my heart

in the black skies
i see you painted
there are no stars
just you wandering alone
looking for something
something i don't know..

i see you painted in blue and green
in brown and hazel and black
and i can only hope
one day you'll see your smile
painted in own blue eyes.

Stay strong
Is not as easy as they say
How can you stay strong
When you can barely stand up
How can you stay strong if the world pushes you down
Why even try if every step only brings more pressure
Every corner another monster to be defeated
How can I fight it if my forces have been drain
How can I overcome this if no one helps
"stay strong" they say
How can I 'stay' if I've never been strong

I am heading out tonight without direction
Everything is a blur
I can feel myself loosing control
I am stuck in traffic, don't know where to go

There's no one to guide me
This path is just too long
I look at the map for guidance, but it's written in gibberish

These streets all look the same
Where should I go?
Which path should I take?
When there's no one to show me the way

Another day begins and I feel the same
What will I have to do to change?
I can't no longer stand
The silence around me has never been this loud

I could go left, but where is that going to lead me?
I could go right, but what future is that going to give me?
All I know is that
Everything is going to be alright
Because I have God here by my side

Bang Bang Bang
The only thing I can hear

Bang Bang Bang
The sound that you left me

Bang Bang Bang
Where your hand met my face

Bang Bang Bang
All the emotions disappeared

Bang Bang Bang
One more time

Bang Bang Bang
For the last time

It isn´t what you said
That hurt me the most
But the things that you
Didn't say
But even that doesn't hurt
As much as the way you look at me
With that ***** look of yours
When i am lacking
Lacking a hug
When sadness has taken over me
My eyes filled tears
I can't fake a smile anymore  
Tears keep rolling down
It's getting worst
And you know it
"It's not my business"
You say
As you leave me to drown in my tears

I spent the days imploring to our Lord
To take my life
Because my soul didn't deserve salvation
At night in my room,
hidden,
quietly crying,
praying that in the morning my eyes would open no more
Regularly in my hand was a blade.
Rebuking,
Punishing my body
for the infinite faults I saw.
Each day my world darker.
With no solution.
Far away I saw a light.
Small and little it lid.
But the more I believe the more it grew.
Then I realised.
He was always there,
my selfishness blinding me from the truth.
I was scared to give myself to the Saviour
but in the end I understood,
that was no blade that was going to save me, no punishment to make me feel better.
But only a question of faith. Was I going to open my eyes for a new day?