Rose - Hello Poetry

Rose Oct 2015

Walls

There I go
I lost again
A competition
No one else was in
Me against
My very own
Self against
The outside world
Locked in a groove
Of "Not this
Not that
Just a fool"
So I stay home
Scratch the walls
Till the overgrowth
Is gone

thank you for being my "dark place"

#home #anxiety #mental #bound

Rose Oct 2015

Pros and Cons

Eyes fallen through
The back of my head
Which rattles with every turn

Quicker thoughts and
Scribbled words
Ideas I've had before

I do what I want
And feel empowered by my
Decision making skills
Although the decisions are poor
And consequences linger

I feel I'm
Honoring my deepest wishes
But I'm just
Giving in to darkness
Listening to demons

writing gets it out and helps the feeling fade

#addiction #demons #angels #clarity

Rose Oct 2015

i walk into a bar and see god

Hey, Hello
what's going on
It's been a minute
since I've said what's up
Your almighty smile
Your all-knowing face
gazing at me,
and I feel ok
I've talked to you, sure
I've pleaded my case
but it's been so long
since I've felt such grace

We disguise it as God
but it's really just us
forgiving ourselves
for the **** we have done
It's all in your perspective
the power you hold
It's in your own hands
You know this,
You know

Rose Sep 2015

Hello?

I should think more
More about the greatness
my father was
and made me feel
as opposed to
the absolute emptiness
when he's gone.

Spit it out

Rose Jul 2015

good morning molly

Sounds like
Feels like
Tastes like
Must be
Tinfoil
Breathe in
Undertow
Blood doesn't have time
To splatter

Rose Jul 2015

what good is it?

inhale smoke
burn on the
deep way down
shrieks outside
of a slid-
ing glass door
exhale less
hurt, more fren-
zy of mind.
yellow light,
not so kind
with my heart,
still I call.
though I fight,
no one knows
anything

you're a ray of light and I want an answer I'll never get

#addiction #pain #loss #sunset

Rose Jun 2015

an open letter

I was numb to
everything you
said or did
almost like I was
drugged or something
the time I got to your house
she was there before me
and I
should've ****** you
right there in the driveway
her sad crazy eyes
watching

instead you left bruises
from trying to keep me

#exlover