I am sad
Sad to breath
Sad to have no one
Sad to be lost
Sad to be forgotten
Sad to have anger
Sad to be hurt
I am happy
Happy to live
Happy to have God
Happy to be free
Happy to wonder
Happy to not drink or smoke
Happy to be loved
I am almost free of my tragedy
It's odd how when I'm dating someone I drink and smoke and self harm. But when I'm single... When I'm free from boys I don't drink. I don't smoke. I'm happy. Maybe I'm not meant to love someone. Maybe I'm meant to live instead.