So you’re sad, you vent your day
I listen close and let you say
Your woes, your anger, all your pain
Aren’t you glad I’m here to stay?

The next day I have a try
I start to state my thoughts awry
You chose to look right past my pain
And state your mess despite my cries

You shove your weight all on my back
Your woes drag down, your caring lacks
Up grows my struggle and my pain
I need rest soon or else I’ll crack

They praised the girl for her quick wit
The girl they never knew
They said she won’t need help one bit
A fight, she’d never lose  

They said the girl spoke like she bit
The girl they thought they knew
They said she won’t run out of quips
A big ego that girl grew

“I’ll not once need help if I’m not weak”
Said the girl they never knew
“I’ll never say when they hurt me,
No matter how I’m bruised”

So that girl, she went to living
Like a false knight off to war
That girl, she hid each of her beatings
The pain, she would ignore

Sure on the surface the girl proved
The words so often said
That she would never once be moved
If insulted or made bled

Yet after every hard beat
She’d hide in rooms to sob
Each time the tears would repeat
She felt so weak and robbed

“They lied to me, those people did
I’m just a plain girl who still cries”
The girl who believed every fib
Every ego boosting lie

They shook their heads, so fast they did
At the girl they never knew
Why did they think that she equipped
The wits to never lose

You, my past and my present
You try to help with lonely lessons
You, you **** me and you bleed
Through every vein inside of me

You, my future and my end
You stitch me up with torn back mends
You, you keep my joys unfound
I gotta gut me to end you now

It never will be easy
To get tumours removed
That’s a fact especially  
When that tumour is you

I need to rip off my own flesh
This cyst, this germ, this flu
It’s me, the chronic sickness
That needs to be removed  

I’ll dig you up with sharpened steel
And rip this tumour out
I don’t think I can fully heal
Without killing myself

You, my love and my sorrows
You bleed me out until I’m hollow
You, I’ll never say goodbye  
You’re all I have and I’m all bled dry

You, you’re something I must lose
But you are me and I am you
You, you’re something deep engraved
And I’ll live with you until my grave