We fight to stay afloat
Standing in a boat called life
Only able to leave behind a note
Scarred from the cuts of a knife

Once they said to me:
Life will only become harder
Beyond comfort is a never ending sea
Swayed back and forth; pushed out farther

Drowning and then saved
A repetitive vicious cycle
Wanted then no longer craved
But surviving this life is crucially vital

We all try to go with the flow
Pressured but never forced
Just trained to believe we know
Our minds taken never endorsed.

I still taste you and I savor the passion that burns inside for you

Your soft almost angelic lips still caress mine even when there’s no kiss

Your smell stuck in my memory continuously haunting the air I breathe

If I close my eyes I can still feel your hands roaming my skin searching but never finding

And your voice forever echos in my ears the words you spoke a lullaby to my brain

The image of your face becomes the center of my dreams as everything else fades away

I realize the security and comfort found In your arms is like the place they call home

The rhythm of your heart beat is as beautiful as the sweetest melody to me

The smile on your face melts me as if I was ice and you were the blazing sun

I’ll never forget these things they will always be a thought

These are my forevers forever... can I be your forever too?

Air cold
Breathe visible
Sounds dormant
Thoughts grow loud
The cold cuts,
Sharp and deep
Reminding the pain lives
No matter how suppressed
Feelings pour out
What was unseen
Secrets, lies, dreams
Now lay exposed
Conflict settles in
True discovery
Or another masquerade
Choices pending
Actions frozen
Fix it
Make it stop
Cover up
Pretend it’s not happening
Just keep going.